2025-12-30 12:25

第5500回 it getting cold too much in japan &my leg is swallen

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害(ASD / ADHD)、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害(OCD)。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

最近のエピソードでは、著者が両親の新しい宗教への参加や野球について話しています。また、日本の寒さや足の腫れについても言及しています。日常生活の調整や不安感が描かれ、日本の寒さが増す中で脚の腫れと痛みについて語りながら、自身の体調に気を配りつつ英語を学ぶ経験を共有しています。

宗教と日常
Hello and welcome to my podcast.
Thanks for tuning in.
Today, here's what happened.
Firstly, my parents joined a religion.
And almost every day, there is a gathering or a meeting.
And every day morning, in the morning, I listen a prayer of this religion, a meeting.
For example, at the night, there is a meeting of this religion.
So, they went to 6pm.
But it's changed every day.
So, I often ask her why.
Almost every day, the schedule is changed.
But she doesn't know why.
野球と運の話
Next, when I listen the podcast, I was hearing this kind of story.
A person was in the baseball stadium.
She was wearing a bucket.
An electric bolt was falling on his head.
But he was wearing a bucket.
So, he has no problem.
But to begin with, I think if he had wore a bucket like this,
I think it's no meaning.
Because to begin with, he might use other seat.
If he hadn't wore a bucket,
to begin with, the act would change in the future.
His act would change in the future.
In the future, he may be good luck.
寒さと体調
Next, I was not sure.
Whatever, yesterday I should change clothes or not.
My legs have been worrying.
So, my legs have been swollen.
A few days ago, I put a band-aid on my legs.
And I worried whatever band-aid was coming off.
So, I wanted to confirm.
So, I couldn't decide it.
If I change clothes,
this pattern, my routine is
in the morning, I stand up.
But yesterday, I noticed
if I sit down on the bed, it's no problem.
So, I couldn't decide it.
And today, I didn't change clothes.
Fortunately, in the morning, she can go shopping.
I didn't change clothes.
This pattern, it's OK.
Because she wasn't at home.
She wasn't in a home.
But always, I'm a bad luck person.
It's different from everyday.
So, I was anxious or something.
Bad luck thing would happen.
So, I worried it.
Next, I often...
I am often scared.
I often...
I am often scared of...
Scared of something that...
I worried that I stop, break, and...
In this timing, my parent...
If my parent have problem,
I don't know how I do something.
Housework or...
And...
If it's getting cold,
I already like this.
Next.
Recently, I almost haven't been stomachache.
But for me, it's also problem.
I began to think...
Really, I'm disease.
It's on my mind.
If I'm not...
If I really...
If I'm...
I was not disease.
In the future, how do I live?
I don't know.
Next.
I searched on the internet that...
How do I do...
To...
I wanna...
I want...
I want foreigner to listen this program.
So I searched.
Answer was...
Answer was it.
That...
The answer was...
I should...
Talk about Japanese.
And etc. etc.
I'm talking.
I have been talking about myself.
Daily...
For example, daily life.
I want people to know about myself.
So...
For example, disorder characteristic.
So this answer...
Doesn't fit my program.
But already...
I already began to learn English.
And I...
I have been talking in English.
At the podcast.
足の痛みと寒さ
And yesterday, my leg...
As I said, my leg hurt.
And it's getting cold.
So I couldn't...
I didn't get enough sleep.
So I worried today.
So I worried that today is going to turn out.
Next.
Until...
I began to...
Talk something on the podcast in English.
There is less episode.
寒さと健康の影響
But...
I forget. I forget.
This merit.
Now I think...
Now I think I'd rather...
More episode.
Next.
I regret it.
Before...
When I was swollen.
Very small.
There was small wound.
Why...
Do I confirm...
Whatever there is wound.
On the leg.
Or not.
I regret it very much.
Too much.
I regret it.
Thank you for listening.
Please follow this program.
See you again.
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