第5475回 i'm shut in its tough ＆its getting cold

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最近、準備された食べ物を求めて市場に行くことが多くなり、英語学習の意味やAIの進化について考えるようになっています。寒くなってきた日本の北部に住む清潔癖の方が、ドアを閉めずに過ごすことの困難さや音楽プログラムで感動した出来事について話しています。また、日本のアイドルの結婚や子育てについても考え、最近のニュースや自身の英語学習の方法にも触れています。このエピソードでは、外国の音楽を用いた英語学習の効果について疑問を呈し、学習方法を変更した経験をシェアしています。

市場での食べ物の選択

Hello everyone. Welcome to this program. Thanks for tuning in. It's friendly and welcoming. Today, here's what happened.

Firstly, yesterday, today, in the morning, it happened. In conversation with Ryokan, according to compare near and more and other more, in the middle of conversation, it began to strange.

Firstly, she said, Asachun supermarket, there are a lot of prepared food.

But, neighbor supermarket, supermarket in the neighbor, a few prepared food.

But, in the middle of conversation, he said different things.

Recently, I have been there hourly. So, I can buy it. But, before, I couldn't buy prepared food.

It's unrelated. So, I thought, you know, it's unrelated.

The time she go to the market, just changed. Of course, she can buy prepared food.

It's not only that. She said, there are a few kind of prepared food.

But, in the middle of conversation, she said, she may remark kind of fried food.

There are a few these. So, she said.

Next, since I became Chatwin, directly, I have felt, it has been tough.

A very long time. More than 10 years.

And, I feel bad. I feel tired.

It's tough and it's hard. It's been tough and it's been hard, directly.

In other words, I can't hide the truth for me.

For someone, not for someone, for me.

I can't hide the truth for myself.

And, I can't fool myself and I can't disreact.

So, directly, it's hard and it's tough.

I have felt.

But, next topic is learning English.

I'm not sure, learning English is have meaning or not.

Writing blog in English is no meaning, I think.

But, talking in English, I'm not sure.

After all, I worried AI, ChatGPT, evolution of ChatGPT.

I worried evolution of ChatGPT.

But, either way, I'm glad evolution of ChatGPT.

Because, I have been learning English with ChatGPT.

And, as a hand, it's my pleasure.

It's very, very convenient for my English.

寒さとドアの問題

Next topic is, recently, it's getting cold.

Today's morning, it was terrible.

Yesterday, in the morning, I was, I felt cold.

In the morning, I was, I felt cold.

And, today's night, it was cold.

Almost in the middle of the night.

Yesterday, it's very terrible.

It's crazy.

And, it's getting cold.

But, I don't wanna... Today, it was cold.

During the day.

I live in north of Japan.

Most north region.

Next topic is daily.

I'm a clean freak.

So, I can't close the door.

But, it's getting cold.

So, for 10 years, more than 10 years, more than 5 years,

I haven't been, I haven't closed the door.

But, I'm not sure that I should close the door or not.

I'm sorry.

Because, you can't should close the door every time.

Next.

音楽プログラムの感動

Next corner is popcorn.

I was moved.

I'm impressive.

Because, I watched TV show.

It's music program.

Sato singer.

Uman singer appeared.

And, I admire to her.

Because, Record Taisho, it's Japanese award.

End of the year, it's decided.

He won this award 3 times.

I remember that.

That was amazing very much.

It's not only that.

Not only that.

And, on top of that.

It was 20 years ago.

And, and.

Now, she is still famous singer in Japan.

This song.

Dramat sing same song.

There is 3 pattern.

So, I think.

There are 3 pattern.

Firstly, obvious lie.

And, lie.

And, and.

In my school days.

I act.

And, I speak.

My talking.

My acting.

Action.

Of course, there are few lie.

I perform natural.

I act natural.

I pretend to be natural.

But, people.

Blame me.

It's unbelievable.

Because.

That wasn't obvious lie.

First of all.

First of all.

Why did I.

Why was I blamed.

I'm not sure.

Next.

I support.

アイドルについての考察

I have support the idol.

Japanese idol.

46.

And.

The idol.

Who quit.

The idol.

2 years ago.

Married.

And.

Husband.

And.

Have child.

Today.

I found it.

I was surprised.

I thought deeply.

I thought something.

Deeply.

Because.

She began to be famous.

One more.

Recently.

She became more popular.

So.

I think bad luck.

But she have child.

It's.

It's good luck.

Next.

I search something.

I forget.

Forget it.

But something I search it.

And.

Today.

I saw it.

On Yahoo News.

It's mystery.

Of course.

I search something.

Of course.

Google's algorithm.

There is Google's algorithm.

I saw other.

Article.

Then.

I saw it.

Of course.

It happened.

But.

It's different.

Next.

Recently.

I.

I have listened.

A certain program.

And.

Guest.

Appeared.

Appeared.

On this program.

She said.

She.

Mentioned.

I.

英語学習の方法

Learn English by song.

Foreign song.

Foreign music.

I.

My school days.

In my school days.

I.

I love.

Foreign music.

So I regret my school days.

And.

Now.

I found way of.

Learning English.

Finally.

Finally.

外国の音楽と英語学習

I found it.

So.

And just a little bit.

I.

I try to.

I try to.

Learn English.

With.

Foreign music.

Foreign music.

And a lot of expert of learning English.

Said.

Learning English.

With foreign music is bad.

So.

I quit.

Learning English.

With foreign music.

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