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Meaning and Continuation are Separate Problems
Maintenance Law
I'll talk about things that happened today andmorning now.
I finally talked with my parent. My mom saidsomething, but
steller on TBC said
he won't come on this show because
he know by working.
I didn't know what she was talking about at all.
I asked her about it later. She didn't use asubject and
she didn't give me any detail.
She thought I'd understand her anyway.
I told her hundred times that I can't understandwhen she talked like that.
I don't know why I feel so sad about this.
Who she were stranger, I just think it's silly.
That would be it.
Other things happened. I forgot the detail, butshe suddenly said something strange.
There's two things happened today. Also like Isaid last time, I thought there were
two all-you-can-eat buffet place in my town.
Both places had sushi, yakiniku, ramen and manyother types of food.
I used to wonder about that. I thought there wasno point in
eating all those things at that time.
At the same time, but I found out that
there are almost no big business
change like that in Japan.
Sominatoro is the only famous from other placesare
hotel buffet and most all-you-can-eat places arejust for yakiniku.
I used to wonder about it, but now I think it'sbetter to
have all kind of food.
It looks rich and it attracts people.
Going goods, they can eat different things.
They say running a place like there is very hard,
but if someone does it across the country, it willsell more.
I wonder why there isn't one.
Also my parents talk about the sauce for all-you-can-eat yakiniku today.
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They said, why is that sauce so bad? It might bedifferent now.
But it was like that before. I went to all-you-can-eat places
a few times, but I never thought the yakiniku wasgood.
The meat from supermarket is much better.
That's what I thought. I had many questions likethis from the morning.
Also I don't usually ask them to charge my phonein the morning,
but today I wanted them to do it.
So I put my phone there. My mom washed her handand noticed it.
I don't know why, but she washed her handdifferently depending on the time.
Sometimes she washed well.
I used to wonder about it, but now I think it'sbetter to have all kind of food.
It looks rich, and it tricks people not goingbecause they can eat different things.
They say running a place like there is very hard,
but if someone does it across the country, it willsell more.
I wonder why there isn't one.
So I asked them to wipe it with a wet tissue whenI change my daily plan like this.
So I put my phone there. My mom washed her handand noticed it.
I don't know why, but she washed her handdifferently depending on the time.
Sometimes she washed well. Sometimes she doesn't.
I don't know why, but she washed well today.
So I asked them to wipe it with a wet tissue whenI change my daily plan like this.
Especially when other people are around, thingsdon't go well.
That's what happened with my mom this morning.
But English, like I said before, I think aboutwhat words I should use
when I want everything to be 100% perfect.
Also for English and practice, remember how to doit.
It's very hard.
I won't talk about the detail, but this kind ofthings happen to me a lot.
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In short, it's four parts that fight each other.
I feel like it's impossible to run it this way.
If I run this part, it fights with that part.
It's two different things.
If I do this, it goes this way.
But that happens.
Also, like I said last time, there are things I'vebeen worrying about for a year.
There are things I've been doing every day forthis past month lately.
Because I'm too hard on myself.
I feel like I'm talking. It's easy.
I'm not taking it easy.
But I think I should have recorded my talk inother language during the time.
I had nothing to do.
So I just worked hard making the shortdescription.
And I feel I waste time and take it easy.
I feel bad about that.
Also, I remember just now that I told my opinionto my parents.
I wonder if there are other people in the world
who don't listen to others as much as them.
They don't listen at all.
When I say things they don't like, they act likethey are making fun of me.
They look like they think I'm saying somethingstrange.
Also, they look like they think,
Why are you saying things back to your parents?
That's like Japan 15 years ago.
So I'm not talkative or fighting.
But the moment I say something,
I just cut me off completely and don't like it.
There are not many people like that.
Because I can't say my opinion to people easily.
When I say my opinion to people,
I often think they are giving a wrong answer.
That happened at dentist.
It happened a lot when I was a student.
Even if I tell.
And then, I mean this.
They just get angry and say things back.
I can imagine that we can talk to make thingsbetter
and fit our thoughts together.
So it makes me feel bad.
They say something wrong and look like they think,
What are you talking about?
What happened when I was a child?
I can't say anything.
And I rarely go to the end.
I don't really feel OK with it.
So right now, I'm talking about the show name.
And I can look deep in my worries.
So I could look deeper in my mind and condition.
Like developmental disorders.
