第5589回 EN Isolation Social Disconnect

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

孤独感や社会との乖離に関する課題が静かに語られ、特に学校給食の栄養バランスの難しさに焦点が当てられています。エピソードでは、スポーツの楽しみ方や自己選択の重要性について話され、特定のスポーツにおけるプロ選手の数についての驚きや、言語学習の必要性についての意見が述べられています。また、孤立感や社会的なつながりの欠如が人々にどのように影響を与えるかについて考察されています。最近の孤立感についても考えが示され、音楽や言語の検索を通じて自己の感情に向き合う様子が描かれています。

学校給食と栄養バランス

Loneliness, Conflict, and Misalignment with the World, told Plainly

Hello, welcome to my podcast. This is a podcast where I talk calmly about life struggles and family issues.

Firstly, all children should eat school lunch in Japan.

But, I think children have different tastes and nutritional needs.

And I think, of course, children eat breakfast and dinner.

So, children eat school lunch.

Balance is good, but it's meaningless, because they eat only lunch.

It's different. They eat every day.

They eat breakfast and dinner.

If balance is good for a week, it's meaningless.

If this week, people, children, even if this week balance is good,

but next week, even if children eat a lot of sugar,

next week, if they don't eat much, no problem.

So, balance is difficult.

School think about nutritional, meticulously.

But, as I said, it's meaningless.

They think meticulously, but balance is difficult. It's not easy.

日本のサービスと複雑さ

Next, even if service is convenient, conditions are complicated in Japan.

For example, point and credit card and etc.

It's very complicated.

It's, of course, difficult to use.

So, there are a lot of blogs about it.

Next, there are a lot of information in the world. Too much.

Of course, it's a problem. I think this should be considered a problem.

More and more.

Next, MLB player Ichiro said,

Sports player sometimes said,

We should enjoy when we play the game, doing sports.

I think so.

When playing sports, they can't enjoy. I think so.

They focus on what is in front view.

They can't enjoy when playing sports.

They should focus on what is in front view.

In front of them.

A few days ago, I was jealous.

When watching a movie on YouTube,

The dance club's final performance was over and they were let go.

The dance club's final performance was amazing.

But they practiced very strictly.

Discipline was terrible.

But the performance was over and they were let go.

Considering their feelings, I felt jealous.

選択と自己反省

Yokan said,

A certain sport has 20 players.

Only 20 people in the world play a certain sport professionally.

Only 20 people in the world?

I think no way.

I thought no way.

Only 20 people play a certain sport professionally?

No way.

After all, it's different.

I don't know why.

He made the same mistake.

She might know.

Recently, I've been thinking.

I should quit philosophy.

And another thing.

I've been thinking.

I should learn English in my school days.

But this is what is given.

I didn't choose.

I think I should choose.

Next.

Me and Yokan were talking about a dish.

When she was doing,

Her teeth hurt so she can't eat.

Her tooth hurts so she can't eat.

She can't eat chimi, Japanese food.

孤立感と社会的つながりの欠如

I can't understand.

I said, what did you do?

You said, doing?

When doing?

You said, when doing?

Her tooth hurts.

She didn't answer.

She said another thing.

Another something.

Eventually, she said.

Something is stuck in the tooth.

It's impossible to understand.

There's no way.

When doing?

It's impossible.

To understand.

Recently, I realized.

People are bothered and people enjoy.

Almost people make up problems.

For fun.

Sometimes people create worries.

For fun.

Life is something like that.

Next.

Even though I've been learning English.

I don't know what to do.

When listening to music.

Holy music.

There is a problem.

Too fast.

So I can't.

Hear the.

Word.

I can't.

Listen.

Each word.

Every single word.

But.

I will study English.

Feeling the meaning.

But.

I will avoid thinking about the.

Meaning of.

Things.

I will avoid too much.

I can't.

I don't wanna have meaning.

But I already.

I have already.

Started.

So I should continue.

I should continue.

Next.

I was downloading composers music.

I was downloading.

Certain.

Composer's music.

Certain.

Composer's music.

Certain.

Composer's music.

Certain.

Composer's music.

Recently I.

I've been learning English. It felt like I was starting my life over.

夢と感情の探求

But recently I noticed, when I was downloading, I ended up quitting.

So I had been thinking, but I noticed.

Then I continued to download certain composed music.

Next, few days ago, I was watching a dream.

I had a dream.

I had a dream that I was arguing with my mother.

I moved in the dream.

It wasn't real.

Always something like that.

So I was very angry.

Next, few days ago, I can't remember, but I felt down because I couldn't sleep enough.

Maybe something happened.

Next, I made a mistake.

I ended up listening to the radio, and I also forgot.

Maybe I wanted to do something using foreign music.

I was searching about Romance language.

French and Spanish.

What is the opposite of English?

What suits me?

English, Spanish, etc.

I was worried that my cell phone might break.

So I did some research.

And different difference between English and Spanish.

Thank you for listening to this program again.