第5565回 EN Daily Home Conflicts Dysfunctional Family Life

このエピソードは思考整理のための独り語りです。メンタルヘルスや発達特性を背景に、日常の悩 みや感情をそのまま話しています。聞き流しても問題ありません。

 This episode is a personal audio journal on daily struggles, mental health, andneurodiversity. It is meant to be listened to casually in the background.

このポッドキャストは、生きづらさ・メンタルヘルス・家庭問題を中心に、 日常で起きる出来事や思考を、感情を煽らず淡々と語る雑談ポッドキャストです。親子関係の衝突、家庭内トラブル、機能不全家族。 「普通」や「当たり前」とされる家族像や会話が成立しない現実を扱います。 発達障害（ASD / ADHD）、うつ病、双極性障害、不安障害、社会不安、幸福恐怖、強迫性障害（OCD）。 個人の特性と、家庭・社会環境が噛み合わないことで生じる問題を取り上げます。 宗教二世として育った経験から、 オカルトやスピリチュアルを信じて自分を誤魔化しながら生きることができない感覚についても語ります。 物事を都合よく解釈して安心することができず、 現実をそのまま見てしまうことによる生きづらさを扱います。 長期間の引きこもり、無職、就職活動の失敗、働けない現実。社会復帰の難しさや、将来への不安を、理想論ではなく事実として話します。 難病である潰瘍性大腸炎の可能性を抱えながら、 引きこもり状態のため十分な治療に繋がれない状況と、体調不安が日常生活に与える影響についても触れます。 人間関係のトラウマや、 新たなトラウマを作らないために距離を取るという選択。 人と関わる必要性を理解しつつも、発達障害が理解されにくい現実の中での葛藤を語ります。 哲学やニヒリズムを背景に、 存在の意味を求めるのではなく、 世の中を都合よく解釈する考え方そのものへの違和感や、人の思考の矛盾、浅はかさをスピリチュアルに逃げず考察します。 前向きさや希望を押し付ける番組ではありません。 答えを出すこともしません。 メンタルヘルス、発達障害、家庭問題、生きづらさを抱える人に向けた、静かで重めのトーク番組です。

This podcast focuses on mental health, neurodiversity, and family issues, discussed calmly and without emotional exaggeration. It covers parent-child conflict, dysfunctionalfamilies, and situations where so-called “normal” family dynamics do not work.Topics include ASD / ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety disorders,social anxiety, fear of happiness, and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD),exploring how personal traits clash with family and social environments.Growing up in a religious household, I talk about the inability to rely on occult or spiritual beliefs to comfort or deceive myself, and the difficulty of facing reality without convenient explanations. The podcast addresses long-term social withdrawal, unemployment, failed job searches, and the realistic difficulty of returning to society. I also discuss the possibility of living with ulcerative colitis, a chronic illness, while being unable to access proper treatment due to isolation, and how physical uncertainty affects daily life.Human relationships and trauma, choosing distance to avoid creating new wounds, and the struggle of living in a society where neurodiversity is rarely understood are recurring themes. Rather than seeking meaning, this podcastexamines how people conveniently interpret reality, the contradictions in human thinking, and social absurdities — without spiritual escape or comforting narratives. No self-help. No optimism. No answers. A quiet, heavy podcast forthose dealing with mental health issues, neurodiversity, family conflict, and the difficulty of living in reality as it is.

サマリー

このエピソードでは、家族の間のコミュニケーションの問題や日常生活の困難、特に隣人との関係や誤解について語ります。また、長崎中華街と横浜中華街の違いや、英語学習の方法、特に音楽を使った学習についても考察されます。さらに、家族間の対立や、日本人がビールを選ぶ際の甘さへの執着など、機能不全な家族生活に関する様々な側面が取り上げられています。エピソードでは、動物と人間の安全を考慮しながら、家族間の衝突や機能不全についても考察されています。

家族の問題と誤解

Hello, welcome to my podcast. Thanks for tuning in. It's welcoming and friendly.

This is a podcast where I talk of commonly our life struggles and family issues.

Today I will talk about something I was shocked and something I was moved.

And something moved me.

Noises never end.

Something on my mind and human characteristics.

And yesterday and today, my family issue.

Alright, let's start.

What corner is this incident?

I mentioned her. I have been sick, so I felt down.

And she turned on stove earlier as usual.

That time, I thought it's no problem.

But just now, I think.

If I hadn't said that like this, I end up thinking.

Next.

My neighbor, I called her noisy baba.

Baba means grandmother, old woman.

I called her sound baba.

She was talking with a certain neighbor, my neighbor.

And she talked to this man.

Very long time.

So, I was sorry this neighbor.

This man was removing snow.

He shoveled snow, but she talked to this man long time.

Too much.

It's annoying.

She also talked to someone moved.

Please think about talking to an expert.

You are not alone.

Maybe she was annoying.

Next, it happened today.

I didn't ask her, but she charged this phone on her own.

She made the same mistake more than 100 times.

But before I took this place on the podcast, I began to think.

Maybe people gonna say,

If you are dissatisfied,

If you are unsatisfied,

You can charge your phone by myself.

But she made the same mistake on the other thing.

Next, yesterday, I tried to do other kind of dish, tofu dish.

But recently, I found helpful movie to make this dish.

Today, I noticed there is some problem.

So, I said to her,

Did you watch this movie again?

But she thought it's different.

It's not helpful.

After all, she made a mistake again and again.

Just a problem.

She ended up assuming it's a problem.

It makes trouble.

