ケビンの健康状態の告知
Welcome to Kevin's English Room Podcast.
Okay, how are you? So, yeah, how am I, right? How am I? What's in your mind and
how are you spending your days, you know? I'm actually doing okay. I'm actually doing okay.
Okay, yeah, so by the time this recording is out on the internet, you guys, the audience,
you guys have already seen, not have seen, but our video of my health is already out
there on the internet. Okay, so I'm gonna talk to you guys. Well, I mean, I'm gonna,
well, I mean, so I'm recording knowing that you guys already know what my actual
health condition is, but right now, today, the day of this recording, I don't know how bad
the condition is right now. So, we're just a few days, I mean, it's tomorrow, right? Yeah,
it's tomorrow, just the day before the day before the actual, like, fucking, like, yeah,
it's a weird, it's a weird feeling, right? Like, it's unbelievable that I'm actually right now,
right here, yeah, like, being able to do the recording with you, like, mentally. Yeah,
like, you know, totally. Yeah, I could have been completely had a meltdown. Yeah, you know,
could like, incapable of doing anything. That could have been a possibility, right? But,
you know, I'm actually really surprised. Yeah, like, honestly, you just wake up and do some,
you know, attend a meeting this morning and just come to this building. And then,
you know, right? Yeah, I'm actually surprised, too, of how much of, I'm capable of handling this.
Such a strong guy. It's just, it kind of feels like, I'm kind of, like, in a zone of, like,
it just kind of feels like, hey, I've already been told that I'm okay. Like, a part of me is
feeling like I'm, like, forcing, like, I'm tricking myself into thinking I'm okay. I see. Because
maybe a part of me kind of knows that if I let this worry really take over me, like, it's really
going to take over me. Yeah. So, like, there's a part of me subconsciously just stopping it from
that happening and just do everything as usual. Right, right, right. Like, just pretend like
everything's okay. Yeah. And that's, I mean, that's a scary thing, too, you know? Yeah.
So, for those of you who don't, who doesn't watch my YouTube videos,
remember the other day when I went to the daicho camera and I was, like, so happy of, like, hey,
it was so easy. It was nothing, like, you know? I mean. And then I found some two poripu, and then
I'm probably going to be okay. The doctor said it's going to be okay, so, like, don't worry about
it. It was nothing. Yeah, you showed the little big boy. Yeah, the big boy, we laughed about it.
Yeah, you told me. Fucking joked about it. Everything. Yeah. Yeah, it turns out it was pretty
bad. It turns out it was pretty bad. That's not funny. That's not funny anymore. Only I can joke
about it. Yeah, I mean, honestly. Let me tell you about the day, how, let me tell you how it unfolded.
Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay. So, I did the fucking daicho camera, right? And then, I think,
悪性腫瘍の診断
three weeks after that, I got an email from the place that I did the daicho camera. Okay.
So, on that day, on the daicho camera day, you briefly, like, explained the situation by the
doctor, right? That's right. On the same day I did the daicho camera, the doctor was like, hey, we found
two poripu, two in your daicho, one in your ii. Oh, two daicho and one ii. Yeah. Oh, okay, okay. And
we took out the two daicho from the ii, sorry, we took out the two poripu from the daicho.
Yeah, yeah. We're gonna test it, see if they're good or bad, but most of the times it's fine.
Yeah. So, yeah. So, okay, bye-bye. It's kind of like that. Yeah, okay. So, I was like, okay, good,
yeah, great. Yeah. And then, three weeks later, I got an email from them. Okay. They were like,
we have to tell you something personally. Oh, no. Please come to the hospital.
Really? Yeah, that's the email that I got. That's fucking scary. That is fucking scary.
That's the worst thing you've got. Really? Yeah, worst email I got in years.
Scary, right? Okay. That's, I got that email, I was fucking scared. Yeah. Is that everything
they wrote? That is, that was everything they wrote. Oh, please do not do that. That's so scary.
