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まず、今日は何が起こったかについて話したいと思います。
I heard a strange talk on podcast. Someone said,there are many old people and stories of whatshould young people do.
Then the other person said, there are young peopletoo, even though they just say, most really oldpeople get there.
They said, there are many young people. It dependson the place. I saw two problems here.
First, they said two different things. Second,they talked about how it depends on the place atthe very end, which ruined the whole story.
They just built it. Some people always ruin theirown talk like that.
My mom did that too. Also, a baseball team managergot caught by the police because they hit hisdaughter.
People are like animals because stupid people likehim. I can't say what I want to say or fix themisunderstanding.
But people like him always exist, so it's okay. Wecan't help people who hate each other.
Someone said, something should live with monkeys.
Human society. Now, here is the main talk.
I said last time that keeping something going isdifferent from having a reason.
I don't live because life has a reason. And I don't do things because they have a reason.
I started thinking about them separately. Life hasno reason.
But I'm alive. Even so, it's wrong to think. I can't do anything.
When you really know the world, there's no reason.You don't even get the choice to do whatever youwant.
Judging if something is good or bad has no reasonor value. It's like an empty land.
In this empty land, it doesn't mean you can doanything. It just means anything you do iscompletely nothing.
I'll talk about this later.
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But when I think about having no reason, I alwaysmeet what Buddha said. It's not about religion.
I just live what Buddha said. It sounds right thatnothing matters because life has no reason.
Since there's no rule or value, but this is sostrange.
What I said yesterday, and it sounds right thatthere's no point in living life with no reason.
It looks right if you think with your brain, butthinking there's no point.
Living is just being stupid, whether there's areason to live.
Whether living is strange or completely different.
When I got out of the trap of religion, I didn'trun to other things to save me.
Usually people live by stories made by others,like drama or reading to live.
They aren't free, but they are safe. I thoughtthat way, so I can't depend on anything. I'm free.
But this freedom put me behind this absolutefreedom's fear.
Science also studies freedom's fear. It's likebeing thrown in another space.
Usually people run to something to save them.
When I was in religion, I had less freedom thannow.
But I worried a lot about my path and how tostudy.
I wondered why I was really not.
Religion is not empty.
When you believe in thought, there's an absoluteright and wrong.
No place is more than religion because there'ssomething absolute.
You don't see that much in society. It makes lifeeasy.
But it's a big lie because that can't exist.
Religion says crazy things are absolute.
But this real world is made of things that don'tmatch.
Must say no clearly.
And school life shows you can't say what's rightclearly either.
But since I thought there was an absolute right inreligion, I went for it.
I looked for the right path for God's teaching.
And I thought that's the best way to study.
I didn't want to make a wrong choice and waste mylife because I was in it.
I had a huge rule that I must not make a mistake.
My brain's too hot.
So I worried God's laws.
The rules were strict.
I got tied up trying to fit in.
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Now there are no rules in this empty world becausethere's no right answer.
It's like when you take away rules from sports,players don't know what to do.
That's it.
But I made my own rules.
I didn't have them.
Things would go bad after I left religion.
Everything became empty land and the right answerdisappeared.
So it became much easier to live.
And I didn't break down.
Whatever you think it's no use for you to breakdown.
This body must move right.
And like before, the right answer disappeared.
Any path is the same body.
I don't have a strange job from God anymore.
And I don't have a place I must go now.
Let's look at it from different sides.
There's big absolute reason like outer space.
But from a small side, the body changes.
Any actions, the same could lead to no reason.
You can still say eating keeps you alive and noteating kills you.
So there's a difference.
Let me move on.
Even with a real reason, you worry because youstart trying to make things best.
You compare path and possibility.
The moment you give a reason, you start worrying.
But animals are made to be unsure from start.
It's not strange that I worried more about my pathwhen I was religion.
A right life makes choice heavy.
When you think there's no reason, there are onlydifference.
If there's no good or bad, body difference will noreason.
There are just differences.
That way, everything is the same.
Outside difference don't matter.
But humans are animals, so we avoid pain.
This is our DNA from the start.
Everyone's it.
So even if the big values are the same,
we feel difference as animals.
The word reason make it hard.
As animals would change things from good to bad tostay alive.
Whether you think everything the same could leadto no reason.
Or you stand in the empty world like me.
There's no value difference, but the body keepsfeeling good and bad things together.
