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Meaning and continuation are separate problems.
When I'm at home all the time, I got troublekilling time, and I hit the limit many times. Evennow, it happens sometimes.
Today, I couldn't decide if I wanna watch somedrama episode I got wrote on me about what video Iwatch and what I done.
But I can't make the rules that I gotta keep themrules. I gotta change them sometimes. There'sdramas and what I can watch or not watch.
So I can't say whatever. I watch the drama andremember the story.
I remember it was one night for 10 years in adrama to someone was suspected someone trust him.
That's happened in real life too. Trusting someoneisn't about right or wrong.
I know why people suspect and I also suspect in myhead, but the fact of trusting also when reasonbreaks.
That's why we can trust. It's a strong part ofhumans and scary part I don't wanna talk about.
I got shocked by the power of life it said inbooks and everything too.
So I don't gotta say it, but I'm not saying loveis great.
I'm saying humans got parts that seem things on adifferent layer from morals or values.
If you wanna trust someone it doesn't matter if he's a woman or a man.
For that person it's fine. Holding arm isn't good,but for that kind of person it doesn't matter.
You can't deny the act of trusting.
I wouldn't move, but trusting is strong. Blindtrust is scary.
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When you trust you can't say anything. That's whyit's easier to share stories.
I keep saying this because I was in religion for20 years, but I never got that trusting feeling.
I was always doubting everyone. I was serious.
I wanna trust someone at least once.
I kinda get why someone married a woman with a kidand was a protector.
I get it and I don't get it. I heard of others.
Mom said who's mom sleeps sitting still complainsthe religion gang.
I didn't know who I should go check out the usual.
I know cold mom sound awake.
I said hard talking as we looked at high schooluniform together.
Mom looked too fast with doubt.
Thinking so I said it doesn't mean anything.
Mom said still go to another side it's extreme.
I didn't say the side was bad.
Mom said I'll go somewhere else like a kid notdrama.
Someone got suspected.
I trust someone.
Humans trying to feel their heart.
That's why I can keep doing my podcast.
I got those feelings.
Humans noticed their heart and trying to feelthem.
I also think people can lower the chance ofgetting in trouble.
I don't know why most people don't.
People got work and life so they can't do that.
People are too free.
Staying home lower risk.
People got stress from work and school.
Heart aren't calm.
So action aren't calm.
People can't do that.
People don't see risk or pretend it's not there.
They think they are fine.
Some are optimistic.
Some want to enjoy life.
Even if risk goes up that's fine.
If you only think about risk it's no good.
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I think it's too late after something happened butit's personality.
Everyone got something they can't say.
People look fine but got miserable stuff inside.
Everyone got that.
We should accept each other.
People say don't compare with others but that'sfantasy.
If humans stop comparing both sides becomenothing.
We compare unconsciously.
People say compare less but I don't say that.
Comparison no sides.
The problem stopping the story after comparing.
People say I'm worse so I shouldn't live.
That's the story.
I remember what I want to say using drama.
Weird but I got moved today.
I don't care about this place.
Mystery stories got too many twist.
No one can solve them.
That's why I don't know how to watch them.
To make things you got make contradiction.
If you remove one contradiction another comes.
My already did or liked it.
The actor said sorry for making you do all this.
Even if you don't say it the other person knowsyour thoughts of what.
Saying it got meaning.
It's minor but also more.
Humans relations are complex.
If you don't say thanks feelings still move.
If you say thanks it doesn't lose meaning.
I got confused in the past cause I think toorational.
I'm trying to untangle it but I'll never get it.
Humans aren't simple.
Saying thanks meaning imagining the other person'sfeelings.
It's rare.
You can't say this in this situation.
Japanese people read the air like a superpower.
I can't do that.
But going to the direct speaking country doesn'tmake it work.
I'm not fit for Japan but I can't read feelings.
I read too much so I get lost.
Tomorrow morning I won't be home.
In the afternoon I gotta stay upstairs.
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I didn't wanna make exception before but cause Iget lazy.
I gotta tell myself it's an emergency.
When mom was sick I did that.
Now I got stuff to do upstairs but I still getlazy.
Today I'm not calm.
It's night now.
If I could fix my conclusion.
It'd be easy but I can't run anywhere.
I'm not wondering.
I'm just not running.
Even clinical people run somewhere but I don't.
I looked back and felt like I'm running whilesomeone chased me.
Not by my will.
So I never felt it's trouble.
Who everyone got that it'd be good.
But being chased should be tense.
But I don't get that tension.
I live more my pace than before.
People got things they can't say.
People look like they got good life but gotmiserable stuff inside.
Who everyone got that we should accept each other.
People say don't compare with other but that's afantasy.
Who someone stop comparing but side becomenothing.
Consciously people say compare less butcomparisons are comparisons.
No sense.
