第5503回 bad luck too much about neighbour＆japanese diet food

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

最初のエピソードでは、隣人とのバーベキューや日本の食事法について伺い、特に豆腐の味やテクスチャーについて考察されています。エピソードには、豆腐や七夕に関する思い出や昼食についての会話が紹介されています。彼女は無限使用について言及し、膝の傷が徐々に回復していると話しています。また、エピソードでは隣人との関係の不運や、日本のダイエット料理についての理解が深まります。

隣人とのエピソード

Hello everyone and welcome to my podcast. Thanks for tuning in. It's friendly and welcoming.

Today, here's what happened.

Few days ago, Tomokoshi went to bar with neighbour and it's true.

I always save money.

50 cent is real stuff, real money.

In general.

But for me, it's too huge.

And he would have paid money.

I would have paid money.

And the neighbour is former director.

He often have been meeting celebrity.

So I have wanted to know what kind of celebrity.

But until now, just now, I haven't heard it.

Next, he quit job and he moved to Hokkaido.

日本の食事法の考察

He change garage.

So this door is automatic and he have a lot of money.

He has financial leeway.

So, I have jealous too much.

Next, I'm not sure about lunch.

It's Japanese food, hondashi, shirodashi.

For lunch, I should use it or not.

And I use it.

Tofu, flavour of tofu would be good more than now.

And I want tofu to be more softly texture.

思い出と豆腐の話

But there is nothing, there is no way to do that.

And we talk about this.

We were talking about this yesterday.

Obviously, I was talking about tofu.

But he made a mistake.

He misunderstand.

He misunderstood.

Until now, just now, we were talking about this.

But it's no meaning.

You can't understand it.

You can't understand something I told her.

Next, I watch YouTube and I remember Japanese festival.

Tanabata is held on July 7th.

I remember it.

When I was a child, 5 years old.

Maybe 5 years old.

Kind of 5 years old.

Tanabata, when I went to kindergarten,

It's held on kindergarten.

This memory is bad.

I have a lot of trauma at the kindergarten.

Suddenly, yesterday, I remember it.

I also remember my relative home.

In winter, it was warm.

I remember it.

Next, as I said, we were talking about lunch.

She said hondashi.

She don't use hondashi.

無限使用とけがについて

She said unlimited usage.

She don't use because she don't use it.

But, she said like this, but.

But eventually disappear.

If I don't use it, but.

Eventually, he use it.

For miso soup or etc.

Or other thing, other dish.

But, she think unlimited usage.

It happened today, the middle of the night.

My legs have been swollen.

But, this wound healing.

This injury healing.

Injury is healing.

My injury is getting better, but.

It's right leg.

But, left leg is swollen a bit.

A bit swollen.

But, today, timing is bad.

Today, I should change clothes.

And, there is a lot of things I should do.

I have bad vision.

So, I asked her to look my legs.

To confirm that there is wound or not.

And, I should.

I should take off the bandage.

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Sorry, yesterday.

I forget hikimeshi corner.

Yesterday.

隣人との関係の不運

I had nimono.

Carrot and daikon.

And, fried tofu.

It's called age or usuage.

It's very oily.

It's good taste.

And, chicken.

It was good texture.

And, potato salad.

It had no taste.

It didn't have any taste.

It didn't have any taste.

But, good texture.

Thank you for listening.

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See you again.