歌詞と慰め、そして日本の音楽
meaning and continuation are separate problems
It's night time. First, I want to talk about songlyrics. I forgot the main things.
I wanted to say, I'll talk just while trying toremember songs that
some negative stuff makes them more
more comforting to people. At least that's what Iheard. And I think that probably true.
So I tried to figure out why on my own. It's notjust life is great or let's stay positive.
It's more like, yeah, people, there are weak side,but actually thinking about it's more,
what's coming after that. Like, they have weakside, but then what I just can't picture,
well, that's good. Anyway, I honestly have no ideawhy that's supposed to be comforting.
Like I said last time, upset song, upbeat song,then do it for me.
Songs that makes them some negative stuff with theupbeat part, don't do it for me either.
What I think is songs that feel a little off fromwhat's everywhere out there does feel real.
And maybe that's why they are comforting.
So maybe 10 years from now, totally differentlyrics will be the ones that feel comforting.
I think upbeat songs were distant. Songs thatcarry anxiety or
contradictions are easier to connect with. Butcome on, Japan's songs like that,
pop music for over 50 years, songs that can't justpositive, but some darkness makes them.
They are everywhere. So even if they are easier toconnect with, I still don't get
why they are comforting. But there are alsosomething specific to Japanese people.
Wabi-sabi are songs that move blue and light anddark, and that's actually pretty
recent even classical music. WC brought that kindof approach in the
modern era and before that, for hundreds of years,it wasn't really there. I get that Japanese people
like that kind of things, but honestly, I don'treally get that either.
I know I'm basically just criticizing Japanesepeople here, but I feel like there's
shallowness to it. It's not a, it's not be, it'ssomewhere in between and that's treated as a
badger. But most of the time, I think it's not Wabi-sabi at all. It's just being
a middle music, especially I think there's a lotof stuff that's just got not impact.
And right now, making this podcast, the things I'mmost worried about, this shows
not saying it's okay not to have meaning. I wasreally struggling with that when I was
thinking about the show name too. The idea thatyou don't have to force yourself to find meaning,
that's mental health. What I was just talkingabout with negative songs like it's okay to
struggle. It's okay to feel that way. You don'thave to do any pain.
You don't have to force a solution. I'm not sayingthese ideas are wrong, but
that's not even comfort. It's just mental healthtalk. It's just getting through the moment a
little bit of escapism. I think people get caughtup in that kind of things. It's fine, I guess.
Today I was watching a music show game and Ithought, well, everyone's very impressive.
Young people, all the generation too, they rarelylook at lyrics closely. Some people go lyrics
first and they look at the lyrics first and decideif it's a good song from that.
Everyone's reading lyrics so carefully. It'salmost like they're seeing it as literature
and not music, classical music like stuff from 200years ago. Mainly German does have
lyrics and modern music now. The stuff that getspopular tends to be easy to think
at karaoke, so that's a big part of what makessomething popular. There are other reasons
people say, but the karaoke thing is too muchweight on it. Now, people writing lyrics probably
feel like, don't figure me out, that easily it'snot something you can just land on a conclusion
There are a lot of ways to read it. It's probablyfeels weird to have it
received as just. This is comforting. I knowpeople like this, by the way. Culture kind of
does these things where it goes one way, thenflips to the opposite, then flips again. It's all
doing something different from everyone else. Ifopposite songs are
everywhere, let's do dark ones. Something doingsomething different, let's do something
different from them. It's all the same thing now.And real avant-garde people, real alternative
people, that's probably genetic. That's just howthey are weird. How do I know, because I'm
like that. You can't fake this stuff. Maybe 1% ofit, normally without thinking about it,
people drift back to the mainstream, becausehumans feel lonely when they are isolated. It
makes them anxious. People wanna be part of thegroup. It's easy to forget, but the person
thinking isn't always the one who wrote thelyrics. And sometimes the lyrics get more famous
than the composer. I don't really get that either.And I think it's pretty shallow that
people trust a song more just because it has somedarkness in it. But people say songs where
darkness has some beauty in it, that pull you
end up being comforting. I thought before thatsongs that just drag you all the way down felt
more trustworthy, rather totally absurdly upsetones, like reasonably cheerful for no reason. I
感情の分割と実践的なアプローチ
feel like those are kinda more trustworthy in aweird way. Okay, next topic. I've been thinking
today about whether emotions get dived up. Likeyou don't have two bodies, so there's a limit to
what you can do at the same time, and that's why24 hours feel limited. So do emotions get
divided up to, like if you have two hubbies, youhave to split your time between them. But
does that mean your emotional investment getssplit 50-50 instead of 100-100?
