第5480回 religious leader call my father ＆ strange funeral

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

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最近、祖母の死をきっかけに宗教指導者が呼ばれ、不思議な出来事が展開される中で、音楽とアイドルに関する話題も交わされています。このエピソードでは、宗教指導者の友越が父親に電話し、奇妙な葬儀の様子を語っています。また、葬儀に関する不思議な出来事についても話されています。ポッドキャストでは、奇妙な葬儀や宗教指導者に関するエピソードが展開されています。

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Hello and welcome to this program. Thanks for tuning in. It's friendly and welcoming. Today, here's what happened.

祖母の死と宗教指導者

Recently my grandmother died and recently acquaintance died and then religion leader call his son.

So, I'm worried the religious leader call Tomokoshi.

But Yōkan remark that directly religious leader communicate died my grandmother.

But she quit this religion. Yōkan quit this religion 10 years ago.

So, she isn't believer. But she believe leader has super ability and telepathy.

Next, Japanese very famous idol Nogitaka46 new single was made by a certain composer.

This composer collaborated with a certain new composer. Maybe famous composer made company to raise new composer.

This young composer wanted his to be popular.

He didn't wanna boost his popularity. After all, he wanted the company to be popular.

Next, but it's my fantastic. But I believe it. Next, next is mystery, like mystery, kind of mystery.

It's unbelievable. I fantasize that I talk with my cousin, cousin's husband. Husband of cousin.

I speak to him. I spoke him about baseball team supporting long year. I said, no, just no. I don't have any player I support.

I'm not supporting any player. And I'm not sure what kind of player was there. The moment I realized this is dream.

Next, I realized it was all a dream. Next, I said, my favorite picture is blah blah blah.

And the moment I wake up. But it was all my fantasize. But it was all dream. And I kept fantasizing.

I'm supporting blah blah blah. Next, it's also my fantastic. Yesterday I fantasize.

In the middle of night, I was talking with girlfriend. Generally, it's common thing.

They said, they can say, you are soulmate and Disney person. Most people say like this. I realized, but you are blah blah blah.

Next, I was idol group program. And she made a mistake. Japanese grammar. She is Japanese, but she made a mistake.

She made a mistake. Her Japanese. But she likes literature. So it's mystery. I couldn't understand. It was mysterious.

葬儀と宗教指導者の電話

Next, a day before yesterday, religious funeral was held.

And Tomokoshi, the religious leader, called my father. I was surprised.

And the funeral venues people was surprised. I heard that.

No, I'm wrong. I was wrong. Religious authority. Leader called religious authority.

And the authority let the text aloud. He let the text aloud.

And next topic is podcast. I watched podcast analyze. It became better than yesterday's last year.

So I thought I should have continued previous way. I changed my way. For example, I started to talk in English on the podcast.

And next topic, yesterday I listened podcast. And radio personality's wife of him was very kind.

So I thought. But yesterday, they pretend not to record, but they record the sound. And they were talking.

And this wife was very changed. Her personality changed. I was scared. Human is scared. I was scared for human.

People are scary.

Next, night happened in the morning. We are talking about funeral.

Tomokoshi called Yogan yesterday 9pm. And she said, Tomokoshi stay grandmother's house.

So I said, the day funeral heard, why he stay hotel? She mentioned. And the relative stayed hotel. It's reason.

But I couldn't understand the reason.

Next, it was strange. My aunt also stay hotel.

But she live in Sapporo. And this funeral was held in Sapporo. I asked her why she stay hotel. At first, I couldn't understand.

葬儀と宗教指導者の話

Eventually, I understood. But absolutely, it's impossible to understand the reason.

I couldn't understand the reason.

As long as it's a reason.

And my uncle, Yogan asked my uncle, Do you need lunch?

This mean that my uncle gonna go to castle bar in Japanese.

They died person.

She asked it, my uncle go to castle bar or not.

She kept talking with my uncle.

She asked him, she gonna go to Otsuya. It's the day before.

Next, she kept talking.

She asked him, are you gonna go to castle bar?

But she asked him same thing. She repeat question.

So I said, her talking was terrible.

Next corner is Hikimeshi.

I had Nimono Daikon.

It's taste was different from last day's taste.

Both of them was good taste.

Especially, Daikon was good taste.

And carrot, chicken, fish cake, and green onion, and eggplant.

It was amazing.

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