What I did before, like school names are success.
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Looks like just different shapes.
When you turn off your feelings, completelykeeping your life going,
less roots its reason.
I lost connection with other.
But if my feelings became completely flat land,
I couldn't live.
So I try not to turn off my feelings too much,
but also not to have too much reason.
Next question.
Even if keeping something going separate fromhaving reason,
that logic means you can keep doing pointlessthings,
so anything is OK.
But that doesn't happen.
So we must be judging whether there's reason.
Do you understand?
I say I don't judge by reason.
But I keep choosing certain action and trying hardin life.
As I said who we can choose good.
We are animals that avoid bad feelings andfreedom.
We live by choosing good or bad things as animals,
not by value judgment.
Even when thrown in a space,
I also have my own rules so I can live.
Like the sports talk,
I have strict rules for a small part.
Freedom makes things.
Civil goods' rules get weak.
Humans want absolutely right answer.
So they go to religion.
Rules are not reason.
There are three frames.
Ichiro gets stressed easily.
He said so himself.
He gets stressed by making a daily routine,
so he doesn't have to choose having rules
because you are free,
something science talk about too.
It's related to how people do the same action overand over
because there are three animals do the same testwith chimpanzees.
When given freedom,
I thought I lost freedom by staying home,
but since I left religion and became empty,
I'm outside social rules so that free.
I had to tie myself up.
This is not about being good or just.
It's like keeping a system safe.
I can live in the empty world
because animal power,
if humans lived only by reason,
they would stop moving when they see the emptyworld,
but most people keep living even when they feelempty.
It's like breathing.
Humans are made so well that it moves me.
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The heart moves without thinking.
When I'm hungry,
my brain stops working well.
A system to keep me going is already there.
When I hit my limit,
I sleep until now.
Humans have a nature to bring back balance.
I'll say it again.
We can live in the empty world
because animal power,
but if we are only like animals,
we just look for fun forever and get messy.
If you live like a human,
you can live with rules,
but being too much like an animal makes thingsmessy.
Rules support life.
I always talk about the relationship
between the empty world and rules.
With only the empty world,
you get caught by it.
Ask what the reasons.
Other animals are the same,
so it's not life.
Philosophy.
It's just a feeling.
You could also give up when caught by the emptyworld,
but rules support you.
So without them,
life stops and you lose all drive.
It adds to bad feelings and you run too far.
Life just stops.
So what I said before about rules and the emptyworld
supporting each other is right biologically.
It's interesting that the empty world and animalpower are close.
I thought about rules with my brain at first,
but now it's like a breathing.
I don't do it,
because it's right.
I just eat before I don't eat.
So rules don't break.
In the empty world,
even if I feel empty,
I don't ask why I breathe.
I heard something interesting.
People say anything is OK.
There's no reason.
But anything is OK.
It's a choice to allow it.
Just need a reason first.
It doesn't matter.
I think you don't have to live,
because life has no reason.
It's strange.
Many people think about this,
but the talk itself is already strange.
Anything is OK.
Allowing it and rules are already there.
You can eat anything today.
You see a body eating,
and a person making a choice.
If it's completely empty,
there's no absolute value.
So the ground to allow anything disappears theworld.
OK.
Already it's a valid judgment.
So it's right to say nothing changes,
whatever you do.
It's just a world problem.
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I mean everything is the same.
It's not about allowing or stopping.
I don't think about this more.
You can do anything,
because you are free.
You are young.
It's not real freedom.
That's still valid.
So philosophical,
it's not real at all.
But it's interesting.
When you say nothing changes,
because you are free,
it sounds cold.
So people don't say it.
Humans don't wanna see the truth.
So they are interesting.
It's easier to live by looking away.
We stay alive that way,
knowing the best.
But from the empty world,
I never feel anything's OK,
because there's no reason.
I never thought anything's OK in a bad way.
And I don't think anything's free and OK in a goodway.
Rather than feeling free,
I feel lost,
because the religion map's gone.
It's like being in a big sea
with no rear,
but still moving.
There's no ground.
I call it being through.
Now,
space,I say it's strange
and doesn't match to think.
Say anything is OK,
because life has no reason.
Then is it strange to say,
you must not do anything
because life has no reason.
Or is there something stopped?
What do you think?
This is strange philosophy.
Anything's OK means two things.