The problem is stopping the story after comparing.
People say I'm worse so I should live.
That's a story.
I remember what I wanted to say.
Using a drama is weird but I got moved today.
I don't care about praise.
Mystery stories got too many twists.
So no one can solve them.
That's why I don't know how to watch them.
To make things fit you gotta make contradictionfor you.
Remember one contradiction another comes.
My early days were like that.
The actor said sorry for making you do all this.
Even if you don't say.
It's another person know you're thankful but thinkit's got meaning.
It matters but also more.
Human relations are complex.
Who you don't say thanks feelings still move.
Who you say thanks it doesn't lose meaning.
I got confused in the past cause I think toorational.
I'm trying to untangle it but I'll never get it.
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Humans aren't simple thing.
Thanks me imagining the other person's feeling.
It's weird.
You can't say this in this situation.
Japanese people read air like superpower.
I can't do that.
But going to direct speaking country doesn't meanit'll work.
I'm not fit for Japan but it's not that I can'tread feelings.
I read too much so I get lost.
Humans know this lack.
Humans feel it.
I can lower the risk.
At least that's why don't people do it.
People work.
People have private life.
People are free.
I'm observing staying home.
Lower risk.
Works to start.
Stressful people can't stay home.
People are restless without rest.
Action appear.
People can't tie themselves up.
People don't know the risk.
People pretend it's gone.
People have religious safety.
People are optimistic.
Risk increase.
People wanna be happy.
That's correct.
It's fine.
Worrying about risk not good.
I have nothing to say.
It's too late for something.
Personally matter.
Everyone thinks they can't say.
People act cool.
People lie.
People are miserable.
People close to me.
Everyone has it.
People live a good life.
But people live like that.
People should acknowledge we are humans.
I remember it.
Don't compare yourself to popular people.
Don't lose sight.
It's a religion.
If humans stop comparing,
we are nothing.
If we don't compare,
we are nothing.
We compare unconsciously.
We don't compare much.
That's the end.
I don't conclude that.
There is no degree of comparison.
Comparison is comparison.
There is no degree.
People worry after comparing.
Comparison is not the problem.
Don't stop the story after comparing.
This is logical.
This is meaningless.
I'm wrong when comparing unconsciously.
Don't conclude the story.
I'm inferior.
I've got no meaning.
Humans conclude stories.
Humans conclude that.
I've got no point living.
I remember it's a good story.
Talk about dramas.
I'm influenced today.
I notice things.
I'm not interested in theater,mystery and stories.
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Foreshadowing does not resolve.
It's meaningless to think.
Mystery fans watch it.
It's saturated.
They make it with crazy logic.
I can't understand it.
Great detective can't understand it.
It's meaningless to twist my head.
I don't know the motivation.
Consistency is contradiction.
This is reflected word.
Who I eliminate contradiction.
Contradiction.
All right.
It looks like that.
It is many contradictions.
All right.
It's like that.
Back to the story.
It's a line.
The protagonist say.
I'm sorry for having you arrange this.
I don't need to say this.
The other person agree this line is meaning.
It's etiquette.
Relationships are complex.
Who I don't say it.
Feeling are conveyed.
It's not meaningless looking back.
It's complex.
I think rationally.
I don't do necessary things.
I have explicable point.
I'm labeling them.
I won't understand in my life.
I can't understand with my head.
I can't be normal.
I should say this.
Humans are simple.
Who I say thank you.
I use imagination.
I think about feelings.
It's complex.
Logic doesn't work.
Japanese people read air.
It's superpower.
It's scary terrible.
I can't understand it.
Countries where people speak frankly.
It doesn't work.
It doesn't suit Japan.
I understand feeling too well.
That's why I'm hard to understand.
What am I?
Tomorrow when mom's away.
I'm on second floor.
I don't want exception.
Who I make exception.
I learn to be lazy.
I have to prevent laziness.
I recognize emergency.
Mom called.
I'm on the second floor.
Should I take it in afternoon?
What should I do?
I think panic.
I'm restless.
Now's night.
Who I fix my argument.
I'm easy.
I don't have conclusion.
I don't run.
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I'm wandering.
Cynical people conclude.
I don't instinct.
Looking back.
I'm running well.
Chest.
It's not my will.
It's not hustle.
I wish everyone like that.
Being chest tense.
I don't have tension.
I'm not rushed.
I'm at my pace.
About dinner.
It's alcohol.
Asparagus.
Unique texture.
There's no running market.
I buy expensive vegetable.
Curry flower.
It's macaroni taste.
I'm thinking philosophy.
Curry flower is taste.
It's individual.
It's mysterious.
It's right.
It's delicious.
It's good.
It's mixed.
It's mayonnaise.
It's mayonnaise.
Supermarket potato salad is vanilla.
I thought it's ice cream.
