第5501回 a strange japanese idle is similar to me ＆ japanese food

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

エピソードでは、オリンピックについて話が始まり、個人的な経験や発達障害についての考えが共有されています。また、騒音の隣人や特定の映画、アフタヌーンティーに関する興味深いエピソードも語られています。乃木坂46のアイドルグループの番組を通じて、自己表現や食に対する好みについての共感が表現されています。今回のエピソードでは、日本の食材や料理について言及し、特に昆布やポテト団子のテクスチャーが興味深いことに触れています。

オリンピックと個人的な体験

Hello and welcome to this podcast. Thank you for tuning in. Here's what happened.

Firstly, we were talking about Olympics.

It doesn't begin yet, but

a certain winter sports team

they win at the finals.

But she said, from now on, she should play the game.

But it's finals. It's always finished.

So I remarked this.

She said, I don't remember. I forget it. I didn't say something like this.

Next, I asked her to search my note.

She always jumps to conclusions easily.

So she always makes this note.

She can't find out.

Today, it also happened.

Next. Next is about podcast.

ポッドキャストと自己認識

As I said, recently I'm talking on the podcast in English.

But I'm not sure whatever foreigner listen this program.

There are a lot of something that I can't understand at Japan.

Before I speak about it.

But now, sometimes I'm talking about it.

So I think I'm bad luck person.

Next.

It's developmental disorder characteristic.

Most children, gaze at something, catch the eye.

I also tend to gaze at something, catch the eye.

That's why.

So I was grabbed by someone multiple time.

Next.

It's about chat DVD.

I'm interested.

Because recently, I wanted to practice pronunciation.

For example,

She said, talk.

騒音の隣人と復讐の思い

I repeated, talk.

She said, talk.

I said, talk.

She repeated, talk.

So I said, talk, talk.

She said, I wanna finish to hang out.

Yesterday, I listened to AI cover.

Song covered by AI.

It's interesting.

Anime song, but funk arrange, etc.

Next.

It's one when I was always in the podcast.

Very, very noisy.

Neighbor, my eat company neighbor was there.

And this neighbor, local people, they took revenge.

So I was jealous.

Noisy neighbor.

There is noisy neighbor.

But I couldn't take revenge.

Next.

特定の映画とアフタヌーンティー

I watched a certain movie on YouTube.

A certain rapper appeared on one person.

He tried to afternoon tea.

Afternoon tea.

He asked him, it's cream?

He said, no, it's butter.

He remarked, it's same thing.

Almost he was angry.

He looks angry.

But the other person continued to talk.

If I were him, I would be anxious about him to be angry.

Even little, I have a distracting thought.

I made a mistake.

Yesterday, my leg have been swollen.

So I was not sure.

It's okay to do as usual way.

It was my distracting thought.

So I made a mistake.

I touched the handrail.

I was mistake.

I made a mistake.

Because it's dirty.

Next.

ポップコーンのコーナー

Next corner is popcorn.

Popcorn.

I watched idol group's program on YouTube.

Secret Nogizaka46.

5 years ago.

I saw her first time in a while.

She said, she hadn't.

I haven't.

She said, I haven't.

She hasn't confident.

Confidence.

She didn't have confidence.

With confidence, I was surprised.

And she said.

She remarked, I'm not comfortable being on TV show.

But she's good at being on variety show.

She has very good characteristic.

And next.

I don't have favorite something.

So I'm not sure what I should do.

We have free time.

And she always go to the area far away.

But at the area, she doesn't do anything.

I can understand a bit.

And she also said, she want to do as usual.

She seems to like to do usual way.

So I can understand.

I don't wanna change my routine.

I wanna do something as usual.

But I really wanna change my routine.

Or something.

So it's similar to her.

In case of her.

シンプルな食の好み

She go to area far away.

And she mentioned.

She dislike food that hard to eat.

Just a little bit.

I understood it.

Because I like simple thing.

At the food.

At the thinking.

Next.

Hikime-shi corner.

Yesterday, I had Chinese food.

It has food.

日本の食文化

It has Hakusai.

A bit pork.

And Shirataki.

And yesterday, I had Konnyaku of Tarako.

This texture is interesting.

And the day before yesterday.

I had.

And yesterday, I ate fish.

It's called.

This fish called.

This fish is called.

Hokke.

It's good taste.

It's also good taste.

The day before yesterday.

I had Chinese dish and.

It's same thing yesterday.

Yesterday.

And.

Potato Dango.

It's similar to.

Midpoll.

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