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みなさん、こんにちは。いかがお過ごしでしょうか。
このチャンネルは、私まりぃが英語学習継続のために、
幼少1日1ページ、今は音読しています。
その前後に、まじゆう気ままに台本なしで、その日の声日記みたいな形で喋っています。
ほとんど自分のための記録音声配信みたいなところです。
5月から始めても、3か月超えているのに、一切全然向上していないと自覚しております。
でもですね、リスナーが少ない今だからこそ自由に、
何かこう、危機感なく話せて、継続できているのかなと思います。
かなり自分のハードルも低く、とりあえず音読をする。
正読までは行かなくても、2回目でもっと理解しようと思って始めてみたものの、
まあなんとなくでも言っています。
では早速今日も始めていきます。
読んでいる本は、When Breath Becomes Air、ポール・カラニッシュさんの本で、
今日は110、ページ110、I'm sorry, 14-1-8
He said, mournfully, staring into my eyes.
And then I left the ketchup to the team.
He died a few months later,
buried with whatever message he had for the world.
When tumors are malformations about these language areas,
the surgeon takes numerous precautions, ordering a host of different scans,
a detailed neuropsychological examination.
Critically, however, the surgery is performed with the patient awake and talking.
Once the brain is exposed, but before the tumor excision,
the surgeon uses a handheld bow-tip electrode to deliver electrical current
to stun a small area of the cortex while the patient performs various verbal tasks,
naming objects, reciting the alphabet, and so on.
When the electrode sends current into a critical piece of cortex,
it disrupts the patient's speech, ABCDE,
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If GHI, the brain and the tumor, are thus mapped to determine
what can be resected safely, and the patient is kept awake throughout,
occupied with a combination of formal verbal tasks and small talk.
One evening as I was…
I'm going to stop here.
It's hard to get a tumor that's close to a brain tumor.
It's very hard for him to have such a language barrier.
That's all for today.
I'm sorry. I'm running out of time.
It's hard. My daughter took a bath.
That's all for today.
I did my best for a week.
The last day was the hardest.
It's okay to have such a day.
No matter what I'm told, it's okay for the patient.
Even if I say I have a hard time, I understand.
I'd like to get closer to him.
It's a mistake to say I understand.
I'd like to get closer to him.
I can't be in your position.
I don't have any experience.
I don't want to be funny.
I'm grateful, but I'm doing my best.
But I just want to get closer to his painful feelings.
I was saved by him getting closer to me.
I'm so grateful that he just listens to me.
He just listens to me until I stop the pain.
I feel like I'm stopping the pain.
It's a great power to get closer to him and listen to him.
I've realized that.
I've been taking care of him every day.
Of course, it's important to soothe the pain.
But even after I've given him a lot of medicine,
he's still in pain and doesn't listen to me.
I used to wonder why the medicine was working.
What I think now is that if I can do it,
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I'll take care of him while getting closer to him.
If he can say what he feels easily,
I'll listen to him.
I think it's important to create that time.
I sometimes get irritated at myself for not being able to create that time.
It's hard to work face-to-face,
but I feel that I'm doing my best every day,
not that I'm doing it right or wrong.
He's doing his best.
I'm doing my best, too.
That's what I thought.
But it's hard.
We're both having a hard time.
Thank you for being with me today.
Thank you for listening to me today.
I'm sorry I didn't do my best as usual.
Good night.
