2026-01-07 14:22

第5523回 EN struggles about podcast release

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害(ASD / ADHD)、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害(OCD)。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

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エピソードでは、日常の悩みや家族の対立について話されており、特にTomorokoshiの帰宅時間の問題に焦点が当てられています。また、ポッドキャストの制作における苦労や新しいアイデアの模索、AI技術の活用についても語られています。AIの活用やそれに伴うメンタル面のストラグルについても触れられています。さらに、学校生活や料理についての思い出が語られ、特に韓国料理やお好み焼きの味についても言及されています。

日常の問題と家族の対立
Hello everyone, welcome to my podcast. Thanks for tuning in.
It's friendly and welcoming. This podcast calmly discusses daily struggles, mental health and family conflict.
I share those on neurodiversity, isolation, social disconnection, and life as someone navigating unique challenges.
Daily life, emotions, and reflections are shared as they are.
First corner is today's incident. I realized new one thing. As I said in previous episode, as I said at the before episode,
Tomorokoshi came home one hour earlier. It was problem. I guess you can said Tomorokoshi, you may come home after 3.30pm.
I guess like this. But before she said Tomorokoshi, you can come home. You might come home.
But this is purely. She can't know when I go to second floor. I don't know why.
She didn't think that Tomorokoshi. Probably Tomorokoshi would fail. And yesterday, he failed. Same mistake. He made same mistake. He repeat that mistake.
This is schedule. Tomorokoshi is gonna come home after 4pm. But yesterday, 3.20pm, he came home.
One hour earlier.
Tomorokoshi didn't seem to wash her hand carefully.
Yokan said to Tomorokoshi to wash your hand. Sorry, but she made a mistake many time.
Next, yesterday, I decided to make trailer of podcast and Instagram and even podcast name. I decided name of podcast, but I wanted to change my podcast name.
ポッドキャスト制作の挑戦
It's problem. So, I do it.
Yesterday, I was thinking and starting with chat GPT for more than 4 hours.
In the morning, I was very tired. When I was eating for morning breakfast, there was no taste.
I searched it in the middle of the night.
Just now, I still changing it.
Chat GPT is very convenient and useful, but the thing I can do is increase, obviously.
So, it's bother me.
I had been doing blog, but it's failure. But I try to make new one.
As an example, I make a movie. I can try to make a movie.
Yesterday, I began to think. This title is not enough.
I try to make use of strengths characteristics of this podcast.
Yesterday, I write it. I try to add it or explain on podcast.
AI and chat GPT is amazing.
I try to make a cover art on podcast.
It was amazing. So, I try it. I wanted to try it sometimes.
But eventually, I realized that I can't do it.
So, I was uncomfortable.
And I realized I'm a bad luck person.
Someone who listen to my podcast have been increasing.
Obviously, increasing.
So, it's bad timing.
Increase, increase, increasing.
But I want to change my name of podcast.
I'm not sure I should.
This program is for foreigner or for Japanese.
AIへの依存と不安
I'm not sure. So, this balance.
And recently, increasing.
So, I can decide it.
Next topic is...
So, I remember it.
As I said, I have been using chat GPT.
Chat GPT has problem.
I'm consulting with chat GPT about podcast and English.
Too much.
I worry that I might not be able to...
I might not be able to think anymore.
For example, day before yesterday and yesterday.
Sometimes, I try to consult with chat GPT about English.
It's too much.
But AI isn't absolute.
But I end up believing it.
So, I consult with it too much.
About podcast and etc.
I worry about it in the future.
Next corner is...
メンタルの葛藤
Mental and struggle talk.
I'm impatient too much.
I'm impatient.
But recently, it's not on my mind.
But I realize.
Suddenly, I realize.
Recently, I...
I have been listening a certain podcast program.
In the middle of the night.
I start to fast food.
Because I'm impatient.
Yesterday, it's not problem for me.
But before I knew it.
Before I knew it.
I became impatient.
This characteristic appeared.
Next.
I can't understand it.
Most people say.
You should...
You'd better...
You should...
You'd better...
Especially, Japanese are doing like this.
学校についての思い出
I was told many many times.
Especially, school days.
In school days.
Teacher said.
You should...
You'd better...
But they...
Obviously, they will make a mistake.
The moment.
They can say.
You should...
You'd better...
I don't think so.
料理についての話
Next one is HIKIMESHI.
I had...
Korean food.
Kimchi.
Too spicy food.
Okonomiyaki.
It's used flour.
It's similar to pancake.
It was long time no see.
I felt good taste.
Thank you for...
This program.
Thank you.
Thank you for listening this program.
Please follow this program.
See you again.
Thank you for listening.
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