I acquired space to talk about the subtlestruggles ahead in daily life.
As I mentioned in the previous episode, I tried tosend a complaint letter to the religiousorganization, but my parent refused.
My parent wouldn't allow me to.
Since there was no reply to the complaint letter Isent to the religion, I asked for it to be sentagain.
Because they didn't respond to the complaintletter, I had my mother resend it.
She said she actually hadn't send it because ofstomach pain, but I think that's a lie.
She claimed she didn't send it because of astomachache, but I don't buy that.
Normally, if she couldn't send it, she would tellme, especially this time, since it needed to besent quickly.
Usually, she'd let me know if she couldn't sendsomething.
And this time, it was something that had to go outfirst.
In the end, she even said she wasn't at fault atall.
She said she wasn't at fault at all.
And eventually, she insisted she had noresponsibility whatsoever.
She insisted they had no responsibilitywhatsoever.
In the end, she said they weren't at fault at all.
She insisted they had no responsibilitywhatsoever.
Then what was everything up to this point?
Why did she send the first letter at all?
So what's the whole story until now?
Why did she even send the first letter?
It's way too late to say that now.
Saying that at this point is just too late.
What will we do if the same problem happens again?
If it happens again, what's their plan?
I tried fixing so this never happened again.
But she's stopping me.
And I told her she will not be able to takeresponsibility if the same issue comes up.
I told her, you won't be able to takeresponsibility if the same issue comes up.
If the same issue comes up, I'm trying to preventthis from repeating.
Yet she's blocking me.
I told her, if this happens again, you won't beable to take responsibility.
I was deeply humiliated at the funeral.
And since they read the message full of uncheckedstatements in front of a large crowd, it'sobviously their fault.
At the funeral, I was seriously humiliated andthey read the message with no fact-checking infront of many people.
Clearly, that's on them.
Clearly, that's on them.
She can't possibly understand how the person whowas humiliated actually feels.
There's no way she understands the feeling of theone who was humiliated.
She can't possibly understand
how the person who was humiliated actually feels.
My mother's opinion about who was at fault hasnothing to do with this.
What my mother thinks about who to blame is
irrelevant here.
Who to blame is irrelevant here.
Because she didn't keep her promise about decidingmy path,
I have no choice but to stay in this house.
And I can't write the letter since she broke thepromise about my future plant.
I'm stuck living here and can't even write theletter.
And of course, she didn't keep that promise.
I'm forced to stay here.
So I rely on her for things like putting onvideos.
But when it's inconvenient, she just abandonsresponsibility.
She just abandons responsibility.
She just abandons responsibility naturally.
Since she didn't keep her promise,
she didn't keep our promise and I'm stuck here.
I need her help with things like playing videos.
Yet when something is inconvenient, she just dumpsthe responsibility.
She is not dealing with the child.
Parents don't have the right to refuse the letter.
In our case, it's basically taking away someone'sright.
I'm not an elementary school kid.
Parents don't get to block the letter.
In our situation, it's practically stripping awaymy right.
So I said, I can't eat expensive tofu.
Fix it.
Stand up a whole day.
You can't drink tea.
Drink water.
Don't use bath additives.
Don't wear sweater.
Turn off the floor heating.
You can't eat.
I can't eat expensive tofu.
Do something.
Wait a day.
Stand up a day.
No tea.
Drink water.
No bath salt.
Don't wear sweater.
Turn off the floor heating.
Like this, I said.
I don't have to stop.
Because I had a cold.
And I said, this is the same kind of thing you aredoing now.
I told her to quit it because I was sick.
And I said, I was sick.
This is exactly the same kind of behavior.
You are doing now.
I wanted to say that she don't get to decide who'sat fault.
What I meant was, you are not the one who gets tojudge who's responsible.
Because she didn't keep our promise about myfuture path.
I promised she couldn't go even if somethinghappened to relative.
But she broke that too.
Since she failed to keep the promise about myplant.
I said, you couldn't go even if something happenedin the family.
Yet, she broke that promise as well.
I've heard this time is different.
That was a separate issue.
So many times, she keeps saying things like thiscase is different.
That was another situation.
Over and over.
I can't trust her at all anymore.
At this point, I have zero trust left.
Even the things they stamped and promised werereally matter.
She will probably do the same thing as this time.
