第5516回 english something seriouse happened today今日は我が家ではいくつか事件が

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

今日のエピソードでは、ティッシュの箱が開いている理由やポッドキャストの説明を変更する方法についての問題が語られています。また、家庭内ではいくつかの出来事があり、特にインターネットの利用やAIの時代に関する考えが取り上げられています。さらに、過去のいじめやその影響についての話もあります。家庭内で驚くべきアクシデントが発生しています。

ティッシュの箱の問題

Hello and welcome to my podcast. Thanks for tuning in.

It's friendly and welcoming. Today, here's what happened.

Yesterday, I tried to set box of tissue.

Then, I realized. I didn't know why, but the box was opened.

So, I asked her. Why it's opened?

She didn't know why.

I guess she open it and put it on other dish.

And it's also problem.

I asked her to clean the words.

But she can't. Always she can't listen my talk.

She didn't listen. She don't listen.

She cleaned the box of tissue.

Next, as I said previous episode.

I searched way of export my text in smart cell phone.

I searched after that thing.

I wanted to change my explanation of podcast.

So, I asked her. As usual, she was using PC.

I asked her to.

We watched press. I can change the explanation of podcast.

I asked her to change the press of explanation.

As I said previous, click press of the explanation.

But she said.

Explanation is...

You mean...

Do you mean...

That is...

It is whole of this page.

So, I said. Don't you see word of explanation?

And she tried to find it.

But she can't. She can't find it.

Obviously, I watched explanation press.

インターネットとAIの時代

There was explanation press.

Eventually, she said.

You said. Please go down.

But that talk had finished.

And she tried moving cursor.

So, maybe she was seeing.

She could see it.

She had preconception.

So, she said. There is nothing.

Next.

I haven't been able to use Internet.

But recently, I can use my cell phone.

I can search on the Internet.

But problem happened.

I found I can do more a lot of things.

And it's also problem.

I think now.

The age of AI.

The age of AI.

Eventually, I'm not sure.

Learning English has meaning.

It might no meaning.

But, of course, I don't predict completely in the future.

I can't predict future.

So, it bothered me.

I wanted to speak English previous.

I speak previous episode in English.

There are a lot of previous episode.

And I wanted to make English version.

But I'm not sure I should make it or not.

Just now, I wanna focus on just now and in the future.

I wanna focus on podcast from now.

Next.

Yesterday, I thought.

Especially yesterday afternoon.

It was more warm.

So, I was comfortable.

But yesterday, as I said.

事件の振り返り

Yesterday, I was busy.

So, I thought.

I think today was.

It was waste today.

But yesterday.

So, I forget it.

I was busy.

So, I didn't feel comfortable.

However, yesterday, I feel comfortable.

Next day, I feel uncomfortable.

But if next day getting cold.

Eventually, I would think.

I wanna finish cold time.

I don't wanna feel cold.

And yesterday, I remember.

In the school days.

A person who was bullied as a student.

Is now doctor.

So, she became admirable.

When he was bullied.

His parent.

His mother.

Dozing parent was completely exposed.

When push comes to shove.

When push comes to shove.

People humor like this.

But this person.

And criticized.

Criticized by other person.

So, as I said.

He wasn't criticized.

And now.

She became admirable.

I noticed.

I noticed it before.

That admirable person.

Distinguished person.

It's my opinion.

It's my.

It's my thinking.

Distinguished person.

Sometimes.

They has kink.

Sometimes, they has kink.

They has.

They have unusual kink.

Or appearance.

Next.

I can't help.

Searching.

I can't help searching it.

How to kill the time.

And.

Search.

Searching.

Some app.

Apps.

To create art.

And so on.

Next corner is kimchi.

Yesterday.

I had.

Fish.

Summer.

It was good taste.

Seasoning was just right.

And.

Amount of salt was good.

And.

I had.

I had.

I had.

Dish with egg and garlic chives.

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