第5572回 EN The Reality of Second-Generation Believers ＆strange japanese

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

今日のポッドキャストでは、生活の悩みや宗教的な出来事について語り、特に英語学習やポッドキャストの開始が遅れたことへの後悔が共有されています。第二世代の信者が抱える現実や宗教とメンタルヘルスの関係について考察し、自己理解の重要性が強調されています。また、第二世代信者の現実と日本の独特な文化についての考察を通じて、自己認識や学習へのアプローチが探求されています。第5572回のエピソードでは、第二世代の信者たちの現実と日本の奇妙な文化について議論されています。

日常と悩みの共有

quite heavy, feel the temperature of the world, KURAKINAGI's podcast

Hi, welcome to my podcast.

This is a podcast where I talk commonly about life struggles and family issues.

Today I'm gonna talk a lot of things I can't understand.

and today's incident, recent worry, and religious incident.

yesterday, firstly, what can I say today, incident, incident.

yesterday, strange things happened, when I was in my bed.

firstly, I wake up, I was wake, and strange sound, I hear, I was hearing strange sound, maybe neighborhood.

at the first floor, I don't know why.

but, I was not sure, but noisy and noisy.

and today morning, I asked her, but there was nothing, so she mentioned.

maybe I was sleeping.

next, let me introduce my first regret.

I was doing blog, but I couldn't continue.

and when I was student, when I was studying something, I focused on method of learning.

and I didn't focus on what's right in front of me.

but, I should focus on what's right in front of me.

ポッドキャストへの思い

and next, life's regret is podcast.

it was late to start podcast.

move on to next topic.

I searched about learning English.

I wanted to learn English by funk music and hip-hop music, rap music, and repeating word.

It's good for learning English, so I thought like this.

and I wanted to find something to killing time.

of course, I have a lot of thing I should do.

but, I wanted to do other something.

next, I wanted to stream.

and close to live.

but, I was anxious for losing my episode.

and I couldn't adjust.

so, my plan was broken.

I'm not sure what I should.

next, I wanted to use other reference.

so, I listened podcast.

that is, there is Hikikomori's program.

they were talking about adult video.

and I was shocked and I was surprised.

because, there are two person, boy and girl.

and I was listening for a while.

next, it happens today in the morning.

if someone present something, food, for example food.

someone present food for my family.

if someone is giving gift to my family.

after all, we can't eat anymore.

I will not be able to eat this eventually.

so, it will be tough.

and, yokan said.

I'm not gonna buy this thing.

so, it's no problem.

of course, I couldn't understand.

宗教の現実と個人の葛藤

I mentioned, I won't be able to eat this.

if someone give my family.

but, she said.

I won't buy this.

so, that's okay.

I can't understand.

next, when I eating something, there is some problem.

if I carefully eat something.

I'm gonna be nervous.

I probably get nervous.

and, I eat something roughly.

it's also have problem.

because, I will be panic.

next.

I used to be religious.

it has problem.

let me introduce this thing.

they require positive thinking.

I felt something off.

I got sense of uncomfortable.

discomfort.

and, I should pray and end.

I should have hope.

I should have hope.

I also felt something off.

because, I think it's no meaning.

I thought it's morning.

it's no meaning.

if I had hope.

it's tough way of living.

so, I thought.

but, if I quit this religion.

if I had left religion in past.

my family might think.

I betray this family.

next.

next corner is.

struggles and mental health.

in this corner.

let me introduce my struggles and mental health.

let me introduce something.

I can't understand.

if someone hasn't name of illness.

they may not be understood.

but, they have name of illness.

people understand this person.

I can't understand this thing.

next.

sometimes, people finish to talk.

after they said.

after they say.

let's think.

let's stay positive.

after they say.

let's stay positive.

or, let's be positive.

they wanna finish after saying like this.

next.

sometimes, people say.

it's ok. no problem.

but, what is no problem?

what is ok?

it's not obviously.

obvious.

next.

if people.

if someone alone.

people assume is loneliness.

if someone alone.

it's freedom.

they shouldn't assume.

next.

people worry.

someone aren't enjoying.

it's also strange.

depend on someone.

and, it's freedom.

I also.

but, at expression.

so, I don't look like enjoying.

but, I was enjoying something.

next.

I consult with ChatGPT about podcast.

I wanted to use my strength of second generation religion and monologue and nihilism.

and, I search my religion.

it said.

at first, no problem.

第二世代信者の現実

but, after all.

she found.

they noticed element like cult.

this is one opinion.

it's correct.

I think so.

and, there was expression like this.

they look from outside.

it's no problem.

but, actually, it's cult.

cult religion.

I talk about this thing.

previous episode.

but, let me talk about.

my life's regret.

I regret my eating.

my dish.

I couldn't focus on dish.

I was watching TV.

I was fantasizing when I eat dish.

and, a girl approached me.

sometime.

sometimes.

again and again.

but, I didn't notice.

and, as I said.

I can't focus on my learning.

my studying.

and, last year.

I tried to learn English.

but, I quit.

I don't know why.

but, yesterday.

I thought this thing.

I tried to remember.

yesterday.

and, I tried to remember.

why I start to learn English.

I wanted start to learn English.

I have heavy illness.

so.

I'm gonna.

I'm gonna be admitted hospital.

and, if it is foreigners.

I can talking.

because.

all thing.

because of my characteristic of developmental disorder.

I can talk.

with only foreigners.

and, I tried to programming.

I regret.

I regret.

not having studied English.

and.

junior high school and high school.

in my junior high school day.

when I was junior high school and.

and, when I went to junior high school and high school.

I wanted to use English.

as a business.

and.

and, I'm jealous for people.

who can.

think by English.

I remember like this.

next.

I don't.

I can't understand this thing.

if someone.

if someone.

break a record.

that was said.

to be impossible.

and.

a lot of people appear.

to break.

a record.

I can't understand.

because.

they get.

motivation.

It's okay.

I can understand.

but.

why they.

they achieve same record.

I don't know why.

they end up making by sanction.

they end up making limit by sanction.

and.

but.

if they lose.

they remove this limit.

this sanction.

they remove this sanction.

and they.

break record.

it's no matter.

no matter.

it's unrelated.

第二世代信者の現実

unrelated.

next.

I end up overthinking.

I was watching movie.

TV show.

a certain person said.

let's share this food.

let's separate.

but.

he gave this dish.

and.

other one.

didn't give.

him dish.

so.

I was sorry.

this woman.

next.

as I said previous episode.

I found.

I found.

one person.

a certain.

someone.

who has graduate.

from same high school.

as I did.

became.

celebrity.

and I.

I was watching her.

channel.

on YouTube.

move on to the next corner.

this corner is HIKIMESHI.

I had.

NIMANO.

it's.

it was 3 days in a row.

and macaron salad.

I like this.

it's only.

no problem.

it's no problem.

problem.

just this.

I have been my favorite.

macaron salad.

and.

and.

there was maybe.

YURINONE.

it's similar to potato and onion.

thank you for listening.

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