第5482回 funeral’ｓstrange incident＆a big reform of my podcast

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, and neurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

 

サマリー

ポッドキャストの内容が変化しており、特に日本語と英語のエピソードを分けることについて迷っている様子が見受けられます。第5482回では、葬儀に関する不思議な出来事と自身のポッドキャストの大改革について語られています。葬儀と音楽についての議論を通じて、親族の信仰や文化的背景の違いが浮き彫りになります。このエピソードでは、葬儀に関する奇妙な出来事とポッドキャストの大改革が語られています。

ポッドキャストの変更

Hello and welcome to this podcast program. Thanks for tuning in. It﹑s friendly and welcoming. Today, here﹑s what﹑s happened.

Firstly, for podcast. Talking about podcast.

I wanted to separate my podcast, but today I quit it.

But I﹑m not sure that I should change my program﹑s title and Japanese episode and episode that I speak English.

Japanese episode and English episode, both of them I should separate or I﹑m gonna do as before.

Next, it﹑s also I﹑m not sure.

Now, chat.jpg help my English, but I can﹑t use it well and I can﹑t handle it.

Now, I use chat a bit, but other AI apps is OK, but and English learning apps, it﹑s OK or not. I﹑m not sure.

Next, why I﹑m not sure.

Because, if I use other app, even once, I can﹑t back to chat.jpg.

So, now I use chat.jpg.

Next, it happened today﹑s afternoon.

It﹑s also funeral. Talking about funeral.

Yoko and I found it.

Yesterday, Tomoko and relative ate dinner.

However, they went to Chinese shop and they seized it when we found it.

They have finished to eat dinner.

So, I said they were annoying customer because they already ate dinner.

葬儀の不思議な出来事

So, they﹑re gonna order tea or sweet.

Just a little bit dish.

See, remarked.

Now, I add it.

There are a lot of people.

It﹑s annoying.

If it had been izakaya, Japanese pub, and they drank alcohol, it﹑s no problem.

But, it﹑s Chinese restaurant.

But, she wasn﹑t convinced.

On top of that, she said other person had dinner at Chinese restaurant.

I couldn﹑t understand.

It wasn﹑t reason.

On top of that, she said they already ate dinner.

But, they ate dinner at restaurant too.

But, she said they had finished to eat dinner.

But, they went to Chinese restaurant.

So, she said.

So, I think like this and I said her like this.

ポッドキャストの改革

And then, it﹑s unlikely they were eating at lunch too.

Next, talking about philosophy.

If you lose suffering, you are suffering.

Or, if you quit that, you lose.

If you quit that, you lose.

You try to lose suffering.

Their common point is they desire comfort.

Very, very, they need comfort.

But, some religion say trying to lose comfort and trying to lose suffering,

you can﹑t lose suffering more and more.

Next, it happened today.

Going back to the topic, it happened today afternoon.

In the afternoon, talking about funeral.

Yesterday, Tomokoshi was busy until 9pm.

But, she said some hours later, she said.

Tomokoshi was already.

My grandmother﹑s house.

So, she wasn﹑t busy.

And, she mentioned excuse.

She said some excuse, but I couldn﹑t understand.

Going back to the topic, talking about philosophy.

Talking about Japanese idols.

For example, if Mozart make.

If Mozart make.

If Mozart make.

If Mozart make.

Dark music.

The moment, let﹑s see, like this.

It﹑s great music.

It﹑s not simple matter.

If composer who made a lot of dark song.

If he make bright music.

It﹑s great song.

It﹑s not simple matter.

But, certain Japanese idol.

It sounds like.

As I said.

So, I couldn﹑t.

I can﹑t understand.

Next.

Going back to the topic.

My grandmother﹑s funeral.

Was held in her religion.

But, all relative.

All relative aren﹑t necessarily believer.

So, I think it﹑s poor thing.

They were doing.

They should do something for funeral together.

Next.

It﹑s mysterious.

Person who has common sense of music.

And common favorite musician.

It﹑s similar to me.

There are characteristic and personality.

And identity.

They have similar personality.

Thank you for listening.

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