Because you're splitting your time, so does youremotion have to get split to
whether you want it to or not? Though I think thereally strange thing to
you are physically limited by time and thinkingabout that, something just came to mind that
connected it. There are clearly cases where methodB is obviously bad, but practice B is
actually the right choice. The physical structureof this world might make it seem more
logical at first, but when you actually try to doit in the world, world B turned out to be
correct. I was thinking about Englishpronunciation. This is just my own idea, but
clearly one pronunciation is better. But if thegoal is to get the other person to hear and
understand you, the opposite approach, method Binstead of A actually becomes easier. Once you
add that condition, making yourself understoodactually becomes a burden. That's kind of weird
things can happen. Anyway, back to emotion. It'sprobably dependent on whether it's a good
feeling or a bad one. Enjoyment, you have to splitit, but painful emotion like that say.
Physical pain, when part of your body hurts andanother part starts hurting, it's not like the
first place to hurt. And if something hurts, andthen other hurt things happen, you don't just
forget the first one. The pain, doubt, and badfeelings just keep going. They keep pilling up.
That's just how it is. We weren't our specifickind of survived. That's how humans made it
this far. So there's nothing you can do about it.So no matter how much you complain,
宗教、真理、そして生きる意味の探求
next topic, setting aside the funders of religion,they are not even worth engaging with.
When it comes to regular people, ordinary people,it seems like they think there's
some truth or ultimate answer, but there are somewho are from my perspective, but
since I left religion, maybe even while I was init, I never had a feeling of this is the real
things or this is the truth. So people out therewho are chasing that kind of things are just
baffling to me. It's not that I have any sense ofthis is the truth and I
want to live closer to it. If you got any realjudgment, you'd figure that out.
Before you are even really attached to what Ifeel, it seems so obvious to me that I never
even really thought about it. Like nothing'sabsolutely the right thing to do. Nothing's
absolute. But I started thinking about why regularpeople believe something like that exists.
First thing to think about is that people want areason to live right. Of course, that isn't
that one. But more than that, putting asidewhether it exists or not, whatever they arechasing,
they don't even really know what they're chasing.They're searching for purpose. It's like
hunting toward destination without knowing wherethe destination is, but going anyway,
believing it's somewhere. The reason to live thatordinary people are looking for,
it's probably not the deep kind that philosophersor religion people talk about. It's probably
something more convenient, something like why justbelieve in this, everything will be okay.
But they also think the answer is written downsomewhere. They are looking for the correct
answer. I don't think like that in a game kind ofway. Like let's make things better as a
kind of fiction, but I don't really mean it.Regular people and I know this sound like I'm
keeping them at a distance. They chase the correctanswer while maybe knowing, maybe not
knowing that there's a correct answer. Theyconveniently forget that, go after something
else, then repeat the cycle. They build up acorrect answer for a while, then deliberately
let it fall apart, then head in some totally newdirection toward a new supposed destination.