One's no body difference.
Everything's the same.
There are differences.
But no body difference.
The opposite body difference
means there's no right answer.
So if everything has no reason,
is it right to say there's a right answer?
That's wrong.
What's the problem?
Thinking anything's OK,
because life has no reason.
It's right if it's meant to.
No body difference,
but humans make the meaning
of allowing anything in it.
Some people give up.
Give up because of that.
Going back to the start,
I said I think about life's reason.
Living with rules separately.
Separately.
What do you think about them?
Separately.
You bring things in life
even without a reason.
Counting stones,
but it doesn't mean anything's OK.
Anything is OK
because there's no reason.
Counting stones,
or looking at the sky all day is OK.
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Do you see?
The idea itself is strange.
It's just a word problem.
It's wrong if it's only about body difference.
But it's wrong if it means
counting stones OK.
So we have to think about them separately.
Separately.
Keeping things going,
reason.
From another side,
the reason why doing a pointless action
is not answered
because the human body and brain break easily.
Humans see this shape,
but that's aside.
Let's talk about it.
There's a shape that breaks easily,
but humans made that shape.
I want to talk about deep today,
but when other animals see a forest,
they don't think it's a forest.
Only humans give it the same.
Forest humans are the same.
We just give the same human to human.
It's simple.
A child can understand.
Humans just say,
there's a shape,
and it breaks easily.
Think humans break easily.
It's just a nature that comes out
when you see the shape.
Putting that aside,
when you break,
it's no use.
Nothing starts.
I always think,
whatever attack you make,
it's no use if this body doesn't move.
Before,
thinking of life with reason,
the human who thinks
must be here normally,
so completely pointless things are not okay.
I feel I only do that.
Smallest need action in this house to live.
Why do I kill time
to not break down from another view?
I've already moved on my path
during my religion,
because a world with a right answer
with a fear of making a mistake.
In the empty world,
you can't make mistakes
to appreciate the difference you believe
even with a real reason,
because both have a reason,
so you don't know which is right.
When reason is zero,
you don't worry about A and B.
I think you shouldn't run anywhere.
Depending on the world,
having no reason,
or depending on something to save you,
is bad.
Running anywhere is a problem.
Another thing is that
there is a very small bump
to not break down,
but that's far from
what people call reason.
Reason is mainly meaningless,
but it's just a rule
to see if the animal system is safe.
In that way,
I only do what's needed to live.
Even in an empty world,
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reason,
I running anywhere
might mean you already made a map.
Fixing it might be a problem.
Interestingly,
Buddha said,
don't hold onto things,
but make monks live with strict rules.
They keep the system moving,
which means keeping things going.
Humans never become completely empty,
because what I said,
it matches what Buddha said.
As long as the body is here,
you'd have fun.
So you can't be free.
Desires are always there.
So even when you scrape away reason,
reason appears.
To talk much is much.
Buddha said,
another question came up.
In the empty world,
it's great and hard to choose.
I shouldn't worry
during religion.
Religion makes you not free,
but you worry,
because there's a right answer.
In the empty world,
choosing either A or B is the same.
So it's simple,
and you don't worry.
Religion,
both A and B,
reason,
you worry it's a complete turnaround,
like a school test,
where you fail,
like making a mistake.
Choosing a path would fail,
or making a mistake,
because the life made by religion,
it's like a false thought.
Religion made mind messy,
and looking back,
it's even hard.
My life,
philosophy,
I change them,
not during religion,
but simply,
even if the world is empty,
the body and brain are here,
philosophically,
so anything is OK.
It just brings pain,
and panic,
and you can't live,
saying anything's OK,
when there's no reason,
valid judgment,
for example,
same crimes,
but it's a valid judgment,
in a completely empty world,
good or bad don't exist,
there are only physical events,
like a crime happening,
or not.
