第5588回 EN Anxiety and Depression

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

このエピソードでは、孤独や対立、世界との不調和について語り、英語学習の葛藤や神経多様性に焦点を当てています。また、スペイン語学習やメンタルヘルス、自己認識について考察されています。さらに、不安や抑うつ、オンラインでの人間関係の問題が掘り下げられ、それらが自己認識や行動にどのように影響を与えるかが論じられています。コメディアンのユーモアに対する理解や、様々な料理を紹介するコーナーも展開されています。

孤独と不調和についての考察

Loneliness, Conflict, Misalignment with the World, and Told Plainly

Thank you for listening.

Welcome to my podcast. This is a podcast where I talk generally about life struggles and family issues.

Firstly, it's today's incident. I'm not sure if I continue to learn English.

So I end up searching about English refugee and junior high school student who was very good at English

and Neurodiversity language. Languages that are suitable for people with developmental disability

and diagnostic test for language.

I was trying something I can't understand in another program, but then I have something I talk.

There is something I'd like to talk about. I know this.

I don't need to learn English, but I want a lot of people to hear this program, but I know this.

Firstly, I was planning many people to listen, but actually I know this.

It might be getting harder for Japanese people to find this program, but it's starting life over.

メンタルヘルスと自己認識

But if I don't learn Spanish, maybe I regret.

Maybe it would be better to stop overthinking and take this opportunity.

It might be better for mental health.

I absolutely want this program to continue.

It might be better not to increase other program.

Next corner is life struggle, mental health.

I was fantasizing recently a certain idol in Japan got divorced.

But it was my fantasizing.

My daydream husband said, I love you forever.

Actually, they got divorced.

Next, it's my philosophy.

Recently, I realized it's bad to think.

I think I shouldn't think of myself as a different person from before.

Thinking of myself as a different person.

It's crazy, it's funny, it's stupid.

One year later, I don't know where I'll be in a year.

I should think for now I'm getting by.

Next, few days ago and just now,

I'm worried muscle of course important for speaking Japanese and English.

不安とオンライン関係

Use different muscle.

I think it's a problem.

Too much.

That affect my Japanese.

It's problem.

So I worried about it.

Next, I asked her to post this episode for trailer.

But she didn't.

She assumed it again.

She misunderstood again.

Next, almost people on different web links.

So I don't click with people.

I don't get along with people.

Almost people.

Even a certain celebrity becomes popular.

It's probably for different reasons.

There are so many options online.

That I feel confused.

Now is the time to decide what I wanna do.

Next is my philosophy.

The right answer can change.

For example, firstly, people think I wanna eat.

But eventually, in the end, it's change.

Firstly, they wanna eat. It's normal.

In the end, they don't wanna eat. It's normal.

It's no longer true.

It's common. It's nothing unusual.

If someone pass away, people hope there is afterlife.

コメディアンについての考察

But people usually don't think so.

Next, sometimes I can't understand comedian.

A certain comedian said,

I'll do my best.

Everyone burst out laughing.

I don't understand.

They are looking at this person's past glory.

This was totally boring.

It's not interesting at all.

What they were laughing.

So, I can't understand.

Next corner is Hikimeshi.

Hikimeshi, yesterday, I had renkon.

A bit sweet and tarako no konnyaku.

It's similar to noodle, but it's konnyaku.

Day before yesterday, I had fried eggplant.

It was amazing.

And egg salad.

It's also good taste.

And potato salad.

And fried chicken.

It's a good taste.

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