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意味と続きは別の問題ですが、それは法律です。
最初に、主な話題について言いたいことがあります。
私は、最初の意味について話したいと思います。
三つの種類の意味が存在します。
それから、祝い、そして成功という意味もあります。
このような判断をしなければなりません。
もう一つの効果があります。
これが起こったとき、これが起こった時、そしてこれが起こった時、これが起こった時、それが起こった時。
私は祈りとして、日常生活を許しています。
なぜ、私はそれらを許さないのか?
なぜなら、バックレッシュが大きくなったので、切り取りが必要だったからです。
私はこの間バグをしていましたが、多分、信じられない人間なので、ヒプノタイトルにしやすいかもしれません。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
だから、ストーリーを作ったのならば、その人に影響を与えられるかもしれません。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
03:14
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
06:01
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
なぜなら、ストーリーは、イマジネーションを使って、多くの人に影響を与えているからです。
ランチの後とは違って
次は、誰かが真面目に見えると驚きます
真面目に見えるとパッドキャストに見えると驚きます
真面目に見えるとパッドキャストに見えると驚きます
真面目に見えるとパッドキャストに見えると驚きます
真面目に見えるとパッドキャストに見えると驚きます
モラリティは人々の弱点からの譲りです
私は貧しいが、おかしな人々はモラリティが好きなので
私は成功したらいいのです
09:00
私は成功したらいいのです
私は成功したらいいのです
次に、人々が言うことを理解できない人
人生は難しいものも好きなものもあるので
人生は難しいものもあるので
人生は難しいものもあるので
5秒前は理解できない人
人が言うことを理解できない人
人が言うことを理解できない人
人が言うことを理解できない人
人が言うことを理解できない人
人が言うことを理解できない人
未来にも希望を持っているような気持ちを持っています
私が高校を目指していたときは、私だけが誕生日に希望を持っていました
多分、高校を通り過ぎた中で、彼女は誕生日に希望を持っているような気持ちを持っていました
彼女が誕生日に希望を持っているような気持ちを持っていたときは、私だけが誕生日に希望を持っていたような気持ちを持っていました
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彼女は靴を変えましたが、買い物に行くことができなかったので、その時点で靴を変えました
昨日、彼女は靴を変えましたが、昨日、彼女は靴を変えましたが、
彼女はリューティングブレーキを変えましたが、彼女はリューティングブレーキを変えました
彼女はリューティングブレーキを変えましたが、
シェープリーシーティングスタジオルーキングタイヤードアイキャッチダッツムーバッツであるサウンティングデッドラズミン
メックスセンス気分ヒューマンバイオロジーバッドスターリンクアウト
ハビングファーンゼン タイヤ
タイヤドゥネッ タイヤドゥネス
キャッチアップディスコンフォートセーター
スウェーティングオーバーヒーティング
キャンプジャスティストアップミスソングエーツ
アボイドアボイドバーバッツパフォーミングローンプレスアウト
トライトレーニングハート トライングハート
ラザーゼンインパースアローエネジー
サンディングウェルドアフ キャンプヘルピッツト
アウトサイトブレイキングオールリーザーン
ドゥイングバッドエヴァ ユーワン ダーゼンブロックアウン
エンタテインメントイーザー ヒューマンズアローハード
オンマイケース バランスディファイングローンアウト
キャンプドゥーワッドアウトドゥ メックスアウト
ワンテッツ ワンネッツ
ワンネッツ ワンアウトアウトフーミー
looking for a past who i wanna do research i wannado the only
such things i don't want to do like jim who i'mdoing and
i want to do only that i want to do only what iwant
or only what i don't want that's what i want
recently recently found similar sounding song
don't know title mentioned it um parent got
pleased but remembering it annoyed me parent doesn't hit
similarly i don't nothing comes up um stretchedeither but it's
differently similar probably influenced since noone online
noticed once again but put energy in there
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nothing something no one else cares about momentlike this i always feel
who i got even partial musical ability it's waxrating
never gets seen i'm not nothing it's a long game
happened a lot maybe seven or eight out of
10 songs really definitely similar though when ilisten
to close surprised i can't i call it
completely trouble
tribe but not happy bird
either fun similar song listen once and um butspend many
minutes on it not sure for others guys are
same but that's type of girl i don't are not kindof
boyish maybe not at all not not all boyish typesbut the kind of women who
find attractive i find that appearing like women
woman fine no more there and no matter what i saidlisteners probably
don't buy no more from me especially with indevelopmental
stuff and everything they know about me but
attraction with wise i'm no more just not the
muscle line woman type exactly more like
woman who even other woman find who so one videorecently and found
founder really really appearing think a lot ofguys share this
actually funny thing cute girls are obviously
attractive to hayao miyazuki female
protagonist and they got that cool quarry maybethat's close something
everyone find a problem that's composed
equally people with a backbone backbone doesn'tactually exist it's
religion but something something
and right up and can't observe but backbonedirectly it's something i'm
contract inside just a belief i made up the
um but in that relationship i can see clearly andthis person got
backbone there are people like that find them findthem attractive backbone
can't exist so something else shared not aboutbeing
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bold different stair backbone shouldn't exist
couldn't answer what if even is
if asked next song called morainaki guy whose
painter friend gets stuck on cardboard books andcan't get out he
would help but friend will explain why
it's stuck guys end up crying about it and that'skind of story like
personally hate lyrics and music hate literaturemusic
but about sound that's written not it
that's where most enjoyment is artist but makingit with literature
weird with something i hate literature itself ihate it so that
song that's written deep but what it is
it's just that people talk all kind of extrameaning from it but it's
just that i like that and right at korea
feel like opposite of pushing things that aren'tthere
seems high world hard to approach like
genius other worldly operating on deep level
but it's something else hard to explain is very
down to earth and doesn't get the high bluequality as person
person musics made might take it as high blue butit's not
so complicated thing with picture like it was
made made to enjoy sound not all not all
pleasant but
not weirdly forcing art no it pure literature ihate because it's
trying to be artist by being
artistic grotesque more that's music is a darkpart
