第5490回 my microwave broke but strange…

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

最近、彼は英語を学び始めたが、ポッドキャストを学ぶ意義について考えが変わった。最近のエピソードでは、マイクロ波と夢の中での出来事について語られている。エピソードでは、引っ越しや日本料理の話、いとこの高熱についての感情が語られている。電子レンジの故障を通じて、奇妙な出来事や新しい発見についての興味深い話が展開されている。

ポッドキャストの学び

Hello and welcome to this program.

Thanks for tuning in.

Today is what happened.

Today here is what happened.

Firstly, I think, I realize it's important to continue something.

I've been running podcast for one year.

One and half years.

Now, recently I began to learn English.

Recently I start to learning English and…

But, and, recently I began to think that it's no meaning learn the podcast.

It's no meaning that I learn the podcast than before.

But, just now I'm learning podcast as much as before.

Next, before I thought it's better that I began to learn English.

Then, I gain knowledge and still.

But, now my thinking is different from before thinking.

マイクロ波と貯蓄の重要性

But, recently I began to…

I start to learn English.

So, I think I'm bad luck person.

Next, recently I made a mistake.

I bought microwave but it's no meaning.

It has function of my oven but it's no meaning.

I can't use…I need to use this function.

So, but, however, limit is important.

I should save the money.

So, I'm not free now.

But, but now I haven't…I don't have desire.

It's good for me.

夢の中のメッセージ

Next, yesterday I was a dream.

I saw…I saw a dream.

I saw a dream.

My cousin…my cousin's husband said in a dream.

Do you have medamayaki, toast egg?

Toasted egg.

I make this for you.

And I have it.

I had it.

感情の波

I said good texture.

And I ate.

You can…to eat it.

But, since in the middle of this dream…

Maybe it's dream but it's perhaps I fantasize.

And I go to my room.

Perhaps I try to hikkosu.

I try to move other house.

And I was emotional.

I was emotional. I was moved.

Next is in the car.

My cousin has high fever.

He has fever.

So, I talk to…I told you what…he is terrible.

So, I told his wife that he is terrible.

And my cousin was learning English.

So, I admired.

Thank you for listening. Please follow this program. See you again.

Ah, sorry.

日本料理の紹介

Next corner is hikimeshi.

Japanese Japanese food.

Torikatsu chicken.

Fried chicken.

Similar to fried chicken.

But it's panko.

Panko.

It has panko.

Like bread.

And eggplant.

Thank you for listening. Please follow this program.

See you again.