That is all they wrote. Oh, okay. And I was like, fuck. What could it be? Yeah. And you can't do
anything, right? I couldn't do anything. You just have to wait for the... Yeah, it was, yeah,
it was like 7 p.m. Okay. Something like that. So, the hospital was already closed. Yeah. I
had to wait. But thank God, it was open the next day. Okay. Right. So, I decided to go the next
day. Okay. First thing in the morning, I went there. Yeah, obviously. Yeah. So, yeah, I went
there. The doctor told me that one of the polyps was bad. Okay. So, medically, it's called
神経内細胞分泌. Okay. 神経内, that's the medical term. That's the medical term. Okay.
And it's 悪性腫瘍. Okay. 悪性腫瘍. Categorized as. Right. It's categorized as
悪性腫瘍. Okay. 悪性腫瘍 means that the, you know, cells, they reproduce. Yeah. Right.
When cells reproduce, sometimes, human body makes mistakes. Okay. They make the wrong cell.
That's bad. And many times, the police cells, there are police cells, they can defeat the
mistakenly made cells. Okay. Boom, you're out. You're gone. Okay. You're healthy. Your body's
back to normal. But what 悪性腫瘍 does, it keeps reproducing. Okay. And it doesn't,
they're not defeated by the police cells. Right. So, it keeps reproducing. It keeps getting bigger
and bigger. And ultimately, if you let it go, if you don't do anything, if you let it take over
you, you're gonna die. Okay. Right. It's gonna take over your organs, you know. Right. So,
that's what it is. That's 悪性腫瘍. Okay. Is it cancer? Yeah. That's what I asked the doctors.
Okay. Yeah. And the doctors, they were, I'm gonna answer exactly the same way how the doctors
answered to me. Yeah. They were like,
That's what they said. I don't know what that means. I don't know. If you go online. Yeah. And
悪性腫瘍の診断と治療
if you search 神経内細胞分泌, it says cancer. Many of the sites says it's a rare cancer. Okay.
It's pretty rare. Yeah. Rare cancer. So, it's not cancer then? Well, I don't know. I mean,
I asked two doctors, right? I asked two doctors and they're like, well, it's not,
it's not like, it's not cancer. Well, it's 悪性腫瘍. That's what it is. I don't know.
That's the point. I'm still not understand. I haven't understood. You're still getting it,
like. Yeah. Okay. I don't know either. But it has to be, like, treated as a cancer, like,
the same way you have to same. That's right. That's right. Yeah. You have to get a CT scan.
You have to, like, I'm going to, you know, you have to do the daicho camera. Yeah. Look at how
big it is. You have to, you know, number one concern is, like, how much it, you know, it has
transferred to other organs, you know. God forbid, if it transferred to organs that you cannot
surgically remove, well, the only chance you have left is, you know, 口癌治療, you know.
So, yeah. So, that's what it is. You have to do the same thing, though. Okay. Right. Yeah. So,
okay. I'm not professional in those, like, medical terms and everything, but
it sounds to me just, it's basically, it's a cancer then. Yeah. I mean, right. It's, yeah,
I'm going through the same thing as cancer. So, yeah. I mean, I guess that's, I guess you can
think of it as cancer, though. I don't know, but medically, I don't know how accurate this is.
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. Right. Okay. What's medically correct is 悪性腫瘍 is what
it is. Okay. Okay. But, yeah, if that's, yeah, that's one way to think about it. Okay. Yes. I
see. I see. Right. So, okay. After that, yeah, next day, I went to the doctors. They explained to me
all this, right, thing that's happening to my body. That 悪性腫瘍 was located on my 直腫.
Okay. Right. 直腫. Right in the middle of 直腫. Okay. Yeah. And then the size,
the doctor was not too accurate, but eyeballing it, he said around one centimeter or so. Okay.