I've been thinking about the show name for amonth.
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I should do more and look deeper in myself.
I feel bad about that.
That's been my worry for the past three days.
It might continue for another month.
The next topic is about what people do.
Don't you feel easy before you do something?
When you worry about a real show,
and you feel worried and tight in your mind,
you think this is going to end soon.
Even before the show starts,
your bad feelings go away.
Even if it doesn't go away,
you feel you'll be free soon.
For me, the moment right before
is mostly OK.
A week before or three days before,
I feel the worst.
But right before,
I think this is going to end.
Now, usually,
you should feel more worried right before.
Things should get hard.
Humans are animals.
So when the time is close,
your feelings should get stronger.
But it's strange.
It's because humans' imagination.
We think we can be happy after this end.
But imagination can't explain everything.
Even if imagination works,
it hasn't ended yet.
Also, your imagination should work more
than a week before.
And right before the show,
you stand there.
It should be harder.
But yesterday,
I saw a person on TV who was like that.
They said they feel free now.
Even though it hasn't ended yet,
leaving aside if it's good or bad,
that the bad feeling goes away.
But for the show,
for me, right before,
the moment is the best.
It might come from my personality.
What I wanna say is that
humans always travel in time.
We go to the future.
This feels like going to the future.
We imagine the time after its end.
The idea of time is made by humans anyway.
So it's fine to think freely like this.
It might sound like a big stretch
though.
But if we don't think this way,
we can't explain it.
Of course,
it's not a magic or a time machine.
We just make a mistake in our mind.
We feel we are living in the now.
But if even that sense of now
is made by the brain,
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we can think we live while going to the future
or going here and there.
Humans don't look at the things around them.
They look at their memory.
Yesterday,
another strange thing happened.
It's an old song by Spitz.
It's from 2 years ago.
For a reason,
I looked up the word of the song.
I don't usually look up song words,
though I saw a news story on the internet
saying the number of times people got the song
passed hundreds of millions.
I saw it was an old story,
but it was new.
It's strange.
I saw many things.
Like if it was a search suggestion.
This kind of things happen to me often.
The song is from 2 years ago,
but it came out as a new story now.
That doesn't usually happen at this time.
Sometimes this happens.
Also the reason I wanted to look up the song words
wasn't because I saw it on TV lately.
I was watching an old TV show.
It's like a miracle.
Also I was watching sports fans from all over theworld.
It's very hot.
I have a rule not to watch YouTube,
but I had to watch it to understand.
All of them were soccer.
Also hockey, NHL, rugby too.
But it was soccer.
Like Argentina or Germany.
The reason I wanted to look it up
was because I looked up Chiba Rote yesterday.
This is about the 5th time
why the Chiba Rote cheering so organized and cool.
I don't like Japanese baseball cheering much
because I used to do it myself.
I don't like Koshien either,
but I only like Chiba Rote's cheering.
I wondered if there's cheering like that in theworld.
Soccer is much bigger than Japan.
Some bad groups seem to be in it there,
so it looks deep.
Many of them are in Spanish-speaking countries.
It's strange,
but Japanese and Spanish sounds are very close.
I talked about it before
and I found another platform.
They are the same.
I looked up why everyone watched
America's Major League Baseball quietly.
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It's like golf.
They think if they don't watch quietly,
the players can't focus
and the fans can't focus either.
Then I wonder what Japanese baseball is doing.
It's an event, a cheering culture
that came from Koshien, like golf.
I used to wonder about it.
I thought players can focus if
people make that noise with noisy tools.
It can't be helped,
but that's how it is.
In a major league,
they don't make noise with noisy tools.
I really wonder about this.
If Chiba Rote can do it,
why can't other teams become cooler
and more organized?
I wish that noise would go away.
I watched a video yesterday.
It's just crazy noise.
Maybe that can put pressure on other teams.
Though, what I want to say is that I have aquestion.
I've been thinking about this for a month.
That I also had this question for years.
I have a very rich and smart image.
But unlike medical school for doctors,
they don't need to come from a school with a hightest score.
It's strange.
I looked it up yesterday,
but I didn't understand well
what kind of person can become a pilot fordoctors.
The pilot who becomes a doctor
says because their test score is high.
Most people do it for that reason.
The official reasons,
they want to save people,
but there are no people like that.
They do it because the pay is high
or it's stable
because their test score is high.