So when I talk,
this podcast,
I try to talk about,
what's happened is,
it is,
without adding my own views,
yes,
I'm recording now,
I forgot to talk about this many times,
but I use Reddit lately,
I talk about it before lately,
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I look at things about kids,
religion,
parents,
things I miss,
and Ikebukuro,
I like looking at dudes,
I'll talk about today,
since I turned 20,
I feel interested in movies,
more often,
in school,
I was never moved by things,
I was moved by strange things,
but since I turned 20,
it's happened often,
and I get moved by anything,
it happens to me,
maybe I'm just ignorant,
but I think,
I thought,
planes near my house,
were running or taking off,
at the nearby airport,
today,
I found a good site,
that showed that,
planes are flying at what time,
it was shocking,
planes fly over Hokkaido,
from other countries,
right over my area,
there are set paths,
they fly,
often I talk about,
hearing noise at 1am,
before,
I wondered why,
maybe because,
summer vacation,
but they really fly at night,
from Canada to Chiba,
it was so shocking,
looking at that site,
many planes,
right south-
south-
south-
asia town,
planes are like trains there,
they have way more planes,
than Japan,
also,
this is shameful,
but to be honest,
I thought,
Taiwan near Hokkaido,
that I think about,
it's way south,
so I was surprised,
it was shocking,
that foreign planes,
fly over so often,
it sounds romantic,
but I'm not a plane,
so I'm not happy,
they're just noisy,
therefore,
I write over my area,
on a map,
it was shocking,
it makes me sad,
also,
I make bad luck,
became a hitter,
coming back,
last year,
I felt very anxious,
but I didn't send it,
for repair,
and kept it,
this year,
it's not so hot yet,
I thought it was OK,
I still can't,
take off my fleece coat,
but it came back,
faster than I think,
I thought,
this happens a few things,
in my life,
so I'm used to it,
also,
I'm too horrid,
so while watching videos,
I went downstairs,
to touch my phone,
I fixed the show description,
wrote notes for the podcast,
I still,
I often regret,
not just the show name,
but the stream itself,
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but that drives me to keep,
this going for a long time,
and keeps my energy up,
but I still feel bad about it,
I think,
I should have done this,
or that,
I feel I failed,
also,
I remember that,
human reason,
the strange video,
I don't know the truth,
maybe it was changed,
I didn't think the AI era,
would be this scary,
I heard some people,
their school album changed,
and spread around,
I never accepted,
that it ruined their image,
and people can't tell,
if a video like that,
is real anymore,
the world will be full of lies,
the idea of life,
might even disappear,
it's crazy,
also,
the idol group,
Hokkaido,
I supported,
and got Hokkaido,
but supporting,
just for the place,
feels like a fake group,
I don't get it anymore,
on the other hand,
for some reason,
I started thinking,
success doesn't help much,
we share Hokkaido,
but my feelings are complex,
the friend,
suddenly became an enemy,
also,
I'm interested,
how women feel,
for example,
there's a tall,
polite,
but a bit silly,
funny guy,
I wonder,
what type of women,
he would be a hero,
I've been very interested,
in that for a long time,
also,
a few years ago,
I found out,
that many adult women,
like anime,
with young boys,
and when I support them,
some men,
like young girls too,
many women,
like young men,
or boys,
I wonder,
what that feels like,
completely,
it's completely different,
from being a mother,
that's why,
I wonder,
also,
my parents make curry,
two or three times a week,
it feels like that,
every time,
I feel awful,
normally,
I would have been happy,
to eat curry,
in my case,
I make this dish,
with vegetables,
used for curry,
when they make it,
they smell our curry,
it's catchy,
with a good smell of spices,
where shall we go next,
I slept during a day today,
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regretted it again,
I feel bad all day,
I couldn't listen to the radio,
I wanted to hear,
because I slept at day,
I listened without,
with winding it back,
I just have to think,
this bad feeling make me,
try harder next time,
but,
as I said before,
you can't get time back,
you can,
you can,
wind back,
type,
tape,
but you can't,
wind back time,
next day dream,
a guy,
I hated religion,
so,
me,
when I was,
became fast food,
I was a host for religion meeting,
he told me to host,
suddenly,
only when I wore,
this clothes,
just to make me,
feel bad,
I said no,
he said,
you get sudden jobs,
sometimes I laughed it off,
my dreams,
and said it's ok,
for me,
but it's trouble,
and everyone,
so,
I don't wanna,
but before that,
I wear clean clothes,
when I host,
he feel bad,
he said all the guys,
this is all a day dream,
I don't know,
why I can day dream like this,
while,
focusing on my meal,
but I hate him,
and so,
I day dream,
next target,
was justice,
I did it in school,
but at school,
I couldn't treat people the way I thought,
maybe because I'm bad at human relationship,
or my brain doesn't move fast enough,
I couldn't say anything,
so I knew it in my head,
but I couldn't act,
this might be a common thing for developmentaldisorders,
I still sense justice now,
but I never wanna lie to myself or others,
I'm less perfectionist now,
maybe that's why I can live without following mysense of justice completely,
while a strong perfectionist,
I would try to follow it,
in school,
I was perfect,
but completely feeling,
I couldn't follow my sense of justice,