Yeah. Is it like bigger from than the average or like, is it like big or small? So,
that one centimeter mark is very important. Normally, when you're talking about cancers in
general, if it's smaller than one centimeter, that takes a very long time to grow. Oh, okay.
When it hits that one centimeter mark, it grows faster. Oh, I see. So, I mean, the fact that it
was, you know, just around one centimeter, I guess, you know, I haven't gotten to that stage,
like, you know, where it like spreads really, really fast, hopefully, right? But is it really,
really fast? I don't think so. Okay. Like it starts with a millimeter size, right? So,
and then it gets bigger and bigger. So, yeah. And, right. So, the doctor was like,
so that's what you have. And we have to get you checked, get your CT scanned,
and then take you to a bigger hospital where they can, you know, do like bigger, you know, tests.
So, that, I did it. Okay. I did. I did that like a week after that day. And then they're scanning
診断と不安
the results. They're processing the results, you know, the CT scan pictures and all that stuff,
they're processing it. And I'm going to meet the doctor. Then they're going to tell me
how good or how bad it is. Yeah. How can we deal with this? That's going to happen tomorrow.
Shit. I'm so scared. Shit, man.
I know, right? I'm so scared. I'm so scared. Even me. Yeah. Man. Yeah.
So, you're going to see the doctor tomorrow? That's right. And then he's going to explain
about the test. Yeah. What he found on the test, right? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Right. Right. Okay. Okay.
Yeah. So, the precise, the size, and how the actual condition is. Right, right, right. So,
what I'm going to find out tomorrow is how bad it is, like the grade. How, okay, like,
so, in this shio, there's, there's shit inside. Like, if, kind of hard to explain, but like,
how toxic it is. I think there's four grades. And like, yeah, the more toxic, I guess the faster
it grows. Right. That. And yeah, how big it is. How deep it was. Deep. Yeah. The deeper it is,
the closer it gets to the bloodstream, I think. Bloodstream or the lymph. And then,
if it goes on the bloodstream or the lymph, you're going to have a higher chance of bringing that bad
cell to different organs. Okay. Okay. Right. So, that. I see. And is it, has it already been
transferred to other organs? And is it transferred to ryōiki rinpa? Okay. Yeah. So, that's kind of
difficult, but there's a rinpa, right? You know what a rinpa is, right? Yeah. Yeah. I have the
shuyō right here, and there's, there's this thing called the ryōiki rinpa. Okay. The closest,
I guess, you know, closest rinpa-setsu. I see. Closest rinpa-setsu. Is it transferred to the
closest rinpa-setsu or not? Okay. Is it within or? Within or without. Okay. That's right. So,
that's what I'm going to find out. Yeah. Yep. But, you know, those of you who are listening
to this right now, they don't have to suffer the anxiety of like, like, am I going to be okay or
not? Because it's already out on the internet. Like, if you're worried, go to YouTube. I probably
have a video out explaining what the results were. And hopefully, you're listening to this, like,
with a safe mind. Yeah. Right. Right. Right. But right now, it's a historical moment for me. Yeah.
Like, I've never been in a situation where I don't know what's coming. Like, you know,
life and death moment, you know. Like, it's not like wordplay things, you know, like life
or death. It's the literal... I know.
My quality of life heavily depends on the results of tomorrow. Yeah. Which is unsettling.
Un-fucking-settling. Oh. Yeah. So, it's a historical moment that I'm talking to you
right now, like, on camera. Like, I have this moment captured. Yeah. I know. Yeah.
But, you know, the doctors, the bigger hospital doctor, when he looked at the results...
Okay. I'm sorry. I'm talking about the Daichu camera results, not the CT results. Yeah. Yeah.
悪性腫瘍の診断と手術計画
When he first looked at it, he was like, okay, we do have to look at all the CT scans and
look at the results that we do. Okay. But at least from the results that you have
when you did your Daichu camera, it's not going to be a life-threatening shit,
is what he said. Okay. Right. That's what he said.