That's how it looks. There's no such thing asabsolute. Modern people should know that
there's no destination. That's going to be theanswer. It's probably closer to
wanting to create a convenient reason to live forthemselves. Even the most serious
monks never found it. Not one of them. So how doordinary people living, normal living
think they are going to find it? I just don'tunderstand. Even if a reason to live existed,
the human brain couldn't comprehend it. Why wouldhumans be special enough to have one
when other animals don't? I genuinely don't getit. Next topic. Normally self-help or mental
ニヒリズムと価値判断
health, like I was talking about, even nihilists,they all tend to move in the direction of
purifying what's inside you, let go of yourattachment and so on. But my basic stance is
that stories keep forming, illusion keeps forming,and the brain keeps trying to hold on to itself.
That's just how the brain works. So it neverdisappears. What I do is just not give it the
final say. And a lot of people think whateverdoesn't matter. The nihilists are void.
I saw something on NHK that said that too. And itfelt off to me. I've always doubted
nihilism. It's not complicated, don't worry,whatever doesn't matter. Nihilism is
completely different. There's a clear difference.Whatever is giving up, it's
different. It's abandoning. When you don't want tospend your energy on something, or
when you're not interested in conserving theenergy, nihilism is an ideal that's
worthless, no absolute object, meaning that valuenever exists to begin with.
Now, first place, that's how Nietzsche himself wasdescribing it, I think,
with whatever, like, if someone asks, curry orramen, you say either is fine. That's
a difference that's not really interesting. Therewere people like that in high school,
even back in elementary school, don't care, don'tmatter. That's closer to nihilism than
a difference, but those people were probably stillmaking value judgment. In real life,
they were just trying to look cool. Either is finecan also mean permission, like I'm not saying
either is off-limits. That seems neutral, notleaning either way, but saying there are equal
values, actually a really strong value judgment.When you normally compare A and B,
humans are weird to compare, but firmly insistingthey're equal, making that
hard, that's still deciding something. It's stillvalue judgment, or maybe even more than that,
and I'm not hung up on it. There's only a smalldifference acting all cool and detached,
that's probably pretty common. A lot of peopleprobably do that, to look cool, and there's
almost morality. Nietzsche critiqued morality, butI'm not biased, can be an expression of the
sense of justice, but saying either is fine,already making a value judgment and not
discriminating, not caring about the differencebetween A and B, treating them exactly the same,
that's completely different, that seems almostimpossible. When you're born into
living in a normal society, that's really hard,because your value gets pushed, your values keep
changing every single day, so keeping completelyequal, everything's really hard,
at best it's probably just a ton, these are equal,which is still just under judgment,
going back to what I was saying earlier, whenthere's anxiety or abuse, when there's despair,
you learn, this is why, act on that conclusion,but I try to see it as just one state among many,
and when I don't adopt it at all, I just feelreally low trust, of course, I used to run down
that conclusion before, it's easier that way, nomatter what the situation, whether you're
in despair or you have hope, you wanna learn somemore, this is why, this is what it means,
個人的な出来事と思考
understanding that it's just easier, okay, nexttopic, about that incident where a coach
hurt his daughter, the daughter's trauma rised, soshe probably can't trust her parents, she
probably has a rejection reaction, that reflex, soit can't be helped, thinking about it that way,
it must be painful for the daughter, that's whylife is living hell, I thought again,
cause there are things you just can't take back,also it's a change of scene, I was gonna
open a window, the window I wanted to open was inthe next room, so I talked to my mom,
get her to open it, it always turn in acomplicated things, but today I decided to do
it anyway, and then, like always, ended updeciding not to open it, so all that planning was
for nothing, like I talked about last time, I washaving tea in the morning, but I started doing
that again, then our plan might change a lot, abit, and I might not sweat as much as I thought,
and I got confused about that again, this time ofyear, really stressful for those kind of things,
I'm thinking it through carefully, but there areunexpected changes, so I mostly see them
coming anyway, ok, today it's dinner, I was reallyrich, but instead of tasty sauce, there was
some red stuff on it, but it had basically notaste, like always, I was breaking
