退院の報告
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Welcome back to this podcast. I am back. You're back. I am back from the hospital. Yes.
Yes. It was so long. Was it? Was it so long for you? It was long. It was long. How long was it exactly?
Like two weeks. Two weeks, right? Being hospitalized. Just a little under two weeks.
Yeah. Wasn't it like shorter than like originally planned? No? Well, so there was no originally
planned. The doctor was like about two weeks. You don't have an exact date of when you're going to
be de-hospitalized. It really depends on your recovery. But I did recover at a great pace.
And I was de-hospitalized probably like the fastest possible scheduling. I mean, it was pretty
fast. Like to me, like I thought like, you know, you told me the day, well, this might be the day
of de-hospitalized. And I was expecting that. But you know, like, whoa, he's recovering. Yeah.
That's right. Great thing. Great thing. Right. But yeah. So, but I mean, yeah, the surgery was all
good. All good. There's no, it was a success. Even though I do have the post-surgery, you know,
effects still in my body. For example, around the cuts I made, it's still kind of paralyzed. It kind
of, it's like shibireru. It's stingy. It's like, yeah, that's, that feels like I can't wear like
tight jeans. I can't wear like tight belts. That would directly, it kind of hurts. I see. Every time
I walk, it kind of like frictions. Right. So that's that. And a huge part of, is this thing called
the LARS. L-A-R-S. L-A-R-S. Yeah. It's an acronym or something. I don't know what it is. But it's
like, it's haiben shougai. That's what it is. Right. So because I cut my chokucho. Chokucho
is where you store your poop. Now I'm like, I only have like half of that left. Yeah. So
I can't hold as much. Yeah. And it's unstable. It makes me constantly want to go to the,
go take a shit. Even though, and even if I do go take a shit, you only have like, that's it.
And you're, it's, it's discomforting. Right. And it's, you're always thinking about
taking a shit. Does, does data like come out? Like everything? What do you mean? I mean,
even though you cut half of your chokucho. Yeah. You still have your poops in your body. That's
right. Yeah. That's right. So every time I poop, everything doesn't come out. Oh. So like you poop
out five minutes after you want to poop again. Okay. Five minutes after I want to poop again.
Yeah. That's, I'm still really, I'm still trying to control this shit. Yeah. Really am. Literally.
Literally. Right. Yeah. But can you control that? So, so yeah, sometimes I can. Okay. Like,
right after I eat, it's kind of hard to control. But other than that, it's like I can hold it in.
Okay. Yeah. I can hold it in. Right. The, how severe your LARS symptom is really is,
forgot my glasses, let me write it down. It really is dependent on that person. Okay. There's,
yeah, there's not much data that you can say, like most people happen like this or yeah,
there's no, not enough data so far. Okay. So yeah. So really you have to, it's a, it's a
surprise, you know, you have to see how bad it is. Okay. Usually, and they say that this will be gone
from few weeks to few years. Oh, that's wide. That's so wide. So yeah. I, so I don't know when
this is going to end, but it can be gone in few weeks. It could be gone in few weeks if I'm fast,
but I don't know. I don't know. Is it better for you to hold it and to, I don't know, is that?
Yeah. I do want to ask the doctors about that next time I see him, but as far as I did my research,
it's not that good. It's not that bad, but like if you can't try and go, it would be the better
option. Yeah. Right. So that I'm right now, even though I'm very thankful, very grateful that the
surgery was a success, that's been a huge stress in my life right now that dealing with shit. Yeah.
新しい日常
Literally. So that's that. Yeah. Well, yeah, I can imagine that. Yeah. But at least you, I mean,
you got back from like huge, whatever the situation and you'd gone through the surgery.
That's, that's, that's, that's bigger. Like that's the biggest. The moment I was de-hospitalized,
I was so fucking happy. Yeah. I mean, I could walk. Yeah. I could, I, the hospital was like in
Shinjuku. It was like, I went to, I walked down to Shin-Okubo. Okay. And the first day I was
de-hospitalized, I went to like a Shin-Okubo cafe. Yeah. I was so happy. Yeah. I was so happy,
you know? Yeah. And then I went to Shibuya after that. You walked? No, no, I didn't walk. It was
too far. But like, you know, from the, my room, from my room, you know, I could see Shibuya,
the nights of Shibuya. Okay. You know, I was looking at it and I was like, man, if only I
could, you know, it's just, it's, it's only when you lose it, when you realize how grateful it is
to be able to walk to places and go to places, you know, have fun. And, you know, at two weeks
of that built up inside me, I was like, I have to go there after I de-hospitalized. I just,
I went there. I ate some Tsurutontan. Yeah. Right. I just, I still wanted to be, you know,
careful with, you know, Shokanui, right? Udon, right? Not going for like some
pizza or hamburgers or anything like that. Yeah. So, I went to Shibuya. Yeah. Tsurutontan,
right after the Korean cafe. I went home. Yeah. Yeah. I was so happy, man. I was so happy.
