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Meaning and Continuation are separate problems.
Maintenance law.
Here is the first talk I done.
Make stories cause stories are just things peoplecreate with recommending a life.
But I'm not talking about the system or theuniverse like someone who studied physics.
I'm not talking about the data like someone whostudied biology.
But I'm talking here about how people in the worldcreate these kind of stories in their mind.
And that's more like looking at how the mind worksinside people.
Not talking about the truth of the world.
So I'm not talking about the law of the universelike physics.
And I'm not putting data together like biology.
And I'm not making stories that give meaning likephilosophy.
I'm right in the middle.
Also usually when people feel bad, they think theyneed meaning in life.
And when people feel anti, they say that's feelingbad.
They are all a truth.
And when people don't feel like doing anything,they think there's path.
And there are real path.
People are made to make reason like just rightaway.
Trying to make reason after things happen.
I'm talking about exactly what I just said in mypodcast.
Talking about how things like meaning, emptinessor wanting to give up happen in the brain.
But it's not looking at myself.
It's not an easy essay.
It's not telling people what's right or wrong.
Now I'll move to the next work about how silly Iam running away from reality.
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Maybe I know how silly I am.
Like how I think my daily habit and my routineitself.
So I don't want to look straight at what I'mdoing.
I just realized this now.
But it's the same with people.
I know how silly my actions are and how differentI am from others.
So I want to erase the fact that other person islooking at me.
It's like running away from reality and maybe that's why I can't look people in the eye.
I don't know for sure because it might just be mybrain traits.
When people don't want to look straight atthemselves,
they usually focus on their body feelings or focuson one point.
But I don't dream so much in my daily life.
Almost 24 hours a day even while I'm sleeping.
I don't know if it's right to connect these twothings.
But maybe the reason that I don't want to lookstraight at what I'm doing,
like running away from reality.
I've thrown away things like meaning.
So I only care about physical feelings in thisempty world.
Like tasting fruit,getting muscle pain afterstrength training,
or falling tired when I move.
But I dream a lot which happen inside my head.
This is strange too because it's not a physicalfeeling.
But I just realized that unlike the meaning oflife,
I can picture daydreams clearly because of mytraits.
That's why it's a problem often.
But I can daydream without thinking.
This world is more real to me than physicalfeelings.
I don't know who I talked about this last time.
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But whatever,I'll go to the next thing looking atemptiness and daydream.
Feeling empty and thinking what's the point ofdoing this.
Actually,animal feeling.
Humans are the ones who start making storiesthere.
I'm not saying humans are bad.
It's just how humans work.
Animals feel empty too.
But when you start thinking,there's no point inliving.
That's very human.
It's okay at some point.
But if you make too many stories like that in mycase,
I shouldn't make any stories at all.
Now,same way,daydreaming feels like something onlyhuman do.
But right now,I don't feel that way.
Just like emptiness,animal reaction,
which is surprising daydreaming,
happen without thinking.
So,they feel similar.
But unlike emptiness feeling,
empty can make a strange story with daydreaming.
That's the same thing.
It makes you remember things from the past,
think about things you don't need to think about.
Make an ideal picture of the past,
even though it's already over.
Thinking about it,they're the same.
Next,I watch videos just to kill time.
I don't feel any meaning in doing it.
We try to give meaning to killing time.
You add extra things.
I think minimalists do the same thing.
Zen and minimalists are connected.
Though I'm not like that.
But Japanese minimalists seem to get attention inthe world.
I'm not cool like them.
But I was doing the same thing without knowing it.
Again,it's like Zen.
I don't know what's real.
But like I've been saying,
I don't make strange stories.
So,when I watch videos,
I just see it as killing time without thinking itsmeaning or purpose.
That way,it's exactly the same as minimalists.
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I don't mean to do it.
It's training at all.
But I'm doing the same thing.
But I don't have a specific philosophy.
So,I'm not really happy to be told it's like Zen.
But it's the same.
Because I keep saying the lowest.
I don't even need to say this.
But I barely move from my room.
So,my life itself is completely minimalist.
Next talk about the social system and massthinking.
Yesterday,I thought that maybe human dignity iskept by,
I mean,something that doesn't get swallowed by thesocial system or the universe system.
Yeah,probably,I don't know what I'm saying.
I don't think that could work.
But I realized what I'm doing exactly.
That mass is different from physics.
Because you talk from premise.
Think logically and get a conclusion.
So,unlike physics,it doesn't explain this world.
And it doesn't explain anything.