for different reason than now,
people love it,
when someone talk about the discovery from longexperience on TV,
even though brain science or psychology alreadyknow it's normal,
they feel they found it after long experience orpain,
it's important to them,
even if science explain it or it's common thing,
it tells various things around from realexperience or understand with body,
but too many people talk like they found itthemselves,
when it's already common in psychology,
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and I can't understand that,
it's OK as a personal experience,
but even sports players respect talk like falsefor bad things,
as everyone already knows,
most people just talk about things they heardelsewhere as if they found them,
but today talk is different,
when someone talk about wisdom from inside them,
not from others,
it means they reached the truth for themselves,
but if science already know it,
it means nothing to the listeners,
it means a lot to the person of course,
the world of weight,
cause they came from the end,
and it's easier to understand that way,
but talking about it,
the common truth is strange,
even if they say they found it by experience,
science already prove it clearly,
next talk,
before and after religion,
something I thought I should care about it,
I wanted to know the common truth,
I'll say it again,
I wanted to know what to care about,
or common fact,
but many people say abstract things,
that's just the way to not worry,
daily life or lifestyle tips,
now I know there's no truth,
but I hate it,
when people talk about abstract things,
and give life tips,
I never wanna do that,
cause the abstract level is wrong,
also about the podcast,
I did many trials,
I'll talk later,
like recently talked about bad times in religion,
life philosophy,
I thought it would be good,
good to include this,
I thought it would be good to include this,
but I decided to only talk about things around me,
so it's a delicate point,
it might sound the same to listeners,
but for me,
recent talk,
I just found things about the change,
before and after religion,
while thinking about the show,
and I'm just talking about,
I shouldn't do something,
just talk about,
it's a podcast,
if I do it now,
there will be rules at first,
I talk about many things,
but it's hard for the show frame,
and if it's too free,
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you don't know what you're talking about,
videos are the same,
having too many to watch it,
but as I felt lately,
for Sakamichi groups,
watching one group,
kept me going longer than supporting many,
it's strange,
but limiting things is better,
for that reason,
to remember my first goal,
I wanted to talk about things around me,
I remember my first goal,
to talk about this 10 years ago,
and to show myself,
I started talking too much,
but philosophy was not good,
and I thought about the reason why I talk,
of course,
I shouldn't have too much reason,
but I thought about stories,
I can tell,
it's not about feelings,
too much reason,
it's just about what theme to use,
as a frame for the show,
I regretted this a lot,
but I couldn't make time to talk about otherthings,
what happened today,
it's strange,
but human energy is limited,
so I couldn't use 10%,
for today's talk,
it became 40%,
so it didn't go well,
it would be good if I could manage with 80%,
but it dropped to 40%,
so I was talking about today,
but it's hard,
it's different from philosophy,
and past stories are not good either,
but it's what I noticed today,
and it's just a feeling,
there's no right answer anywhere,
except inside me,
this is not just for myself,
who I don't think just talk about things that don't matter to me,
it brings big trouble later,
it's what I just said,
I lose the ability to talk about today,
so it's hard,
next talk,
sometimes I daydream about meeting local friends,
I wouldn't go out now,
but if I did,
everything in front of me wouldn't matter,
I lived that way in school,
I regret not caring about each part of life,
so I do it now,
I don't care about daily life,
and put all energy in religion,
so human relationship went bad,
now I do each things well,
but I became too nervous,
who I go out,
things in front of me look small,
I think I thought about this earlier,
who you feel too much,
reason and make a story,
rules and order disappear at the end,
so both empty words and rules are important,
also a local bookstore closed and things are bad,
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things are fading,
but I was moved by that too,
a local Nepalese restaurant closed lately,
and I was surprised I'm talking,
I'm taking notes now,
but not write a book,
I was thinking about the show name,
could think about myself,
so I'm writing it down,
this is not good for me,
cuz I can't clean it up,
I'll wanna throw it away later,
I'll take notes on other things,
but I don't have the skill to use them,
it's scary if I can't do it,
I don't know what to do,
taking notes for everything strange,
and I'm worrying,
I'm recording now,
I've few things to talk about,
first since I was religion,
I didn't wanna make value judgment,
but society said you shouldn't do bad things,
or put people in ranks,
religion said things like throwing away,
but religion itself is the biggest,
heaviest value,
so it's strange,
from my nature,
it feels shallow,
and there's no reason,
politicians trying to make the world better,
but rich countries like Japan,
will only change from now on,
individual,
it's the same,
I won't say common things now,
but you don't know what you do now,
right?