So, it's not... Okay. Yeah. It's not life-threatening. I mean, that's great to hear.
That's the one we wanted to hear. Yeah. Yeah. Right. Right. Okay. Okay. Yeah. So, you know,
it's not like I have two months left. I'm not scared of, like, I have two months left. Right.
Right. Right. Right. I'm not that scared of that. Yeah. Even though I can't definitely say that,
but, like, not that scared. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Right. Okay. Yeah. Oh, that's great.
I mean, honestly. Yeah. That's something I want to hear. Yeah. Right. Right. From the doctor.
Right. Right. What's in your mind? Like, what's the scariest thing in your mind?
Well, I mean, the scariest thing I'm worried about right now is the axial has
reached different organs. Right. Even if it is, like, surgically removable. Yeah.
I have to do a bigger surgery. Okay. Right. So, right now, the doctor told me, like, hey,
we have a high percentage of your shui you within this range. Okay. So, we're just going to already
book you your surgery schedule. Yeah. And your kneeling schedule, too. Yeah. I already did that.
Right. And that surgery just removes the shui you. Yeah. And the
shui you. Okay. I'm going to remove all that. Yeah. They take that one area. Take that whole
area out. Yeah. So, I'm going to have a little bit of a less daicho. Yeah. Okay. Right. So,
and I can do that with this surgery machine called the da Vinci. It's a machine. I know that.
You know that? Yeah. Yeah. It's pretty, I guess, it's newer. Right. So, back several years ago,
like, you know, when people think of, you know, daicho surgery. Yeah. You know, the doctor would
cut your stomach, like, completely. Like, literally cut your stomach and then have your intestines,
you know. Yeah. You know, the doctor is going to, like, physically touch your organs and just
do some shui, right? Yeah. Like the iru shui, you know, the drama. Is it? Okay. Yeah. But that's
older. Yeah. Right now, I just have to open five little spots. Yeah. And then I have,
there's a machine that goes in. A camera and a scissor and some crane machine shui. And then
the doctor is going to remotely control that machine so that he doesn't have to worry about
the tebure and very accurate. So, you don't have to cut. That's right. You don't have to. Yeah. I'm
not going to have a huge opening on my body. Just a little bit of a bup, bup, bup, bup. And it's
expected to fully recover. So, that's good. That's good. Yeah. So, what I am, what I don't want to
happen is, like, well, I don't want it to go into different organs and have a bigger surgery. That
悪性腫瘍の告知と感謝
I don't want to have. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. True. Or, you know, the worst case scenario, don't want it
to go into an organ that I cannot surgically remove. Okay. Is there, like, organs that you
cannot surgery? Yeah. I think I forgot what it was. But there are. Yeah. Okay. Okay. Yeah.
Hmm. Is it possible, though? Yeah, it's possible. Oh, okay. Right. Because if it goes into your
lymph or your bloodstream. Yeah. Yeah. That goes all over your body, right? So, like, you don't know
where that shit's going to land. So, right. Okay. So, yeah. But, you know, I'm so glad I did the
Daichō camera, though. Well, yeah. I really have to thank the people. Honestly. That sent me the
hospital. Thank you so much. Thank you so much. I mean, for injury, I was only planning to do
the e-camera. True. But because y'all sent me the hospital where they would do the e-camera and the
Daichō camera at once. That's true. I was like, huh, why don't I just do the Daichō camera, too?
Yeah. Then I found shit. So, thank you so much. Thank you so fucking much.
Thank you. That literally saved my life. Yeah. Like, literally. Literally. Like, true.
Because, like, in general, you don't do that. Like, you don't do that test. Like, you're 30,
31, and... Right. You only do it when you're 40. Yeah. Usually. Yeah. Even though you do, like,
some ningen doku things, you just see that, like, well, e-camera could be, maybe, but...