Next, I asked her,

This setting is OK?

I tried to other way in the morning.

I asked her,

This setting is OK?

This has problem?

But she moved on to the next topic.

Maybe she thought it's not really big deal.

So, she tried to next topic.

She moved on to the next topic.

But I asked her,

This setting is OK?

No way. Next.

Next corner is today's struggles and mental health and philosophy and something that moved me.

It's on my mind.

I wanted to use chativity for my English learning too much.

And I use hip-hop music.

It's also on my mind.

I wanted to use hip-hop music for learning English.

Next.

長崎中華街と横浜中華街

Do you know Nagasaki Chukagai?

Yokohama Chukagai is popular and famous in Japan.

But Nagasaki Chukagai is not really famous.

It's common thing.

Media, for example TV show,

It's easy to go to Yokohama Chukagai.

So, it's become famous.

I was watching Nagasaki Chukagai on YouTube.

It was more amazing than Yokohama Chukagai.

I have been to Yokohama Chukagai.

It was amazing.

But Nagasaki Chukagai is more amazing and famous.

It's a great place.

Next.

It's yesterday.

I didn't turn on the stove.

But it sounds strange.

Perhaps I was watching a dream.

Anyway, I was scared.

Next.

英語学習の方法

It's problem on my English learning.

I noticed I can...

When I was hearing the podcast for learning English,

I noticed I can...

I become to be able to listen English than before.

But recently, I quit this way of my learning English.

Recently, I start to learn English by music.

Next.

Yesterday, one way of dish of lunch succeed.

I succeed.

I try something recently and

I really succeed.

But I was talking with chat GPT and it said

Suihanki?

You shouldn't use suihanki with tofu.

Suihanki is Japanese.

It's a famous machine.

Japanese people use this.

Almost Japanese family has this machine.

To make rice.

This is a stuff to make rice.

Warm and make rice.

I was scared but because

Chat GPT said

This has problem.

Next.

I said...

No.

Just now, I was talking about next.

So, what's the next topic?

About learning English.

I didn't find a music for learning English.

I didn't find a music for learning English.

I was watching suggest article.

I was watching some article.

A lot of article that suggest some music.

But I didn't find.

I couldn't find.

And some app.

I search some app.

It's also a failure.

So, I regret it.

Next.

ポッドキャストとAISの利用

A certain blogger said

I'm doing podcast publishing.

And I use AIS.

It's easy.

To write some article.

So, I was not sure.

Recently, I haven't been not sure.

Whatever I gonna learn English by

Record podcast.

Or

Foreign music.

Etc.

Next.

There was a similar person.

There was a person

Who is similar to

The person I watched

And before

Kind of I can

家族間の対立

I could remember

It's on my mind.

I can't remember.

But she is similar to someone.

I've seen

I've seen

Her before.

This

This feel

Like to seen before.

Next.

I made a mistake.

I use

Function of range.

Function of range.

Or

Oven.

This is microwave.

But this has

Oven.

Function of oven.

Function of oven.

I use this function.

This break.

Broken.

This and

This machine broke.

The machine is broken.

Yes.

As I said.

I use

Suihanki

To

This is

This is machine to

Make rice.

But I use

I

Use tofu.

But I was not sure

It is

Whatever it is

My mistake

Or not.

But I regret it.

Why I

Didn't notice.

I made a same mistake.

I might

Make a same mistake.

So I think so.

Next.

Move on to the next topic.

I search about

I search about

Hip-hop musician and

Ekiden.

It's

Ekiden.

It's

Competition of

Running.

Some people.

Some player.

Running a long long

Distance.

As I said.

Team is very

Strong.

So I search.

I was watching

This team

On the YouTube.

Next.

My routine was broken.

In the

In the today morning.

Like this time.

This

This

Why it is

This situation

Like this.

It's bother me.

Today it was small thing.

I forget

Small

To

Action.

I was too small action.

But

It was very

Huge problem.

日本人のビールの選び方

So today

I take

I took a long

I took long time

To do something.

It's characteristic on my

Developmental disability.

Next.

It's

It's on my mind.

Why?

Especially Japanese people.

Drinks

Always drink

Same beer.

Same kind of beer.

But they try to

Sweet.

This is

I realized today.

Sweet is

Of course.

Sweet is sweet.

This

This things

Use sugar.

And they use it for

Instagram.

And

Sweet is

Huge amount.

And

But beer

Beer is

A lot of amount.

They drink

A lot of

Long time.

So

If they

Failed

It has

More problem

Than sweet.

Next.

Human

Repeat

Same action.

It hurts.

They feel

Comfortable.

They are comfortable.

When

They are

Doing

Same

Action

They are comfortable.

But

This continue

Long time.

動物と人間の安全

It's uncomfortable.

That reason is

That

Animal and human

Are safety to

Be in

Same place.

But

It's important

Important

To change

For

To

Find food

And escape

By

As animal.

So human has

Both of them.

But it's

Opposite.

Opposite.

This is

Opposite.

Opposite.

Next corner is

Hikime-shi.

I had

Yuri

Yuri

Yuri-no-ne

I realize

Yesterday.

I realize

This

This thing.

Yesterday.

That

I realize

This

Yesterday.

That

I realize

This

Yesterday.

That

Potato is root.

And

Onion is root.

And this

Yuri-no-ne

It's similar to

Potato

Texture and

Taste is similar to potato.

And

Looks like

Onion.

It was good taste.

And good texture.

A certain

Person

Present for my family.

It's just little bit expensive.

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