It's a very strange world.
Nobody really knows what world or what is massworking on.
Even people who study mass might not be able toanswer.
They might answer what they are doing itself.
But I think physics is almost like a religion.
Scientists,it's self too.
But mass,the more abstract,true anywhere comparedto that.
No matter how strange the universe system or thesocial systems,
or how strange a city I am,
when I think about the reason why I do it,
the answer is just because it's me.
I thought it's fine if I end up there.
For example,what Nietzsche said probably won't beunderstood by others.
Even if I explain with logical reason with theuniverse system or human system being bad,
they won't get it.
But everyone is one or two things like that,right?
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It's strange my explanations.
Just like what I said at the very beginning,
not physics,not biology,not our essay.
So I was wondering what it is.
Then this happened,which is strange.
Back to the story.
Things like next week's habit can't be explainedwith a reason that makes sense to others.
But I thought it's fine,especially for me.
I can't really explain it.
In math,you talk about a dot,
but a dot doesn't actually exist in this physicalspace.
So to me,that's just a story,but it's not areligion.
It's the exact opposite.
Physics,when close,it's a religion.
People who study physics try to find the truth ofthe world,
which sounds fake,but math looks at structure thatcomes naturally from the premise.
So you can't change it at all.
Since I'm doing things outside the social systemor universe system,
my life is full of things,different things.
I see it myself,so I'm always worrying so alone,
which is what I'm saying,but let me talk aboutthis one thing.
Self-faith,daily routine about math.
It's a study with no meaning.
Surprisingly,things that math say are true oftenwork in this physical space too.
Next,since my school days,I've often dislikedpeople with similar character to me,
especially people with developmental disorder.
I think it's self-hate.
I use them as a warning to myself where nobodyhates themselves as much as I do.
But if I hated myself that much,I wouldn't talkhere on my podcast,but I'm not a narcissisteither.
Maybe I shouldn't try to find a conclusion for it.
It's hard to understand.
I'll talk about this later,but today,I thoughtabout changing my clothes.
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But for some reason,I forgot and don't rememberwhy I thought about it a lot yesterday and the daybefore,
but couldn't do it,so I thought maybe I can't doit today either.
Lately,I've been thinking about the show.
I can't keep a regular routine,but today,I sleptby a miracle when I changed my clothes.
The routine's different from usual,but I was ableto adjust to it well.
But then I started worrying.
My stomach started hurting from strange pressure.
My mom tried to take an English lesson in themorning early.
She did something extra,couldn't take it for theday.
Also,there were many problems.
Nobody hates themselves as much as I do,but if Ihated myself that much,I wouldn't talk here on mypodcast,but I'm not a narcissist either.
So,today,I thought about changing my clothes.
The routine's different from usual,but I was ableto adjust to it well.
But then I started worrying.
My stomach started hurting from strange pressure.
My mom tried to take an English lesson in themorning early.
She did something extra,couldn't take it for theday.
Also,there were many problems appearing up,whichis bad.
I thought a lot about why I wanted to change myclothes today.
I thought for more than 15 minutes,but couldn'tremember.
So,I felt I wasn't time-gain.
In times like this,I want to get that time back.
So,I thought about the short description from 3.30to 6am while my stomach was burning.
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So,for me,it was very well.
I've been thinking about the short descriptionlately,but the weight and time was different.
But I could think about it.
So,everything went back to the start.
I threw everything away.
Since it was such a heavy time,I felt so bad.
I thought,what was that for?
I should've just changed my clothes.
Then,I wonder which is more strict my usual way orthe day.
I changed clothes while checking the balance.
I decided which way to choose today.
Well,that's the first point.
Spent time for nothing.
The second point is that I worried about what todo.
I tried to take an English lesson in the morning,but was sleepy.
Also,it's bad luck.
Even though I slept well yesterday,it's just badluck next day.
Fragment,checking the balance.
I decided which way to choose today.
Well,that's the first point.
Spent time for nothing.
The second point is that I worried about what todo.
My mom tried to take an English lesson in themorning,but was sleepy.
Also,it's bad luck.
Even though I slept well yesterday,it's just badluck next day.
Fragment,memory of modern society.
But just a moment ago,I smelled a scent of salt.
Someone's house from elementary school.
Maybe a friend's house.
It was a relative's house.
A public hall.
It's a scent.
I even thought for 20 years,a strange thinghappened.
Two strange things happened this morning.
This is daydream.
Daydream,I prayed so many times.
I prayed dozens of times.
Didn't want to remember it.
