第5498回 neighbour's strange news she came to my house

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

近所の女性が家の鍵を忘れてしまったため、食事中の彼は彼女のことを心配しながら、スタジオでの出来事を話します。隣人に関する奇妙なニュースや、食文化に関する誤解、記憶の曖昧さが明らかになります。豆腐を使った食事やポッドキャストタイトルの決定についても触れられます。このエピソードでは、家に来た隣人との出来事が語られます。

隣人の訪問

Thank you for tuning in. Hello and welcome to this program.

It's FuwaRui. Firstly, today it happened.

Today isn't a day as usual.

When I was eating lunch, neighbour came to my home.

Because she forgot key on her house.

And her daughter got a job, went to job.

So she couldn't came into her house.

But I was eating, so she was entrance.

She was at entrance.

But I worried because she might come into here.

I worried you come because entrance is very cold.

She getting cold, so I worried.

And I was curious about her.

Because I'm sensitive to sound, so I couldn't eat lunch.

But I don't know when she will be back.

But I can be helped.

I start to have lunch.

ジブリの料理

Next, Japanese anime Ghibli.

Ghibli's food.

I search the dish that appear in this Ghibli anime.

You see and pumpkin pie was looks good.

So I search it.

Then I remember pumpkin pie.

When I was young, I ate sometimes.

But my memory is ambiguous.

My memory is ambiguous.

So I try to remember it.

But I couldn't remember.

One years ago, same thing happened.

Pumpkin dish or pumpkin sweet like this.

Maybe pie was I think.

But I forget it.

Next, it's Japanese food, shabu-shabu.

About shabu-shabu, I misunderstand.

I had misunderstood.

I think it's normal to use pork or chicken.

But you can't eat.

It's normal that people use beef.

But I can't believe her.

Because she make a mistake.

She make a mistake frequently.

It's common for people.

People in Hokkaido, it's common.

Commonly, it's common.

It's normal.

They use sheep.

And she said,

When you are child, you often eat it.

But I don't have this memory.

I lost this memory.

Next, beef shabu-shabu.

You ate.

Last time, you were eating beef shabu-shabu.

But it's 5 or 6 times.

She make.

She misunderstood.

She misunderstood.

No, no.

She said,

You weren't born yet.

She said.

But I was.

But I was there.

Next.

I'm not sure.

食事と豆腐の話

Lunch.

Everyday, I use just a bit.

High price.

Tofu.

Or,

Same price, but other kind of tofu.

I use other kind of tofu.

Or,

I put tofu on the soy milk.

Or,

Hiyayakko.

Recently, I use tofu and liquid fried soybeans.

I repeat these two pattern.

Next.

ポッドキャストのタイトル決定

I have been able to decide my podcast program title.

When I start podcast, I couldn't decide.

So, it's same thing.

I decided to separate this program or not.

I decided.

I decided not to separate this program.

But I'm not sure title.

Next.

I watched program, music program.

But,

There was a Korean idol appeared.

A certain girl was similar to someone.

But, I couldn't remember.

So, I searched it.

But, I couldn't remember.

But, there was a person who was very similar to this idol.

Next.

Once in a while,

I want to know my wife or my uncle.

She already died.

I've never met her.

So, I asked her.

Who is she similar to?

But, she always couldn't answer.

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