第5513回 english i dont feel meaning of life 人生に意味を感じない

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

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人生の意味を感じない苦悩について語り、ポッドキャストを始めた背景や充実感を求める葛藤が描かれています。日々の生活や食事にも意味を見出せないというエピソードです。時間を過ごさなければならないというジレンマに直面し、自分の選択を後悔する様子が描かれています。人生の意味を感じないことに対する考察や、心地よさと不快さの感情についてのエピソードが展開されます。このエピソードでは、人生に意味を感じないというテーマを考察し、様々な視点からその理由や解決策を探ります。

意味を感じない葛藤

relatable struggle real trouble

hello welcome to my podcast thanks for tuning in

it's friendly and welcoming first of all let me talk about

myself recently i realize it's tough if i

if there's nothing there's nothing if there's nothing to make me

fulfilled but it's problem for me if i

do something i do something and

i feel

that's meaning too much if this is

if this were just a little bit of meaning

no no it's problem i don't i shouldn't feel the meaning

but but rest in the afternoon

i wanna make me fulfilled i wanna i wanna make me

fulfilled if i can't do like this i go to

second floor before two years ago

until two years ago

i start to i start podcast until i start podcast

when i was on the second floor there's nothing to do

so i only fantasize something but now i learn i'm learning

人生の意味を求めて

english and i'm recording podcast so just a little bit

i have been feeling just a little bit meaning

but i'd rather feel no

feel no meaning next move on to the next topic

let's move on to the next topic i have never been

feeling to live

i don't feel meaning of life but i should live

however what's more it's difficult to feel

it's difficult to it's difficult that

i i feel totally meaningless but i should do this thing it's too

difficult for me for human

when i uh eating something

it's no meaning i don't feel meaning of tasting and

so so so it's too bad to i think it's too too bad

to just several pressure pressure to several to

just several pressure it's bad so i think

it's difficult to kill the time for me it's too difficult

as i said of course killing the time it's no meaning

人生の意味と選択

but to begin with i don't feel meaning of life

but as i said i should live so after all uh eventually i

i should pass the time i should kill the time

next i don't know what to say in english juice of

i wanted to use juice of for i change i want to change

texture of texture of tofu i was trying to try i was

trying to use it but

i quit the thinking but today i i regret i i

regret that i didn't use it i didn't try to use it

i could change mixture texture of tofu

by using juice of and the price it's on my mind

firstly i asked her to check the price

because she went to she went shopping

but i quit i i quit it

but today in the morning i began to think like this

so i regret it next i said it's a way of

well well and just now i i search way of

export my note to pc but

心地よさと不快感の感情

i couldn't find

good article i wrote new

podcast program name and my profile but

so i won't do it but it's difficult next

yes it's happened yesterday

you can suddenly they said she find she found that

they are there is training machine and community center

there are some training training machine and two times

she tried to do it but she was bored

so she listened to music so she said

so she felt comfort

she was comfortable so i felt comfortable

i felt i felt i felt uncomfortable hearing

the talk i felt uncomfortable hearing the story

she she shouldn't be uncomfortable because she haven't fulfilled

fulfill fulfill the problem from promise

i was talking about it

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