The God, right? Yeah. The God. True. Yeah. So, I'm very appreciative of that. Yeah. I do. I do. I mean,
I appreciate that, too. Yeah. Like... Yeah, man. People who send, like, those informations and...
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Right. So, what's that? I mean, true. It's... You're kind of... I don't know
if I should say this, but you're kind of lucky that you found it, like, in, like, very... The
early stages, right? Yeah. I mean, I could have waited until 40. Yeah. And then the shit could
be, like, this big. Yeah. Size of your fist or something. Right. Right. As you said, like, if it
goes, like, bigger than the one centimeters, then it's gonna be faster. Yeah. In Dr. Seed, it's, like,
probably one centimeter or so. Yeah. Yeah. So, you've... Right? I'm lucky I found it right now.
So, man. Yeah. I mean, honestly, I don't know what to say. Honestly, like, what can I say?
Yeah. I... Yeah. It must be difficult for you guys as well. Yeah. I had to, you know, of course,
tell my wife, tell my family, tell... I didn't want to, you know, scare that many people. So,
like, I only told the minimum amount of friends. Yeah. And, like, the friends that, like, said,
hey, let's go out drinking in October. But, like, I had to decline because I was going to be
hospitalized. To them, I told them. Yeah. That must be, like, you know, must be scary for them
too. Oh, yeah. Worrisome for them as well. So... Yeah. I mean, I'm worrying, of course. Yeah.
Like, yeah. I'm worrying, like, every day. But I... There's nothing I can do and just... Yeah.
ケビンの心情と健康状態
But, you know... But I guess knowing that I'm mentally okay. Yeah. Yeah. I guess puts a little
bit of ease on you guys. Right. Right. Right. True. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I just want... I don't know
what to do, but I just want to make you feel that I'm with you, kind of. Oh, well, thank you.
I don't want to, like, call you every day and just... I don't want to text you every day. I
don't want to bother you like that. But... Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I mean... Yeah. The fact that you're
telling me that already means a lot to me. So, thank you, man. Yeah. Yeah. But honestly, like,
I don't know what to do. Like, I don't... You know. Yeah. So... Tell me what eases you. Okay.
Tell me if there's anything I can do for you to ease the situation or, like... Yeah. Because I...
Honestly, I don't know what can I do. Yeah. Well, I mean, we'll get to that in the next episode.
But, yeah. For this episode... Yeah. Just an update on... Like, I'm actually healthy. Like, I'm
not physically... I'm not healthy. My mentality is pretty, like... Yeah. I don't know how I'm doing
it, but I'm actually okay. Yeah. I'm actually, like, mentally... Like, I'm doing okay. Yeah.
Yeah. Great to see you on this screen, I guess. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Like, even though this
is after the YouTube video. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, do I look okay? Yeah. Am I looking normal?
Yes. Like, if you were... Like, if you didn't know anything about me, do you think that I'm okay?
Yeah. All right. Like, honestly, if you don't... If you don't tell anything... Yeah. If you don't
say anything, you have nothing. Yeah. Okay. I won't... That's good. I won't be noticing anything.
All right. Yeah. That's good. Like... Yeah. It's usual every day. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
My leg hair? Yeah. A big... Yeah. A little bit. A little bit. No. If I do this, just
strain it out. It'll be cleaner. I'm gonna... I'm gonna remove it soon. Yeah. Don't worry about it.
It'll be gone soon. Okay. Don't worry about it. Before... Before... Hospitalized or... Probably...
No. After. After. Yeah. Yeah. Can't do it before. I don't have much time. Yeah. Yeah.
But, yeah. That's that. That's that. Yeah. So... Well, thank you for sharing that. Oh, yeah.
Big moment for me on camera as well. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Right. Well, I'm gonna continue talking about
this next time as well. Yeah. Of course. Of course. We're gonna talk about this all day. Yeah. Yeah.
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. All right. Thanks for sitting guys. Yeah. Thank you. Bye-bye. I can hand that.
Yeah. All right.
