第5571回 EN Daily Home Conflicts ＆Weird things about Japan

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

このエピソードでは、家族間のコミュニケーション問題や日本の神社についての個人的な視点が共有されています。日本の神社や文化に対する反応、日常生活におけるちょっとしたこだわりを探求しています。また、英語の学習やYouTubeの利用に悩む中で、さまざまな文化や日本の食事スタイルについて考えています。人々の日常生活での葛藤や、日本にまつわる奇妙な体験について語られています。

家族とのコミュニケーション問題

Hello, welcome to my podcast. This is a podcast where I talk about life struggles and family issues.

Today I have a lot of things to talk about.

I'm gonna talk about something I can't understand, especially for Japanese,

and recently something bothered me, for example, learning English.

Alright, first corner is this incident. Maybe it happened yesterday.

I told her about lunch. I used tofu.

Rice cooking time. I changed rice cooking time for tofu.

But it changed nothing. Same texture and same flavor.

She mentioned, I changed the amount of water, but it didn't change.

But this has two conditions. Sometimes I told her, you should pay attention.

Two conditions is no meaning. You should think on one condition.

You can't confirm the change if you are thinking on two conditions.

It's no meaning, but she made the same mistake.

メンタルヘルスと驚きの発見

Next corner is struggles and mental health.

Day before yesterday, starved Japanese, it on my mind, and I searched this person's something,

and I was surprised because of his age. He is 56 years old.

I think he is maybe 50 years old. He is smart and looks young, so I was surprised.

I know he went to New York and very tall building. It was too expensive, but just for him especially, he can come into the building.

This program went one floor of Mitsukoshi. It's very expensive shopping store. It was strange.

Next, I can't understand shrine. It's called Jinja.

They respect to god, and they pray to this place.

Japanese TV show, Japanese program treats this place.

I can't understand why they often go to this place, and I search it.

Maybe nature and scenery of this place and building is beautiful. Maybe that is reason.

Next, day before yesterday, I also searched about cheap tofu and microwave and cooking rice.

I searched about electric repair because I'm very saver.

But it's just a little bit thing. This difference is just a little bit thing.

But I found very cheap tofu, but I can't buy it.

Next, please think about this case.

If you have best way or something, best method, and you are doing long time, you have been doing long time,

and later, long time passed and later, you notice there is better way of doing something,

or you notice other way, and it is better, so you think.

I think it's common thing. Time passed, time goes by, and something change,

and you can choose, but you might not change each time.

But you notice better way of something.

For example, I wanted to find killing time.

I wanted to find something to killing time, and I began to learn English, but situation change.

I could, I start to be able to use internet, something to be able to, it's increasing.

I'm not sure whatever I should do as usual,

but I wanna learn English, it's wrong, but I don't wanna learn English, it's also wrong.

英語学習の挑戦

But I end up starting to learn English, but I can't choose thing I should focus on.

Now, I should do as usual, so I think.

Then, move on to the next topic, it happened yesterday.

When I was searching on YouTube, something on YouTube, it happened.

It was terrible.

YouTube has dirty movie, and there was scary video, and I thought about quitting.

Sometimes, I try to quit to watch YouTube.

Next, yesterday I was thinking on learning English.

Why? I did.

Why I start to learn English?

I remember it.

I wanted to listen the podcast, and I wanted to speak in English, and I try to have people overseas listen this program.

Next, I also can understand shotgun wedding.

Someone don't know birth control.

It's a small group of people, and not prepared, and without judging.

It's a small group, and they forget doing this.

I think it's different.

Next, I made a mistake.

I made a mistake two times.

I can listen the music for learning English on Spotify.

But, I search some app for learning English again.

I can why I made a mistake, same mistake.

I can use this app for Spotify.

It's convenient enough.

日本の食文化について

Next, I can't understand all-you-can-eat restaurant.

It's called Tabehode in Japanese.

I can't understand all-you-can-eat restaurant.

Almost people don't wanna eat something.

They don't wanna eat a bunch of thing all at once.

And you eat more than amount, you get full.

When I'm eating ramen, if smell curry, I'm uncomfortable.

If someone wanna eat some kind of food, Sunday eats sushi, Wednesday, Monday eats curry,

It's no problem.

Next, yesterday, I realized.

After all, human is animal, but human isn't animal.

So, people have dilemma.

But, after all, human is just animal.

And, there is nothing to say.

Obviously, this is this.

This is something.

But, obviously, God is nothing.

Doraemon is nothing. It's same thing.

Yesterday, I fantasized.

幻想と旅行

My husband of my cousin asked me.

I asked him.

He asked me.

Do you have girlfriend?

I ended up fantasizing this thing.

Actually, he asked me.

And I fantasized.

If my mother died and after my father and me go to travel together and I eat something.

I fantasized like this.

And I went to Sapporo.

It is in Hokkaido.

There was competition.

And second day, I went to shopping for my clothes.

One day, first day, it's no problem.

But, second day, there was unpleasant person.

And I also fantasized.

I made fun of certain man.

I made fun of someone.

And someone said, you should quit.

And he is very friendly someone.

I remember it.

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