第5558回 EN ASD Daily Life＆Reclusive Life

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

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日々の生活や家庭の問題について考え、最近の体調不良やポッドキャストの学習効果について話します。麺の主成分や手の洗浄について触れ、日常生活の痛みや食事の好みを共有しています。このエピソードでは、ASDを持つ人々の日常生活や引きこもり生活について議論し、日本の伝統的な料理や食材の取り扱いに焦点を当てています。また、ASDの日常生活や引きこもりの経験についても語り、特に食事や携帯電話の使い方に注目しています。

日常生活の悩み

Life is hard? Yeah, it happens.

Family? Yeah, that too.

Elemental disability? It's not just that.

Conclusion? Conclusions.

Hello everyone. Welcome to my podcast.

This is a podcast where I talk primarily about life struggles and family issues.

Today I'm gonna talk about

family incident and I regret something and

I'm a bad luck person and

new year's day in Japanese program

and that's

what I thought on TV show

Firstly,

first corner is today's incident.

I thought I'm a bad luck person because

I got good idea for lunch, for diet.

I'm gonna cut tofu very tiny.

I wanted to

make it very tiny.

Then I got good idea.

But next day

I searched something on the internet.

I found movie

and it was a

maybe TikTok.

They was doing same thing.

My mother is also bad luck person.

Same thing happened.

I thought she is bad luck person.

Same thing happened to me.

So I was shocked.

If I hadn't got

good idea, good this idea today

I can search it and I have good idea.

So I feel uncomfortable.

I was uncomfortable.

Next,recently

it's getting cold and

I have been sick.

So I felt down and

but

if I turn on the stove

I wanted to turn on stove

but it becomes habit.

So I was not sure.

I couldn't turn on the stove.

Next,move on to next topic.

Yesterday,it's suffering me.

That's

ポッドキャストと学習

recently I've been

listening to podcast but

I was not sure where I should

put my consciousness on.

I focus on.

I was not sure.

Whatever I focus on

I should understand

chunk or

their speaker's expression

and etc.

I couldn't.

I decided to

next.

Next is about podcast.

It's common thing for human.

I continue my podcast program.

This reason is

that I hope

there is no change

there is something

not changing

but

of course

all things are changing

but

it's also my characteristic of developmental disability.

Disability.

So

if I do it

it has problem

too much.

So I think.

Next.

It's my philosophy.

It's my thinking.

When I

doing something

smoothly

this is when

I try to focus on something.

Not alone.

It is when I'm doing usually.

But I try to do usually.

It's different from

usual consciousness.

Usual feeling.

So it will be bad.

It would be bad.

It would be bad.

Next.

It is about

about my English learning.

So

but

like this.

When I

talking on the podcast

I can learn English.

I can learn English.

So

I use all the time to

take a podcast or

I want to talk about

something I can't understand.

But I regret that

I talk about

日常生活の悩み

I regret that

I couldn't do

I couldn't talk about

today's incident

well

enough.

And

but

I talk about other something.

It would be

It wouldn't be

well enough.

So I try to

quit

listening the podcast and

I try to learn English by

listening music.

But

this timing

this timing

I'm a bad luck person so

as I said I fell down.

So

I can't learn English

in the middle of the night.

Next.

It happens days in the morning.

Yesterday I had hoikoro.

It's Chinese food.

And I asked her

what is that?

I asked her what is that?

She said

she had

liquid of hoikoro and

it was extra thing.

So she said.

And she also said

hoikoro

involve

oyster sauce and salt and

miso and

and I add it.

So she said but

so I asked her

what is main thing?

But it was main thing. No way. I was surprised.

Strange. It was strange thing.

She said strange thing.

And

she also said

it's like hoikoro.

But it is hoikoro.

It is main thing.

Next.

As I said

my leg

has been swollen and

when I was sleeping

side of leg

touched a bit and

and it hurt.

And

right leg also pain.

So when I was sleeping it's tough

too much.

So I couldn't

sleep well enough.

That's why

I wanted to study English.

Yesterday also

I end up sleeping.

And next.

I want to be clean.