until 10 or 20 years later,
30 or 40 years,
the view will change again,
people tried hard,
believing it'll get better,
but I wonder what the truth is,
so for the podcast,
why just criticize Japan,
it means,
I think there's a better country,
which is just a value judgment,
I don't wanna make value difference,
when you say something bad,
it means there's something good,
that has no reason,
so I won't say it's here,
I'm not just being careful,
it's nature from birth,
on TV,
critics say things that look like criticism,
but things change and don't get better,
people feel too much reasons change,
why did I talk about this,
it's what I said at the start of this episode,
next talk,
famous people,
they're rich people,
in Japan too,
youtuber are rich people,
like simple lives,
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when youtuber eats,
convenience stores and books,
idols say they live a healthy life,
it's strange,
but hearing that stopped me from being jealous,
in my case,
saving money makes me feel good,
so that's the reason,
but truly rich people living simple,
interesting human mind,
do you think I find it very strange,
some people buy sports cars,
even if they don't care about cars,
just cause they got rich,
but big success comes to those
who are not like that,
it's a bit opposite for me,
who I focus on work,
I don't spend much on food,
but humans wanna make balance when things aredark,
I thought about spending some money on my daydream,
I'll never be rich tough,
now talk,
I forgot what I wanted to say,
so let's move on,
hearing about women working at night stores,
that makes me anxious about the future,
when compared to people who work hard to live,
I'm still anxious now,
what is the future,
there are about 3 things that always makes meanxious,
it repeats everyday for over 10 years,
it's mostly about the future,
like what happens to the podcast or money,
sometimes I worry if I can stand beings alone,
or about illness,
human relationship,
I can't ask for help,
I have no friends,
on the other hand,
I don't owe money,
I didn't commit a crime,
so I don't have to be so sad,
but I never learn from reality,
doing a quick fix,
no reason,
because my days don't change,
it's no reason,
I never thought things will work out,
it would be easy if I could think that way,
I know it in my head,
but I don't think it would be nice,
I'm too weak to think things will work out in thefuture,
but if you wanna think so,
you should be allowed to do any one thing,
so sometimes when worrying about the future,
rarely thinking things will work out,
maybe might be making a story,
I didn't reach that answer today,
during the day,
but thinking now,
it must be making a story,
a quick fix or thinking things will work out,
would be a short save for me,
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also when strictness grows,
it's ups and downs,
today,
I thought about making a story,
to not think about the night,
I wonder how that would be,
and I noticed I see the trees,
but not the forest,
going away with strictness,
that's that,
making a strange change,
never worked out well,
but I think everyday,
I think whether doing things,
as usual,
strict,
or making a strange strict now,
it's just myself,
so as a result,
this becomes a wall,
now but dinner,
there's pork,
cabbage,
shitake,
mushroom,
bamboo shoots too,
also chicken,
starch,
it's good,
rarely,
amount of starch,
it's just right,
that's cabbage,
it's only oily,
nuts,
seeds,
olive or vegetables,
are very good,
rarely,
also Chinese cabbage,
and macaroni,
start from the store,
this number one,
there are few types,
rarely,
like with potato,
or ham,
Japanese ham,
it's good,
maybe it's just me,
but bacon,
and sausage,
all taste the same,
compared to the real place,
they must be the same,
it's not,
a good memory,
eating hot dogs,
at baseball games,
or junk food,
at the amusement park,
I talk about the school festival market,
before,
it was junk food,
like fried chicken,
or french fries,
I don't eat hamburger,
so maybe it was fried chicken,
until high school,
my house didn't eat western things,
like hamburgers,
just junk food,
fat food,
or family restaurants,
so I feel low about it,
I eat ketchup,
but seeing someone put ketchup,
and mayonnaise,
or french fries,
made me feel low for some reason,