Summer patterns formed.
The house behind night.
The old man's noisy.
The future's ruined.
I get dinner.
The city broadcast noisy.
Last year was worse.
It's summer.
It's big past.
I thought about the future.
Now I live in fantasy.
I focus on the front.
I treasure the front.
Nice morning.
The night's tough.
The morning's tough.
I hard gas.
I think mom didn't wash hand.
Who ate mom?
I didn't hear it.
If it's simple than that.
I run last year.
I knock.
I call.
They were awake.
I'm confusing.
I said.
I heard talking.
I looked at uniform.
I looked with mom.
Mom didn't think.
I said it's meaningless.
Mom said.
They all look at another side.
Mom's extreme.
It's different.
Mom's think.
I denied it.
I looked at another side.
Mom's off.
I didn't say it's bad.
Mom's reason stopped.
Like a kid in a drama.
I was suspected.
That's why I wouldn't believe.
This power to fulfill a record.
Amazing.
That's why I do podcast.
It's fiction.
I understand feeling.
Humans noticed lack.
Human feel it.
I knock.
I call.
I hear the sound.
I think they wash hands.
Are you clear about?
I said that.
I'm not listening.
They go to the toilet yesterday.
I heard work.
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Can I say I'm listening?
That's not possible.
Why I thought.
Why did they give up last year?
They touch the ear.
Conditioner.
Mom touches when cooking.
I thought no.
Touches at night.
What about gas?
Alternate in the morning.
Posting.
Irregular mom.
Window.
Toothbrush.
Breathing.
I'll make them confess.
Why am I talking?
I'm cooking.
It's rude to make them post.
I made them.
I think it's good timing.
Mom did something else.
It's tough.
Mom almost slept.
I slept until morning.
I think blanky.
I think about drama.
I don't have opportunity to tell mom.
Cousin.
Husband.
Why don't you pray?
Seriously I thought.
What to say?
Common sense for their adult.
I won't use the expression.
They wouldn't say that.
Considering the situation.
How should I do it?
They think they enjoy it.
They think about feeling.
Someone want them.
They do it when want.
They don't do it later.
They don't do it when want.
They don't do it.
They should do it.
They should keep doing it.
The worst doing it.
My parents are like that.
That's right.
They try to find out.
They don't know their personality.
One of the two.
Who they knew.
They take personality.
It's impossible.
Responsibility they should have it.
Who they stop.
It's zero responsibility.
I'll talk.
It's terrible.
That's actor.
How did you know?
I didn't know.
I say it twice.
You know from the face.
My mom talk about what they were in.
The face changed.
They were in many things.
That's why mom knows.
The face changed.
I didn't know.
You knew well.
Mom said.
You know the name.
I'm talking about the face.
I said.
Mom said.
It's not just the face.
You know from the name.
I said.
Do you understand for you?
Look at the name.
You know.
Did mom think there's name tag?
What do you mean?
Mom said.
I saw newspaper.
Mom changed.
I said.
24:00
You knew from the face.
Mom didn't deny it.
Do you understand first mom's of.
I wanna know.
How mom knew without name.
It's different.
It's amazing.
Mom talk about work.
Mom talk about the name.
Yesterday got father.
That's it.
Mom bring it up to.
Refrigerator.
Mom bring it up to cover it.
There was something like that.
Mom complicated.
That's mom's thing.
She can cover it.
It's my story.
Mom has no subject.
I misunderstood.
I said.
Without a subject.
I don't understand.
I checked the schedule.
I said.
Something.
There's silence.
Silence.
I said.
Did you understand?
Mom said.
I couldn't hear.
Why don't you ask?
Are you saying nothing?
That's strange.
Why say it?
Mom should ask.
Mom didn't understand.
Did you think I'd say it's gay?
I think about this in the past.
I couldn't criticize.
I was in the religion.
Don't blame.
I was twisted teaching.
In school food that could.
Half and half.
I couldn't understand.
It's my personal responsibility.
I was twisted teaching.
I couldn't understand.
Don't blame.
Food rights problem.
Solving is important.
It's my responsibility.
Nothing happens.
Solve it.
It's crazy.
Putting aside the touching.
Crazy people are born.
I protected the teaching.
I'm crazy.
Am I a complicated person?
Humans pour out for it.
That's stress relief.
I hold everything.
I don't criticize what's the point.
I thought am I criticizing?
That's not the intention.
I hope this leads to something.
I decide for it.
Correct.
It's good.
It becomes something.
I worry for it.
I don't believe it will become something.
I abandon believing.
The next student popularity.
He was a student in high school.
He was strange.
He was developmental disorder.
It's different.
Junior high.
Soccer club.
He was at the top.
He was full of himself.
He looked down on me.
He made me traumatized.
I am frustrated.
High school he was hated.
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He failed at work.
He quit.