So

I wash the hand everyday too much and

when it's getting cold

my hand got

my hand get

wound.

And recently

it's get wound.

It's bad luck.

It's my rule. I

I try washing.

I try

After I try

After I wash the hand

I try

I try

wiping

my hand

completely.

But today

both of

both tissue

both tissues

are finished.

This is rare. So

I think I'm bad. I thought

I'm bad luck person.

We want to talk the next topic

about eating

something.

I'm gonna talk about

meal. My meal.

If there are

a lot of thing on the plate

I can't focus on

one thing.

But if there is

one thing

I get bored.

And it happens today.

And it happens today.

I don't know why but

I concern on my left

leg.

So I couldn't focus on meal.

As I said

I felt

the right side of my neck

pain in the day

and

the left side

of my leg

also pain.

So today it was tough.

Next

食事の好み

This is

New Year's Eve

Japanese

very traditional famous

program

TV show

TV program

It's called Ekiden.

Some people are running

one by one.

Of course it's competition.

日常の難しさ

They are running

one by one.

One team has

about

about ten people.

And the director boost

players' mood.

It was surprised.

All director

was doing like this.

I was thinking if I was player

and Norway

like this

I don't wanted to be influenced

and

I don't wanted to

I don't wanna

be moved

because

I feel

I end up

interesting

completely

as it is

I'm desperate

to something.

I'm desperate to control

myself.

Next

As I said

There was

日本の伝統的な食文化

Japanese traditional program

Tomorokoshi

She said

Tomorokoshi was watching

this program

after their

they go shopping

Partly she said like this.

She said it's like this.

But today

it was different from she said.

Already

Already it seemed

that already champion decide

Already decide champion

And eventually she mentioned

This competition

It's two days.

It's for two days.

But

As I said

She told

Already

decide champion but

It was

Tomorokoshi was watching

First day

It was day one.

Next

It was small thing but

She made a mistake.

She also made a mistake.

It was

It happened

Today's afternoon

I search

the YouTube about

ranking of

meat of

beef

yakiniku is Japanese dish

yakiniku

yakiniku ranking

But

I can find

favorite ranking

ranking

It was different.

So like this I said

I said to her but

I said to her

But she misunderstood

Hokkaido

That's my local

It's different from other area

She said

Anyway she misunderstood

Next

It also happened today evening

Today afternoon

I was talking

We were talking about

Japanese food umami

Kind of NIMONO

I told her

I told something to her

That

New year

Japanese people

It is common thing

Make

To make umami

It smell

For three days

New year's

New year's day eve and new year

And

So she said she mentioned

We should

People should

Nine types ingredients

People should

Buy

Nine types stuff

I like this she mentioned

And she

She also said

So

Eventually

Finish this end up being

Large quantity

Large quantity

She mentioned

Finish this

End up being

Large quantity

So I remarked

You bought

Each one

You bought similar

Food

For example

Carrot

Satoimo

And she said

I couldn't understand her

Excuse

There was nine types vegetables

So

End up being

End up being

Large quantity

Then she should say

She put a lot of

ASDの日常生活

Vegetables and

So end up being like this

But apparently

She mentioned

People should

Buy

It seemed that

Sorry

She said

Set our nine types vegetables

She said

People should

Buy

Set our nine types vegetables

Way of speaking is like this

Next

Just now I end up thinking

If I

If my cell phone

Broke down

If I

If my cell phone broke down

Whatever I write note

I write on the note

Or I write

I would write on the cell phone

And I would use

My mother's old cell phone but

It was old so

I can't

Thumb up and

Whatever I should

Record in English

But

I can't search in English

But I should record in English

I was scared

If I

Root

I end up thinking

Nothing have to do

Next

Corner is HIKIMESHI

I ate

Something for the lunch

Or

Dinner

I ate

I had

Like

I can't remember

I forget

Tsukemono

It involve food

It made a wrong food

It involve food

Dish

Fish and

Maybe

Hakusai and

It was delicious

It was amazing

There was

As I said Hoikoro

It's Chinese food

They usually use

Pork and

Cabbage

It was good taste

And good flavor

Especially this was

Greatful

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