That's the same as going to Kyoto
or Hiroshima for a school trip.
The travel company can get hotel easily.
Studying about peace is just an official reason.
The next topic is about saving your favorite foodfor last.
When you save it,
you keep the fun,
but if you save it for tomorrow,
you can keep the fun until tomorrow.
Then it might be better not to eat it forever.
That's what I think.
This is a problem.
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What do you wait for?
Fight with what you actually use up
before you eat.
Give the happy feeling that you'll eat.
So keeping that feeling as long as you can.
But if you don't eat it at all,
it's changed.
One hour later,
two hours later is fine.
But if you wait until tomorrow
or the day after tomorrow,
the happy feeling goes away.
I said this before.
It's a problem.
However,with time and deep thinking,
the happy feeling,
not when you do something,
but when you get close to it.
That's my way of saying it.
I don't think a trip is fun when you go.
It's fun when you get ready for it.
When you are in a trip,
you just focus on.
Some people are in a big mess.
You can think it's fun before you go
or after you come back.
For a video game,
isn't it fun before they come out?
Or before you buy a new phone?
When I get it,
I can use it.
I get worried because I feel most keep it
safe and important for meals.
I have strong things about how to enjoy happiness.
So it's complicated.
It's complicated for me
because I'm too strict with myself.
It's better not to make too much time for waiting.
Also because I have those things
about how to enjoy happiness.
When I get close to happiness,
my fear gets stronger,too.
That's strange.
Usually,if you wait forever,
if you put off,
the happy feeling goes away.
But if you eat it,
now the happy feeling ends.
My next question is
who you eat your favorite things.
Other things don't taste good
because other change.
So it's better not to eat it forever.
But you should eat your favorite things.
That's my next question.
Who you eat your favorite things.
Your brain learns what is good
by one step.
Normal taste doesn't taste good.
It feels like something is missing.
So if you don't taste the best thing,
your everyday happiness is higher.
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That's my question.
But if you stop your favorite things completely,
your one builds up.
You feel life is nothing fun.
The lack of fun makes life look gray.
I would avoid that.
Also life becomes too simple.
Everyday is the same.
You think it's better to have fun sometimes.
I think about this often.
People are different.
But which is better for a day off?
Or is it better to work every day?
I thought about many things.
This connects to that story.
For me,
is it better to work every day?
It depends on
if it's a body work or not.
If it's the
I need to rest.
I'll start a job where I do
asset task every day with me.
But some people need a full day off.
Or it's not good.
I don't know where.
And I couldn't make a final answer.
So strong fun breaks your normal life.
If you eat sweet things,
dinner doesn't taste good by that amount.
But if you don't have fun,
sometimes you feel sad.
Humans don't do it completely.
They don't only have fun.
They don't wave up and down.
Sometimes it's fun and tasty.
I can't understand other people.
Why do the brain that works with these things
part fight each other?
Maybe I'm the same.
But looking at others,
for example,
they go to see a movie.
Before they see it.
While they see it.
Before they see it.
While they see it.
It is fine.
They can stay.
That feeling after that.
But if they spend a fun time,
the more fun it is.
The more they feel lost or get tired later.
Depending on the things they might feel.
They did something wrong.
Like,
What am I doing now?
They think,
What am I doing?
Maybe everyone enjoys that change of feelingitself.
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The more they feel lost or get tired later.
Depending on the things they might feel.
They did something wrong.
Like,
What am I doing now?
They think,
What was I doing?
Maybe everyone enjoys that change of feelingitself.
But in the end.
The more fun it is.
The bad feeling comes back later.
It depends.
It becomes plus or minus zero soon.
I thought there's no need to make that wave up anddown.
I can do that.
But people in the world don't wanna do it and can't do it.
It must be a part of developmental disorder.
When you live the same life every day.
You usually go crazy.
People see movies or listen to music to look forhappiness.
But they change completely.
Like a different person.
Movies delete fun.
They go back and forth.
They don't stay on one side.
They see a movie and feel lost.
So they look for another fun thing next.
Usually people don't do that.
I can't stand that.
I can't go back and forth where music is the same.
When you listen to music.
Why don't you listen to your favorite song 100times?
You can listen to the best song on your list 100times.
But people don't do that.
My thought.
That should be right.
It should be better to listen only to yourfavorite song.
But your feelings get numb that way.
If you have a different song for life.