入院中の苦痛
Yeah. During the, during the hospitalization, that was a hell of a, you know, a hell of a world
itself. Okay. The day, so the day I did my surgery. Yeah. After 24 hours after the surgery,
I'm in this room called the HCU. Okay. It's like an ICU. You know what an ICU is, right? Like an
emergency room. But like a little bit less emergency. Okay. But still, you know, you have to
put a lot of care into it. You know, those are for patients who just went under a surgery. Okay.
High possibility of something going wrong. Or, you know, like a patient who needs high care.
Okay. Those things. Like, I can't be in like a hospital, you know, there's no, they can't respond.
Yeah. So, I was placed in an HCU. Okay. That was a nightmare itself, you know. Really. Fucking
painful, right? First of all. First of all, yeah. I just got stabbed in the fucking stomach. Well,
I mean, yeah. Right. They stitched back together the stabbing of my stomach, right? That's fucking
painful itself. I can't move. And there's patients, you know, right next to me, the rows of
patients. Okay. And some of them, I don't know how many, but for me, it felt like many of them.
Okay. Were under a condition where it's not, it's not like something's going wrong, but their
blood pressure or something is way too low. Way too low to the point that the machine, that heart,
the shit machine that you're connected to, that tracks of your blood pressure, heart rate and
everything. It starts beeping like all the time. Okay. Like several people. That's happened. That
happens all night. All night? All fucking night. I'm fucking hearing beeps all over the fucking
place. And it's like, I, I try to sleep, but I fucking couldn't. I fucking couldn't sleep.
It was the worst fucking 24 hours, man. And I was like, fuck it. I can't sleep. It fucking hurts.
And like, I have fucking, I don't know how many, how many fucking shit was in my body. One for the
one for the, you know, to suck out my blood every two hours to make sure the blood cells are
fucking. Okay. One for the fucking heart rate and one for the fucking one for the right here.
I had one right here. Fucking like, I don't know what it is, um, to suck out the blood,
the unnecessary blood that comes out. That's what they say. I don't know what it is, but
I had one fucking hole right here just with the fucking, you know, and I had one fucking
from my asshole because I, because I can't go, I can't go to poop. Right. So I have to let the
poop out naturally from the pipe. And I also had another pipe from my dick, right. Directly from my
dick. So I was right. I said, I was, I'm just fucking pooping out and peeing out fucking 24,
seven fucking, I don't know how many pipe was in my body, but like, all right. Well,
I could still talk though. You know, every, like every, I don't know, like an hour or 30 minutes,
the Congo, she would come in. Okay. I'm like, no, I'm just like, I feel this. I feel bad.
They're putting so much, um, painkillers in my body. Um, was it painful? And you feel like
病院での夜
the pain was the biggest one. Um, I would say, yeah. I mean, pain was kind of, yeah. Pain and
discomfort was huge. Like, you know, and at one point around, like, I don't know, like to my body,
it felt like 4 AM or something, you know, I can sleep. I'm like, you know, that buzzer to call
the nurse. I dropped it under the bed and I can't get it because it was too painful for me to like
lean over and get it. So I'm like, shit. And during like the mid, mid nighttime,
they don't come as often. Right. So like, fuck, like if I right now, I don't know,
get like a fucking like choke or something. I am, I don't have anyone, like, I can't,
my voice was too dehydrated and I couldn't speak out loud so much. So like, if that happens,
if something happens to me right now, I can't press the button, I'm going to fucking die.
And I went to like a half panic mode. I'm like, fuck, shit, what am I going to do?
That was like probably the deepest, most terrifying moment of like me being hospitalized.
But thankfully, like an hour after that, they came and I told them, hey, drop my buzzer. Can
you put it on my desk? And they put it here. That's scary. That's fucking scary, man. Fucking
scary. It was a fucking mental battle. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Mental battle, man. Like 4am and
where you cannot sleep. I can't sleep. It's fucking scary. Fucking buzzer going on and off.