called diverse music but that's what's good aboutit not
dark darkening things to paint shadow for
art's sake just trapping as far as it's good
no extra meaning attached and that's what i
liked operating on deep level but is somethingelse hard to explain is
very down to earth and doesn't get that
high blue quality with person music
music made might take it as high blue but
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it's not so complicated thing we picture like itwas
made to enjoy sound not all pleasant not but not
well weirdly forcing art no it pure literature ihate because it's trying
to be artist by being grotesque more that music isdark part
called the devil's music but that's what's goodabout it
not dragging thing to paint showing for art makejust dropping as
for as of course no extra meaning attached that's
right like nakata kota says lyrics got no meaning
he only cared about sound and rhythm sakamoto ryuichi said
lyrics don't reach him couldn't tell what's goodbut
southern all states like that kind of talk
by the way similar song i mentioned nogizaka girlcovered it
tokyo jihen band i hate shinaringo i hate peoplewho like
shinaringo hate him putting that aside didn'twanna hear that song but
girl from nogizaka covered it so i listened i
it's similar to hitamari no uta the chorus spentwhole time searching
for it ichiro personally well acting everything
except baseball talent is similar so i playedbaseball too just not the
talent part personally wise got a lot common talk
about this before music taste taste was like hip-hop similar
there but like yazawa ekichi a lot
likes shinaringo that part completely oppositethings i hate
loved generation wise i could like that era'smusic
and i do that era generally might be
sorry to also also been going over the showdescription
episode title no new new this already but
wondering if i should have paid more attentionthere frustrated i
made i i made overlooked and
pulled up past description i made looked at him
thought and these are good what that made me
realize even when looking at words i'm not
seeing the world themselves and more like seeing
emotion i layered over um maybe because processingspeed is
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very slow but there's a gap between consciousnessand sensation
people assume consciousness learns sensation andaction but something
smalls of hard to say what other
think with what clearly consciousness being
center of everything learning everything
being what i am that doesn't add up otherwise inthis rug wouldn't happen
like when eating there's an observer watching me ieat not usually
aware of observing but so sometimes that rug
appeared usually can manage the illusion that
consciousness learns everything but there are
moment when that stops working kim takuhara is
kim takuhara is impersonator impersonator lookslike him but you
don't say is super good looking isn't that
strange someone who looks like extremely good
looking person end up being just average
with interesting also seeing beautiful
celebrity father who looks like him like her
something um me switched off of under cute andthen something
very different hard to
put name what but that's just me father anddaughter look
are like daughters are still cute father who looks
like dada isn't cute strange in a way obvious andanother
same goes for impersonator and kim taku nogizakagirl
parent says she looks like someone else's
says they're quarry quarry cute but same as above
kim taku looking like impersonator doesn't make
kim taku less good looking parents finding
similarly but what's their thing it's and just offyesterday listening to
podcast person was angry at friend tanaka
didn't feel anything for it myself i got strongsense of
fairness notice when things are off others butlistening to someone go off
but fairness never gets that finally someone saidit
feeling confirm it always alone no one's got same
sensibility before being um void there was
feeling of something
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inside inside what remained after strippingeverything down to deal with
that's done settle don't let anything around
so no stubbornly and that means no do this uh you'll be fine
no you can believe this so no add this to life andit'll work
when those things more than most people but that
give up can't
have them also feel resources and keep them
full not basic exactly but built over years oralways got nervous active
not constant tension or stress not needing torelax and just always get
nervous engaged another stiff tension other wouldsee it as
intense way to live but that's what it is nofriend actions
constrained and that's contrary and create created
engagement constraining action differently createsthat
feeling results mean leaving no gaps nothing canget it
getting no strange
compulsion come up well not always acting
when thinking hard action that overlap living bydiscipline means not
running in a same self circle face over over notwriting weird
stories not a feeling of being chased not
forcing a pack schedule not but busy or not busy
doesn't fit that standards hate always rules
require requirement completely pinned busy
one sense something every moment but not a usualkind of
busy also a lot of what gets talked about
here comes while eating or washing hand