Or don't listen to music at all.
You have a strong feeling.
But music gets stronger.
For me.
I get a bad feeling like a drug habit with music.
Balance is important.
But again.
Will you delete happiness as much as possible?
When you have happiness.
It's that much stronger.
People.
You have a strong feeling.
But music gets stronger for me.
I get a bad feeling like a drug habit with music.
Balance is important.
But again.
Will you delete happiness as much as possible?
When you have happiness.
It's that much stronger.
People on a food plant lose way to think.
A sweet bread is very tasty when they eat it.
But they don't choose never to eat a sweet breadfor life.
For music.
Or anything you listen to a song.
The same short path.
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Repeat forever.
You get bored.
It might make you feel worried.
But when you are in a hurry.
Bodies might open up suddenly.
This is the wave up and down I talk about.
People use that human wave well.
My next question is about people who haven't felta sudden feeling yet.
I thought they are lucky.
Because they can feel it from now on.
For example.
People who saw a great movie can't feel that firstfeeling again.
But people who haven't seen it yet can feel thatfeeling for the first time in their life from nowon.
People with no experience of future chance left.
But if you don't touch it for life.
That feeling is close to not being there at all.
First I think about the time distance.
Like I said.
If it's said that you want to listen to this greatsong for life.
What you want for there.
So you must go to the middle.
But I can trick myself.
Even if I know I won't do it for a long time.
I can look forward to do it.
I think that's rarely.
That's why I do strength training hard.
I do today's training for tomorrow too.
But I imagine I'll do training tomorrow too.
I think I'll take a rest day.
But I know I'll probably do training.
That's hard stuff.
I don't think deeply that I won't do it today.
I just do it right before.
That's a trick to how I kept my training going.
There's happiness of chance and happiness ofmaking it real for you.
But only chance is like doing something.
Not opening it and keeping it forever.
It's like planning a trip with fun but not going.
Not many people think that's good.
Many people think it's waste.
They think it's silly for you just save money anddon't use it for life.
Actually it is.
But I save money and feel a bit good.
And I feel easy cause I can use it.
There is silly about that too.
That easy feeling becomes a feeling of happinessin the end.
Even if I die without using it.
That's fine.
When people use money.
They are not that happy.
Humans look for the best time.
For this movie.
They look for when it hits them deep.
Right now I'm here.
I remember just now that people even really beennice to me.
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I thought about the reason.
One reason I don't notice even if they are nice.
Especially to my parents.
But about the relationship with my parents.
We talk like it's business.
I wonder if we are really parent and child.
They never praised me.
I don't know who I should say this clearly.
But I have no memory of getting love at all.
I don't feel anything about it now.
But I don't think other families are the same.
Especially these past ten years I looked at.
Other family.
Notice my family was very strong.
My parents are strong.
Strange anyway.
When I was in kindergarten.
I had a girl like a girlfriend.
In the first grade of grade school.
I worked at home with a girl.
In the low grade of grade school.
There was a nice girl.
I have good memories too.
But people rarely been nice to me much.
That's why those memories stay clear.
I wonder why.
Maybe my human connection were the same.
I'd better look the next stories.
What happened just now.
It's about video today.
All those strange game.
So I asked about it.
My parents said something hard to understand.
Like going from number three to number two.
Then to number one.
I asked who that was.
But they said it's a video.
And I understand little by little.
I didn't know what they were talking about.
I don't know.
I don't trust also.
I remember what they said this morning.
Suddenly they said.
This person came to the live show too.
So that was good.
They tried to talk about the person.
We were talking about right before.
But I couldn't know that who.
In a minute ago.
In that person's head.
That person was still there.
They think they say something.
It passed to me.
Also please listen to this completely.
The story in my head.
My parent.
My best friend.
Asked me to go to the study school.
For example with him.
I said no.
Then I studied for another year.
When I haven't met him since then.
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I thought today that.
This shows I'm really cold person.
No excuse works.
Personality doesn't change.
But I feel very bad about it.
I've seen people who change their mind.
After they feel bad about things like that.
For example.
They go to prison.
They've very hard time.
Some people become OK.
I think personality is said by birth.
But I've seen these people.
So I hope I'm changing too.
But like I said.
This is just a story in my head.
Actually if you stay inside the house all thetime.
You can't meet your best friend.
Even if you want.
So it can't be helped.
I can only believe that.