But when I try to talk about it here,I can'tremember it.
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But what I can remember now is what I can'tremember about it.
Like a scene with an actor in a mystery show.
I can't remember which makes me feel bad.
But before I was checking what's a good thingabout people in a club.
Last time,I checked about airplane above Hokkaidoairline.
That has nothing to do with Hokkaido's flyinghigh,which surprised me.
So I checked it.
Also,rarely I check about celebrity who I getcurious about.
Yesterday,I checked about actress.
And I remember that a girl from Nogizaka used tofight a long time ago.
Also,yesterday,I could listen to a podcast.
But I thought I shouldn't study philosophy.
Because I give up on it.
Feel like a waste of time.
I don't think about philosophy myself.
But I wasn't listening to philosophy.
But yesterday,I found a good one.
I thought I found a good one.
But now,I'm falling.
But philosophy,because I might,when I listen toother shows,to next talk.
But anytime,how the world,how the mind works.
Yesterday,during dinner,I noticed something.
I noticed my things.
Sometimes,anytime happen which I make a purpose.
And then,then I can use more energy for the nextaction.
That means,if I make an empty time,usually,I focuson things right in front of me.
Especially for me,if I don't focus on things rightin front of me,
I think about the future.
And if I don't focus on dinner right in front ofme,
my mind goes to the next thing to eat.
So I focus on things right in front of me.
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For example,when I moved a big plate,
I focused,but I made an empty time purpose.
So I don't remember why I made that time,becauseit's too small.
So it seems like it's nothing to do with the nextaction,right?
But I can use energy for the next action.
For example,while running,if I lose some strength,
now I think I'll put strength one second later.
Meaning if I make an empty time,I can use a lot ofenergy at once after that.
Why does this happen?
Like I said many times,we think action comes fromafter the mind decides,
but it's the opposite.
Body is just preparing before the action.
This move proves it.
I can see this usually.
So no matter how I think,the mind comes after.
Also about the news of the director's violence.
I talked about this last time.
Our relationship on human stories,it seems like.
Why does this happen?
Like I said many times,we think action comes afterthe mind decides,
but it's the opposite.
Why does this happen?
I talked about this last time.
Our relationship on human stories,it seems like.
Why does this happen?
報道を知らずに、ポリシー社会に作られた報道は、恐ろしくて、未来については不公平だと思いますが、
私にとっては完全に合理的だと思います。特に日本人の人々は、私のトレーチを見ると、
人々は不思議なことを考えることができません。
正しい答えはわかりませんが、間違いはありません。
私はいつも悪いことを感じましたが、彼は暴力者だったので、私は何かが間違っていることを言うことができません。
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しかし、日本の人々は、このようなことが理解できません。
他の人々にとっては不思議なことを見ることは、理解することは良いことだと私は思います。
AIはこのような理解を明確にすることができます。
しかし、ディレクターが彼の仕事を失うとき、人々は間違いがあります。
しかし、私たちはそれに慣れていけません。
今までの社会の問題については、理解しづらいことがありました。
スキャンダルがありました。
スキャンダルがありましたが、私はそれを理解しませんでした。
それはあなたに対して何かを作ることではありません。
それは理解しづらいことです。
彼らはそれを明確にしようとしていますが、それは現実ではありません。
それは日本の人々の一部であり、それは理解しづらいことではありません。
ですから、私はそれが怖いと思いました。
私がその話を聞いたとき、
彼女の父は驚きました。
彼女はそれをしようとしていませんでした。
しかし、それをしようという意味ではありません。
それは問題です。
時間が経つとき、
暴力が終わった後、悪くなります。
しかし、私たちはそれを考え始めます。
しかし、私たちはそれを考え始めます。
サイコパッシックプロセスのトラブルはそのようなものです。
しかし、サイコパッシックプロセスとAIは
完全に違っています。
次の話は、
パースハウスとサウスケの感情についてです。
サウスケは私の母親、
私は彼らが昔存在していたことを聞きました。
サウスケは私を支配してくれた国境です。
次に、非常に奇妙な気持ちがあります。
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それはカッコ悪いです。
私はそれを理解します。
誰かが自信を持っていないとき、
それを恥ずかしがっています。
しかし、そのような気持ちで恥ずかしがっていることは
最初に起こります。
それが反対です。
私はそれを理解します。
それは悪くなるか、恥ずかしがっているかを
理解する必要があります。
そのような奇妙な気持ちが最初に起こると
社会の人々は
どのようにも言っています。