2026-01-11 18:04

第5534回 Daily big Incidents Struggling in Silence

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害(ASD / ADHD)、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害(OCD)。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

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ポッドキャストは、日常生活の中での苦闘やメンタルヘルス、孤立感、神経多様性に関する問題をテーマにしている。エピソードでは、日常生活における不安や苦悩について話され、仲間とのコミュニケーションや自己表現の重要性が強調されている。第5534回のエピソードでは、感情や自己評価に関する内面的な葛藤が考察され、歯科医師やプロとアマチュアの違いについても探求されている。孤独の中で闘う人々の心の声を探り、自らの道を歩む決意をした様子が描かれている。

日常の苦闘
Hello everyone, thanks for tuning in.
This podcast primarily discusses daily struggles, mental health, untimely conflicts, and issues on neurodiversity, isolation, social disconnection, and life as someone navigating unique challenges in daily life. Emotions and reflections are shared as they are.
Firstly, today's incident, it's my today's mystery.
Suddenly, when I went to first floor, something smells, and I remember kindergarten.
Many decade ago, it's many decade ago, but I remember it's suddenly.
Next, I made a mistake for the lunch.
I use dashi, it's Japanese seasoning, and I made a mistake.
I don't know why, but I try to use this seasoning.
Dashi has umami, so I got distracted.
But it's, of course, I taste, I feel it as a taste, I forget it.
Next, it happened today afternoon.
My leg looks red, red color.
My leg looks red.
So I asked you, it looks like injury.
Because it's, my leg's skin is thin.
So she said, and she said, your hand still, it hasn't healed.
No, but it hasn't been, it hasn't changed.
She know this thing, but she said, it hasn't healed.
Next, it happened today morning.
I suggest several idea of tofu.
And about today's lunch, I asked her to note.
What she didn't write.
Just like I said, I just suggest several thing.
But it's totally unrelated.
And of course, it's separate.
Next, I asked her, you boil, you can boil.
Tofu.
She said, she mentioned.
She mentioned something, but I couldn't understand right away.
Right away.
Next, move on to the next topic.
I changed clothes, and last time band-aid.
I couldn't find band-aid.
I'm not sure, I was not sure.
Band-aid came off.
Because I scratched my leg.
And my leg was red.
My leg looks red.
I'm anxious about something.
苦悩と不安の表現
For example, recently my leg is itchy.
So, I end up scratching it.
My left leg.
I also scratched my right leg.
Whole right leg.
But put on the band-aid three weeks ago.
I don't know why.
I don't know why it doesn't feel.
And I remember it.
I finished in the middle.
As I said, you can boil it.
But she should figure out quickly.
But she didn't say, I couldn't do this thing.
And she didn't say, I will not know until I try.
It was strange time.
I didn't know what she wanna say.
Next, yesterday I also tried to make trailer of podcast and something.
By using some app.
AI app.
But I made a mistake.
So, I regret.
Because I haven't been learning English.
Next, before I came home.
Today is morning.
When I...
The day I change clothes.
If she came home the day I change clothes.
You can...
That day.
That day.
You can...
She won't be able to drink tea.
That day.
And you can...
Tomoko, she came home today.
So, I was anxious.
But she came into home.
She didn't come into home.
She came into Gabbet's garage.
But she didn't come into home.
Going back to original episode.
When it gets itchy.
I can't scratch it.
From now on.
Because it will come off.
Today is tough.
Because...
I should put on bandage.
I should put on bandage.
ポッドキャストの影響
I should put on the bandage.
And I was anxious.
I was tired.
I made a mistake sometimes.
Next.
Next corner is...
Next corner is popcorn.
After all, the person...
Recently, I...
Listen to podcast and...
The person who is...
Personally.
On the podcast.
The person who is...
The person who is radio personality.
Is similar to my characteristics.
Sometimes, I...
I said this thing.
I said about this thing.
内面的な葛藤
I found a new thing.
He have been...
Brushing teeth.
Like...
He focus on...
Toothbrush.
He focus on brushing teeth.
So, she said.
When I brushing teeth.
I can other things.
And she regret.
He made a mistake.
He couldn't record.
And he regret too much.
It's similar to me.
And...
He can...
Continue...
A long time.
It's similar to my characteristics.
My identity.
So, it's...
Strange. It's mystery.
Next.
Most dentist...
Seem to...
Seem to...
Seem...
Similar.
I have watched...
Picture of dentist.
Everyone...
Everyone was similar.
Similar...
Atmosphere.
I don't know.
Next.
Amateur and professional.
I can find...
A difference.
Amateur and professional.
Or singer.
Professional has...
What to say...
They has...
Something difference.
I can...
I can say properly.
But I can't...
Find difference.
Famous singer and...
Singer who isn't...
Famous.
This difference is difficult.
Anyway.
I dislike...
I dislike estimate.
I dislike over estimate.
動物のかわいさ
Next.
I haven't thought...
It's cute.
I haven't...
Thought...
Animal is cute.
But...
Really...
I think...
Animal is cute.
Today...
A certain singer...
I watch...
The YouTube and...
The singer...
Went over there.
And dog...
The dog...
Nearby him...
Was stopping.
And...
The dog...
Looked him.
And he run over.
He run over there.
It was very cute.
Next.
哲学的な考察
The person behave...
Next talking is...
About...
Philosophy.
The person who behave...
Calmly.
The person who do...
The person who is doing...
Who is doing...
Who is doing something.
I'm president.
Do something.
Who is doing something.
With...
Behave calmly.
And straight face.
It's strange.
So I think.
I always...
Have battled...
Against...
Lonely.
And...
And I have strong determination.
And I...
I work...
And I work...
I work my own path.
My own...
I work...
My own path.
So...
It's strange.
That they...
They are doing...
Something.
I'm president.
With...
Straight face and...
To behave...
With...
Behaving...
Calmly.
They are doing something.
They are doing something.
With good behavior.
It's strange.
Thank you for listening.
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See you again.
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