hand middle of focused routine mind wanders
maybe action doesn't matter after had been nottaking on stories observing
things but then question becomes with discipline
even not necessary not taking stories not
caring religion that's true but what i'm
talking about now a notion that comes from
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standing and void erosion happening there in thatsense and
discipline must kept things stable
though had thought before doing something foryears straight
birth versus allowing 10 days of completelydifferent terms of engagement
and daily action having that mental room to takeeven
one day of different room from not having it therules of no
stopping that probably been a big thing
that shift how i live energy 24 hours probablywhat i need biologically
appropriate level of low level stress no tensionat all
doesn't work either medically don't know how it'sbeing described
constant tension isn't good either read apsychology book once no
exception works a subconscious book about focussubconscious accepted
that function like boundary can call it boundaryjust a
heuristic but it works no exception means not
leaving this area no exit exit exit made notmaking exit through
hope or salvation and that's this discipline beingno exit
exit worked on subconscious subconscious accepted
psychological speaking didn't fall apart
accepting subconscious is important for
continuing also not objectively sudden butcarrying awareness even at maybe
one percent of consciousness that's in that eramental shaking was
making me write weird stories that was probablyepic
didn't need to conclude anything from it in thecase there is
fiction and didn't need to be constant just
having it sometimes was enough probably why
illusion didn't happen this discipline wasn't
protecting against thought itself it wasprotecting against
thought becoming a story not getting to life's
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point with not getting crushed by void even
when it's there also it's not thinking that
cause problem it's what you're thinking about
today had close change in head and hadn't done ityet routine stopped
because that also recently pulling for a waychanged
routine sudden slowly could could that
touch the handle which was a mistake close
pick up coming up after that that's what happenedwhen routine breaks
not careless and put real attention what i touchbut
change action meant i couldn't keep handletouching consistent like before
now sometimes touch handle going down straight so
different pattern includes this kind of mistake
what i fear not self-destruction exactly but
going reckless related that maybe carelessness
can't make exception that's why focus breaksduring
meals and during check routine while trips connectto
reckless every moment got something like roots
finer than roots more like fixed away fixed waymaybe habit
habit is closer but podcast being where i stay
sincere connect to this going
reckless completely off tables baseline thingslike
which reached who it reached fine or which hitsomeone good enough
that's reckless and to me or as long as it's
recorded doesn't matter for now one get it in
might feel easier but reckless connect to what italk about before not
caring not caring indifference that's giving up
that's nihilist posturing most people think
whatever art just performing cool
fine to perform it but i've been standing straightand void that's how i
live also recently a lot of special episode
irregular japanese episode changed cause
could more change start getting impatient englishepisode to changing
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course more change people who don't have problemwith
change are fine but change itself problem for me
problem gets bigger and today finished morningroutine early
at time before breakfast and nothing to thinkabout
that's when i go panic people with tight routineeven small break
through through them today it's nothing to thinkabout when that
becomes uncomfortable and so
changed it to the
something earlier next topic when food taste fatduring meal
whatever comes after usually taste stronger
also eating a lot a lot of same thing makes mesick of it
and that they weren't over longer stretch istopped being sick of it
means humans are structured to balance themselves
think about how to not get sick of things probablyall the same and
ready to balance what's get old or get old flipaside not getting
sick of something now now might mean getting sickof it
over longer stretch zero some even so when i keeptrying not to
get sick of things illusion but once that attitude
won't fix everything but minimum effort count
diner
nimono today first
aburaage and made me what inari sushi
realized i i got um weirdly strict with myself butalso worried
about going back to eating where i went
daikon carrot were good to add carrot on it
satsumaage didn't satsumaage didn't
appear at all pork and probably roast differentfrom usual nimono not really
a sweet simmered type
add aburaage on it before maybe fish todayprobably
benisake less oil than shirozake i say onigiri
two types rect fish big chunk rect types
where there are convenient stores rect both rectfrom
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convenience stores and chunks from baseball discs
