第5551回 EN end of the year Incidents at Home strange family

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

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家族の不思議な出来事について語り、北海道の有名な寿司店に関連するエピソードを紹介しています。家族の奇妙な年末の出来事には、日常の中での誤解や食事の失敗が描かれています。年末に家族が集まり、寿司を食べる様子や親戚間の金銭的なやり取りについても触れています。家族の奇妙な出来事や最近のポッドキャストでの経験を通じて、個人の孤独感や社会的な期待に対する葛藤が表現されています。

家族の不思議な出来事

life is hard yeah it happens family yeah that's a developmental disability

it's not just that conclusion no conclusions

hello welcome to my podcast hello welcome to kuraki nagi's podcast

thanks for tuning in this is a podcast where i work i talk commonly about life struggles and family issues

first corner today's incident my strange news on my family

as i said previous episode i i uh tomorokoshi went to sapporo and my uncle uncle

i told tomorokoshi i found a good restaurant so let's go

so with a relative so two days ago tomorokoshi went to sapporo and there was four people

my cousin uncle my aunt my father and my uncle can could drive the can drive the car

and they went to sushi restaurant and i knew name of the sushi restaurant and i search it

and i search it and i remember

and it's restaurant there is

there is it's this restaurant in

neighbor

neighbor

but she went to sapporo she spent two two hours almost two hours

and this sushi restaurant is very very famous in japan and we can find

anywhere in japan and i said you can that if someone

if someone

if someone said i found a good restaurant let's go with me

but this restaurant is the very famous restaurant that anybody can find anywhere

then what would you would you think

but she said it's different

it's different she and she can't she can't understand example this is a good example

and and hokkaido hokkaido is famous for

誤解と食事の失敗

fish and very good quality quality

good quality

restaurant sushi restaurant

it's there in sapporo next few hours later she said she said to me that

but when we said

she said there wasn't

tori-ton it's famous in hokkaido sushi restaurant there wasn't a restaurant

there might not

be tori-ton

nearby but on on assumption that

they wanted to go to the sushi restaurant

apparently apparently

she thought on the assumption they wanted to go to the sushi restaurant

but she didn't decide this decided decide

where to go

so i don't know why she think it's like this next

i made a mistake i use shimido for lunch

use shimido for lunch but it's it felt like almost liquid

it was terrible

and she forget

put in soy soy soybeans

so it was too bad

next i maybe i i told uh previous episode

uh i remember now just now i said breathing

was terrible uh today i real i realize

i sit down on the bed as normally

after all it's hard it's hard

perhaps it it was

large intestine

recently it wasn't really uh breathing

it was no problem

it had been no problem

so i'm scared

and my pain hurt so i try to change

the chair at one floor chair

at one floor uh first floor and

chair of uh second floor i'm not sure i was not sure

since 10 years ago i sit down on the bed

but it has problem so problem so i try to change but i was not sure

next in the morning it sounded like

家族の集まりと寿司

one translator mixer

and she tried to

as i said she tried to

no i tried to uh shimido for lunch so she

firstly she tried to uh shimido in the morning

uh shimido in the morning

and she

she realized uh it's it's failure failure but

she told me nothing

i don't know why she tried it next

next

my uncle paid all money as i said

my relative went to the sushi restaurant end of the year

and she paid all money all relative

but same as my mother's relative

my grand the money of my grandmother

went to my uncle so i think i start to think

that's why you see she has a fault

so maybe so see i want to pay

next i should explain to run to

yokan

i said

sushi sushi

i said sushi go around

so i i had thought

sushi go around it's there in japan

a lot of sushi go around there is there are sushi go around

a lot of sushi go around maybe 10 or more than 10

and 12 but i search it there was 4 sushi go around

it happened it's common thing for me

next

yokan said

there was a lot a lot of sushi

in the shopping mall

so i i mentioned there is a lot of sushi

to eat

everyone

end of the end

and end of the year

relative gathered and they they will eat this

but she said after all

they want a real really really i love sushi

it's delicious

they want a real really really i love sushi

it's different from she said

and eventually i i i realized

家族の奇妙な出来事

it wasn't number of sushi

she thought

there are there are a lot of product product

next

but recently i i listened the podcast and

they are terrible

they are not fancy

they use a terrible word and i was when i was

and when i went to a junior high school in my junior high school days

i also i also terrible and classmates and the classmate

dislike me so i think i thought

only me why only me

they dislike me i fell down i fell down only me

only me i didn't make a mistake so i regret it

next as i said this was terrible

apparently apparently tomorokoshi went to sapporo but

she haven't

gone to sapporo

um

in these 10 years

my grandmother recently my grandmother died but it's not reason

next as i said torient is hokkaido very popular sushi restaurant

sushi go go go

this is going around around toriton is famous nationwide

so she said she said it's like this but

torito is famous in the local local famous local

example toriton is a local

locally famous and she said there is

torito in tokyo

it was terrible obviously it's strange reason

last recently i

i try learning english but

but way of my my learning english way of learning learning english

it's different from other people so i feel wrong i feel lonely

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