He understand too.
It feels that.
That I'm an exception.
But it's not.
But being cold or not.
A cold person might be better.
I can't say which is better.
Also when I was a singer.
I look at what feeling they've now.
Today.
Instead of listening to the song.
I look at who the singer was focusing on the song.
Or focusing on her face.
How she looks.
I get in that person's feeling.
After the song.
She was a girl in a female group.
And everyone like her.
Like I always said.
In a girl's school.
Or with other animals.
When they are in a place.
Where they can touch men.
They put things onto women.
And look at the men.
That means.
There must be much love in a group.
That's fine.
Though I think that part of a female's interest.
Like I've been talking.
I try not to make a story with meaning.
And I keep kept my feelings together.
But.
Having a developmental disorder.
Means making a story.
People think.
He's a developmental disorder.
So it couldn't be helped.
That he became like this.
And that becomes a help to save my mind.
I wonder if that saving itself is good or bad.
Making a way to save myself with a problem.
Sometimes I think it's better not to know.
About a developmental disorder.
But if I didn't know it.
I'd have nothing to save my mind.
And I might have broken down.
Even so.
I think it maybe might have been fine.
I use the level of developmental disorder toomuch.
I had to use it.
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And so.
If I didn't put that level on myself.
I think I could have done more.
I think I could have done more.
By working hard.
Working hard means hard work.
Not to worry with a heavy mind.
It was impossible when I was young.
But if it's a developmental disorder.
It comes from my parents' body from birth.
So it couldn't be helped.
Being saved by a developmental disorder.
Itself is a problem.
And it really helped me.
That's why I feel I failed.
I tried through the level of developmentaldisorder many times.
But I carried it with me.
The next story is about a famous girl.
Who had a bad story in the papers.
She is an idol.
Before she joined us.
She said so herself.
But after she joined.
A picture of a person everyday.
Clothes is a magazine.
I didn't feel much about it.
It's strange.
I think about it.
But I care about more.
The video is real or not.
It's a magazine.
So of course it's not her own clothes.
It's strange.
She said this is an old picture.
They say real things are stronger than stories.
But this world is too strange.
I wonder if this can happen.
I don't know.
But that picture itself might be made by computerAI.
Only the clothes were changed.
That means this famous girl didn't notice itherself.
She thinks even though the picture was changed.
If so.
I feel the irony of this world.
If this can happen.
She might not notice it.
The next story is about my cardigan.
I'm still wearing it in this season.
So it's hot.
It's past May.
And it's June already.
I'm not doing training like before.
So I shouldn't have to wear it.
But it's strange.
This is strange too.
And I don't even feel like thinking about thereason.
It's not strange this time.
My part about not writing story makes me feel likethere should be a deep thinker with the same wayof thinking.
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But there isn't.
So I feel alone again.
I'm looking up a deep thinker called Chiron now.
Before I thought he was the exact opposite.
He makes a sad feeling look beautiful.
But with very similar part with Captain.
I'm making a daily log that's close to my podcast.
Also knowing that life has no meaning.
The limit makes you free from all things that tieyou down.
That's same as my thought.
But that doesn't mean I feel good.
I feel strange to who I think about it again.
Chiron talk about the sad feeling that somethingbeautiful.
And he's just watching that sad feeling.
I don't treat a sad feeling as something beautifulon my podcast.
Also he hates political talk hard with forward.
Or show his hard feelings with forward.
But I think cool myself down with word.
Other words I push down with our energy.
It's good that energy comes out.
But it's a problem for too much come out.
There are so many deep thinkers.
And I'm different from all of them.
That's trying to basically deep thinker say humanscan't live without meaning to life.
So even if there is no meaning.
You must make us meaning.
Since deep thinker say that.
I might be just saying nice things.
Actually I might be making us meaning.
I don't like that thought.
I believe it's not true.
Though I believe it's here.
But even there is making a story.
So I try not to miss it.
Like I said I was saved by the love of demoraldisorders.
But that was problem too.
And that was story too.
I thought staying inside the house and livingsociety is set by my body from birth.
This is new notice when I left society.
I quit my family's church religion.
So I think I became this kind of person who looksonly at real things.
I didn't need something to save my mind.
If I were in society I'd need something to save mymind.
I need a way to trick myself.
Because I be worried when I quit religion.
The pressure of meaning and the worry from it werebigger than something to save my mind.
