第5542回 EN Family Communication Struggles

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

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家族の対立や日常的なストレスについて考察し、個人の経験がどのように影響を与えるかを探ります。エピソードでは、家族とのコミュニケーションの難しさや、個々の意識や感情について取り上げています。豆腐の量や価格に関する家族間のコミュニケーションの問題も扱われています。家族間のコミュニケーションの難しさについて探求し、世代間のギャップや理解の摩擦を明らかにしています。

家族の対立とストレス

Hello everyone, welcome to my podcast.

This podcast currently discusses daily struggles, mental health, and family conflict.

I shall do it on Neurodiversity, isolation, social disconnection, and life as someone

navigating unique challenges daily life, emotions, and reflections shared as they are.

Today, I talk about family conflict and its two things, and

and worry about eating food.

So firstly, I don't know why, this year, this season, I need to turn on the stove in the middle of the night.

Last year, I turned on the stove, so I don't know why.

I thought I didn't need to turn on the stove, too.

I also didn't need to turn on the stove, so I regret it.

But that moment, I realized.

Because of that, I could turn off the stove early.

But it had been correct.

This year, I try to turn on the stove less time.

It's no meaning. I try to avoid turning on the stove as much as possible.

Like this, I'm thinking on something too much.

It's common for me.

Next, it happened today morning.

Tomokoshi went to Sapporo, and I heard from Yokan.

My cousin and my aunt, they're going to gather today for the lunch in Sapporo.

家族とのコミュニケーション

I can't take a conversation.

I mentioned.

Is it event like funeral?

Recently, my mother died.

My grandmother died, so I mentioned like this.

Firstly, he went to my mother's house.

That reason, I asked her.

And she said.

Obviously, I don't know why.

She looks like uncomfortable.

So, I couldn't understand.

Why she looks like that.

I don't know.

哲学的な考察

Next, it's philosophy.

For the lunch.

When I'm eating something, I try to taste.

I try to make sure to taste.

That moment, I realized.

I can't taste.

So, I realized.

Awareness and consciousness don't feel.

That's why I try to taste something.

I couldn't eat.

I couldn't taste.

We recognize something and consciousness feel this.

Consciousness don't taste and don't feel.

So, I think.

I realized.

Next.

日常の出来事

Today, it happened.

It happened today morning.

In the morning.

Yoka repeats a mistake.

He must go.

She said.

The price of tofu is more than 100 yen at the neighborhood store.

Much recently, she remarked.

I forget.

As a thing.

As a tofu.

There was amount of tofu.

豆腐のコミュニケーションの問題

There was different amount of tofu.

As amount of tofu.

Was there.

She wasn't sure, but she said.

Second time.

She said second time.

She failed.

This time also, she made a mistake.

Today, she said.

As amount.

I didn't see.

As amount.

As different amount of tofu.

But.

But.

I said.

I said this thing.

Just earlier.

It's problem.

So, I said.

And seem to.

She seem to.

What kind of tofu.

Was there.

But.

She was not sure, but.

She said this thing.

Second time.

She failed.

So, I did.

And.

And she got in the detail.

And he tried to.

Cover it up.

Try to cover it up.

But he got in the detail.

But he didn't know detail.

But she had confidence.

And she said this thing.

And she failed.

And she spent ten minutes.

To think on it.

But I didn't know what she was thinking.

And.

Immediately, I realized.

I found.

Yesterday, I also.

Told her.

Didn't you see.

More price of.

More.

Low price of tofu.

So, I mentioned.

Next corner is hikimeshi.

Yesterday, I had sukiyaki.

At the end of the year.

We took.

Beef but.

Yesterday was chicken.

Pork.

And hakusai and.

Shirataki.

And green onion.

Yesterday was green onion.

Green onion.

And pasta chowder.

Was good taste.

Today's morning.

It was there.

And it was.

Was good taste.

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