Yeah. Man. Oh, man. I mean, buzzers are like scary. Yeah. It's like, they're meant to grab
your attention. Yeah. Yeah. It's meant to be like emergency alarm, right? That's right. It's
someone is like in danger or something. That's right. That's right. So it's the type of noise
that really, you know, yeah, you can be like relaxing. Yeah, that's right. That's right. And
入院後の衰弱
yeah. So after 24 hours, I went to the hospital room. I was so surprised of how weak I was.
Okay. You know, right now I could literally walk. I could really like do 80% of what I was able to
do. Like I'm talking about like muscle strength and like how durable I am, right? 80%. But like
after 24 hours of being in the HCU. Yeah. I was like, hey, we're going to take you to your room
now because it's at 24 hours of fast and you're kind of look stable now. So what we're going to
first do is have you practice walking. Practice walking? What the fuck? Yeah. I was in the bed
for fucking 24 hours. I'm sure it's going to hurt. But like I got painkillers on me. I could probably
walk. Yeah. But like, boy, was I surprised. I could not fucking walk. I don't know. I don't know
why, but like, it's just the muscles do not function. I was fucking grabbing the nurses.
I was like, like this. I could fucking like, and then I sat down in the wheelchair again, like
like a fucking snail. Really? Yeah. Is that because of not only because of the pain?
It was probably not because of pain. I don't know. I believe it to be because I was laying in the
fucking bed 24 hours. 24 hours? And that made you being like that? Yeah. I don't know why though.
I don't know why though. It felt like, it only felt like though, it felt like my whole energy.
Yeah. My whole was so focused on, on, you know, fixing this cut. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That it kind
of like, it went to this weird, like hibernation mode. My legs went to like, we're gonna, we're
gonna focus all my energy on this one spot right here in the stomach to fix it. And then it kind of,
that's what it felt like to me. I see. Yeah. But maybe that was what was happening. Yeah.
静かな病室
But it was so, it was so weird. After I went to the koshitsu, it was really quiet, right? So I
immediately went to sleep because I can now go to sleep, right? After that, I slept for like,
I don't know, several hours. I was able to walk. It was so surprising. I was, I was up.
Yeah, but I was up, I was walking in the hospital. It was so weird. So it's the recovery that I,
I don't know, it was weird. Yeah. But during, but even after that, you know, I, the pipes were still
in me, like the dick pipe and the ass pipe, the, the, the side muscle, side stomach pipe and the
was still there. Yeah. So I, you know, I fucking, you can move around like freely. Um, I could,
it was all attached to this fucking like movable. Yeah. I was okay. I can move, but like the
discomfort was fucking damn. The ass pipe was the worst. You have a fucking like long ass pipe,
fucking stuck up your ass and you can't sit down and fucking, it fucking hurts, right?
Yeah.
No, it's like everything you, you, you told me is like way beyond of my imagination and I just
cannot like process it. Like, it's like, oh wow. Yeah. It's like fucking yeah. Crazy. That's
crazy. That's too. Oh, I would never want to do it again. I honestly would never want to do it
again. I swear to God, I swear to God. No, I mean, that's wow. I mean, honestly, I don't know
what to say. Like it's, it's like too much for me to like for one time. Oh yeah, man. Wow. Yeah.
You, um, I'm sure you have several questions. Yeah. Ask me on the next. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
But for this episode, I just want to tell everyone I'm okay. Yeah. Thank you for all your
prairie. Thank you for all your prairie. No, I did nothing. You just fold. Thank you. And you
recovered. And I got back safely. Yeah. And, um, uh, yeah. Great. Nothing is going, um,
nothing is going out of control. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Even though I do have
LARS, that's, that was expected. So you took all of those like things out from your body? Yeah.
Well, so, um, we can't be too sure yet. Okay. Okay. So right now they're looking. So I took
out my fucking gut, right? Yeah. And then now they're looking directly into the gut and see if
the, um, the accessual has, um, transferred to being posits. Okay. Okay. With the CT scans,
they didn't find any, but they have to be more certain than the CT scan. They have to look
directly. So they're looking at it now. Okay. Next week, I'm going to go to doctors. They're
going to tell me the ultimate stage of my cancer. Okay. Okay. So, but it's very low is what they
said, you know, but okay. So that's that. Yeah. Yeah. There you go. Whoa. I'm back back. Yeah.
No, I mean, I'm very happy. And I guess like many people are like, happy to see you back in this.
It's like, I, I saw many of the comments in the video. Um, thank you so much guys. Thank you for
all the warm comments, everything. I, I, um, I meant a lot to me. Thank you guys. Yeah. Yeah.
All right. So ask me on the next one. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. All right. Thank you guys. Thank you.
Bye-bye. Yeah. Yep. Thank you.