separator, and most separatory thinking I messedup, and just kept eating like that to end,
and there was konjac noodle mix with cod roe, thatwas a
soy kumart one, soy kumart's version is reallygood, it's totally different from homemade, kindof sweet,
and there was some fried tofu on it, so I thoughtok, next, sometimes I'll suddenly get really,
no, something getting hot, I mean like interest,curiosity, that's what it is for me,
getting hot means getting interested in someone,it hit me like a burst, today I was watching some
live footage, first of all, I'm trying to thinkthat feel unexpected, and unexpected
things are rare, but today there are few works forme, like who even is this
vocalist, there, but I get curious, and I lookedit up, honestly nothing,
especially interesting coming up, but I ended upwatching several
videos today, sometimes I just get a burst ofinterest, and also who I ever get hospitalized
in the future, I probably wouldn't be interactingwith many people anyway, but still,
all the routine I built up completely fall apart,it's not a dream, just a thought,
but it's happened before, and it's not impossible,so I was thinking about it, if that happened,
I don't know how I'd keep myself together, todayagain, there's some similar face to
someone I know, and I was trying to figure out whoI couldn't, but I thought they might be from
Okinawa, tonight I was wrong, I just figured outwhy I thought that that person looked like a
singer from Okinawa, so it went directly from thatto Okinawa, and studying English pronunciation
has made me more sensitive to information, ormaybe it's just that Kansai people have
things, or just about how you project your voice,and studying English pronunciation has made me
more sensitive to information, or maybe it's justthat Kansai people have things,
but how you project your voice, there's definitelysomething
consistent there, my mom said Hokkaido people havetheir own things too, and she apparently
noticed it herself, so there's probably something,an accent we pick up without knowing it,
something different from standard Japanese, todayI fell asleep again,
listening to the radio, specific personalitiesshow just make me sleepy, but falling asleep to
podcast at night, part of it is that I can realizethem, but sometimes it just doesn't
bother me that much, I feel like my priorities aredefinitely messed up there, at least both
should probably get equal attention, but listeningto radio videos during the day, I wonder how
I find the mental meaningful, though the meaning I'm worried about is
different from this, the longer you keep doingsomething, the less the feeling of
emptiness with you, though actually I'm not sureif that's a good thing or not,
I had a little chill thinking about that just now,and I thought about
my senior from my high school club activities,since they were closed, I wonder if they are
hanging out even during exam prep, when they cameto the library, I talked about that before,
thinking about that again, wondering who they keptseeing each other after graduation,
another one of those day dreams, let me lunch,especially now with heat, eating is kinda
miserable, I just want it to be over, I can'tfocus on eating at all, but there's nothing I can
do about that, tonight I was thinking about why Iwant so much to feel like there's nothing
absolute, nothing sudden, why do I care that much,whether it's true or not doesn't really
affect me either way, even if I keep claiming itand there's no real benefit to me, why am I saying
this, I think it's just that I want this idea tobe accepted, also coming from my experience with
religion, I know there's nothing there, and I justwant this feeling to be now,
not complaining, it doesn't sound so great, it'sjust what I said, that's the impulse, and I
don't think the Buddha was saying that either, butI take his teaching seriously, it's strange that
Buddha's teaching ultimately denied absolute, thatnothing can be fixed in place, I'm also
different from nihilism, what I am, it's beenclear to me for a while, is that after I interpret
something, I don't put out conclusion, I don'tconclude, so what I talk about in a podcast
doesn't have conclusion, conclusion would be like,humans are built this way, so here's how
you should live, there's some of that, I'm notreally thinking about it, conclusion, butconclusion
can be important, but I don't think conclusionthing matters, because things that aren't
universal, then as if they are the truth, that'sridiculous, I don't want to push things that
can be easily proven, so that I think there'struth out there, anyway, next topic, a singer
named Inoue Nobuko, I found out about her today, Ilooked at her profile, and she's been singing
since elementary school, that hit me pretty hardfor some reason, she's been writing songs for
close to 20 years, she's still young, and todaywhen something big tends to
happening, everything used to be stressful, doesn't bother me at all, yeah, it's pretty
padre, that's more things look smaller and comparison