It was more important to delete the worry andpressure of meaning.
From then on I suffer because I live withoutmeaning.
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Because there is no meaning.
Who I spend time gladly.
I get hit by bad thoughts.
My personality want to do something hard.
So I do it.
But I remember it's just killing time.
An empty feeling hit me.
But I must live by rules.
Other words I wasn't helped by rules.
But that was only way to live.
It was my line to stay alive.
But I know very well that life has no meaning.
So it's hard to do it.
It's night now.
I noticed again.
But my parents they keep doing religion in myfamily.
I asked my mom to quit.
But from my dad it doesn't matter to me.
It's fine.
He keeps doing it.
And I didn't care.
But I thought he thinks only he should be saved.
That reason I thought so.
Because many hard test continue.
But he thinks he can be happy in the world afterthis.
And the reason my parents practice every day to besaved.
Only himself.
When I think about that.
I feel sad.
That's what it is.
That must be.
It's a real heart.
When I was thinking about it.
Also the place of the nail clippers changed again.
Before it was a razor or a toothbrush.
Now I don't think my parents touch them.
But it feels like.
There is an enemy in my heart today.
I suppose why it moved.
Also during my meal today.
A bad memory from the past came back to my mind.
It was the same club activity in junior highschool.
I was a reader and I often got angry.
So maybe it was a bad feeling against me.
When I was talking with a girl.
He said let's start getting ready.
But there was no need to hurry.
It's fine.
He does it on his own.
But my brother's mind disappeared from birth.
My parents are strange too.
So he probably has no common sense either.
A developmental disorder.
I hate when people make trouble for me.
As a person with a developmental disorder myself.
It's fine if I don't go well with the world.
But I hate when other people with developmentaldisorder make trouble for me.
But if I think deeply.
There are people with developmental disorder inthe world.
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So I must have things to do with them.
Also especially during meal.
There are rules.
To change rules.
I must take time and check if there is no problem.
So but I don't think.
But what rules there are later.
During meal.
If it's small rule.
I need to think who I can break it or change it.
If it's a big rule.
I take more time to think.
But I don't think about it one by one.
During meal.
So I have two choice rules a bit.
A meal and for me to change the rule.
Just go through without changing the rule.
Usually people don't think their rules are rules.
They don't fear of change.
So they change things without caring.
I know they fear of change.
What I thought today is.
Anyone feels this way.
But when you go from quiet place to busy city.
It feels loud at first.
What happens then might be a problem.
It becomes OK.
Because you get used to it.
But there must be a problem left.
Getting used to it is not the only thing.
For example tree built up.
For stress increase a bit.
That's what I meant.
But for me.
What if I get used to it.
I shouldn't get used to change.
For you ask what the problem is.
I can't say it well.
But getting used to big sound.
Not feeling a small sound.
Won't be a big problem.
But dinner before that.
But dinner today.
Today it was chicken from the supermarket meatshop.
I think we fried it.
And the meat quality was very good.
It might be the best in the past.
But when I was eating.
I got used to it.
Didn't feel it much.
I felt it a lot at the first bite.
But my sense of taste must be the weakest.
So it's not good.
I can feel how it feel my mouth.
But I didn't feel the taste of chicken at all.
Maybe it's cause I eat only that.
Lately I eat cabbage.
Lately salmon.
Potatoes mixed up like Germany.
And bacon.
I like things that are easy to eat.
I like potatoes.
But when I put them in my mouth.
They go away quickly.
So I can't eat them easily.
Cucumber stew today on TV.
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There is a game where people shouldn't say suddenwords.
And they drop out.
That words are not known yet.
But they speak slowly.
So they don't say them.
They don't specific guess and yes and speak slowlyto avoid it.
They just speak slowly as if they are thinking forno reason.
They just say strange talk words for no reason.
I watched it and thought it was a trick forchildren.
And I got a bit angry.
It was like that for a year.
I thought that it was a lie for me.
I'd be proud cause I don't know anything.
And I wouldn't do things with no point.
I speak like I don't know.
Cause this personality things don't go well forme.
Before on TV.
A person went to a school to learn dance until thebig show.
But they couldn't do it.
So they just stood there.
I praised them in my mind.
But of course they got shouted at by the teachers.
I wondered what was wrong.
They couldn't do it.
So they showed that they couldn't do it.
I wondered what was wrong with that.