Even agreement they signed off on.
When the moment comes, they likely repeat whathappened this time.
I said, I won't wait for my future plant anymore.
I said, I won't wait for our promise anymore.
But I have no choice but to stay in the family.
I told her, I won't wait for our promise.
Yet, I'm stuck living here with no alternative.
I'm stuck living here with no alternative.
Every time, she broke promise and abandonedresponsibility.
I have no choice but to just endure it.
I have no choice but to just endure it.
Whenever she broke her word and dumpedresponsibility.
All I can do is swallow it.
Sending the first letter but getting emotional andnot sending the second letter.
It's just abandoning responsibility half-hearted.
She sent the first letter but got emotional anddidn't send the second letter.
That's nothing but abandoning her responsibilitycompletely half-hearted.
And the first letter has already been sent.
Besides, the second letter is already out.
The content of this letter was simple.
Since there was no reply to the first one, pleaserespond by a certain date.
Or we may need to improve the third party.
The point of the second letter was because youdidn't answer the first one.
We need a reply by a certain date line.
Otherwise, we might need a third party.
Of course, I didn't actually intend to improve athird party.
Actually, I wasn't seriously planning to bring inthe third party.
In any company or organization, if there's amistake and a complaint,
not replying is impossible.
Still, any normal organization, if there's a faultand receive a complaint,
ignoring it is unthinkable.
So, sending a second letter isn't strange at all.
That's why sending a second letter is completelyreasonable.
Her explanation makes no sense.
Her reasoning is totally inconsistent.
She said I don't want me to consult a third party.
She said she didn't want me to consult a thirdparty.
I told her I only needed to check whether theletter was seen.
She said I hated the idea of a third party.
So, I told her then just confirm whether they readit.
Then, she suddenly said,
We are also at fault.
And then, out of nowhere, she said,
We also have some responsibility.
So, I asked, if it's a small mistake,
does that mean they don't have to reply to acomplaint?
I said, if the mistake is small,
does that mean they don't need to respond to acomplaint?
Then, she said, there's no fault on their side.
She replied, they're not at fault at all.
No way.
So, I told her, you are not the one who gets todecide that.
I said, you don't have the authority to judgethat.
They ignored the first letter.
My emotion got stronger and
Yet, she couldn't send the second one.
They left the first letter unanswered.
I got more upset and still refused to send thesecond.
When the apartment was finally decided,
at the very last time,
she got emotional and said
she was suddenly anxious.
Even when the apartment was finally settled,
she got emotional at the last.
At the last second and said she was scared again.
Then, she kept repeating the same mistake.
It's the same pattern over and over.
Her reasons make no sense.
They are just being emotional.
Her explanation doesn't add up.
They are simply reaching emotionally.
They are simply reacting emotionally.
But it's already too late.
It's already too late.
The letter has already been sent once.
It's too late now.
The first letter is already gone.
She denied various things about the first letter.
But saying it now is far too late.
Saying it now is far too late.
She started criticizing the first letter.
She started criticizing the first letter alreadynow.
But it's way too late.
It's way too late for that.
If she was dissatisfied with the first letter
If she was dissatisfied with the first letter
and didn't want to send it
It's already too late and it has nothing to dowith
whether the second letter should be sent.
If she was dissatisfied with the first letter
and didn't want to send it
It's already too late and it has nothing to dowith
whether the second letter should be sent.
Even if she had complained about the first letter
and didn't want to send it
That's already in the past
and it shouldn't affect the second letter at all.
We can't ask them to take back the first letter.
So I don't understand why she even brought it up.
It's not like we can tell them to retract thefirst letter.
So I have no idea why she mentioned it.
When there's an obvious mistake
It's natural to send a letter saying there was noreply.
So please respond.
But she called it a threat
and complained about sending multiple letters.
When the other side clearly made an error
It's normal to notify them that there was noresponse.
Yet she called it threatening
and said she didn't like sending more than oneletter.
It's normal to notify them that there was noresponse.
But it's already too late.
At this point it's simply too late.
We already sent the first letter
and now she's getting emotional
and saying she doesn't want to send theconfirmation letter
that's unacceptable.
That's unacceptable.
The first letter is already gone
and now she's emotional and refusing to send thefollow-up
and that's not something I can just do.