It's what should I say.
He's irritating.
He's unnecessary.
He was in the same sect.
He met at the airport.
He's encouraging his new nephew.
Cousin is apologizing.
It's free to discourage his wrong.
I'm gonna deny his personality.
He was strange confidence.
I hope he repent it.
He'll be from himself.
Podcast I say.
Critical things I worry.
But listeners for it.
Normal fee change.
That's good.
But if I say pretty things.
It's rude.
I lose myself.
I'm gonna make it better.
Next.
I must not be trapped by common sense.
Generally if I'm not trapped.
People do that.
Taboo things.
No merit.
Disadvantage.
I made a mistake.
Taboo things.
No merit for me.
There are merits for others.
It's disadvantage.
It's possible.
It's merit for me.
Don't be trapped.
Generally people are divided.
Difference exist.
Generally merit.
Taboo disadvantage.
Tofu's good.
Worm's good.
I think cold's good.
Being trapped is bad.
I do hateful work for me.
I stay home.
I don't waste for friend.
High school salary thick.
Teacher said I'll teach.
It's for peace of mind.
Who I say this?
I won't be called a thief.
Do they think?
Thieves decrease.
No need to say it.
It's workable.
Why worry?
Why starts I cross the extra world's strange?
It's not like adult.
It's trauma.
I wanna analyze how crazy is the brain.
What did I say?
I was gonna touch.
Who I say this?
I won't be criticized.
I won't wonder.
I don't have that idea.
I can't understand.
Think that person I remember.
People say extra world take interest.
It's strange.
Drawing cross.
They should be confident.
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Animal attack to protect humans.
Who I do that?
I'm prison.
Contradiction of trauma.
I swallow tears.
That's contradiction.
It's way of living.
It's living hell.
Talking about trauma.
I don't want trauma 10 years.
No trauma.
I remember 10 years.
I go.
I don't remember things.
I might forget.
It's in the critical mood.
This story won't be free.
Forget.
This story won't be exhausted.
I don't wanna tell it.
It doesn't go well.
Suddenly think.
I don't understand.
I don't know.
Days ago.
You're not using?
Chickpeas.
Use them.
Do I eat them?
I don't think.
You don't have to.
Use them in a hurry.
I can't understand.
You don't have to.
But use them.
My prank.
Curry.
It takes years.
I eat them.
Mom doesn't use them.
It takes years.
I tell mom.
Mom agree.
I thought.
I don't have to use them.
I thought.
It's different feeling.
You don't have to.
It's true.
I don't have to.
But curry.
I don't know.
It takes years.
Mom thought.
Literally.
I remember.
I eat them.
Cuz I would not.
Cuz I have to.
I think.
I have to.
I don't know.
Now,I don't know.
The answer.
The next.
Language.
Unification.
Easier travelling.
Easier studying abroad.
Easier Arts.
Information is easier.
Why…
To unified.
Different appeared.
I don't know.
Current forms.
Natural history.
Relies to the same.
Relational programs.
Problems.
Amazing.
問題は現状が自然に起きて、次の政治を選ぶことができない。
政治を選ぶことは良いことだ。正しいことを理解することは良いことだ。
正しい偽装は重要だ。
ギャンモロは、私が攻撃するときに、何も起こらない。
見た目は良い。私は何も起こらない。
正しいとは思うと、私は英語を勉強している。
英語は遠い。
言い方は逆だ。
私は理解している。私はルールを運んでいる。
私は昨日、例を覚えています。
私は消えた。ルールはルールではない。
私は何をするか分からない。私はそれをしない。
私はそれを理解していない。
ロマンティックな後悔。
リリースは同じ。
真面目さは同じ。
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私はそれを後悔した。
それは私の後悔とは異なっている。
私は生物的に考えた。
それは自然だ。心配しないで。
私はドラマが欲しかった。
それは意味がある。
私は目が覚めた。
次の法律者は犯罪権を知っている。
私は個人の社会システムをプロジェクトしなければならない。
私は心を抜けなければならない。
彼らは子どものために適している。
彼らは補償できない。
彼らの生命を守るための困難なグレード。
ロマンティックは同じ。
彼らは心を抜けなければならない。
教師は必要ない。
私は例外を見た。
教師が少ないといいな。
私は例外を見た。
私は理論的に小さな数字を目指している。
私は小さな数字を見た。
それは問題ではありません。
私は社会を理解しない。
教師は責任を負う。
次の学生は教えない。
人々は座っている。
教師は座っている。
私はプロデューサーの親友を思い出します。
彼らは黒い。
彼らは自由ですか?
私はそう思いません。
私は家に帰りたい。
私は次の親友を抱きしめるのが嫌いです。
次の親友は消えてしまう。
私の存在は完璧ではありません。
それは消えてしまいません。
それは存在しません。
それはそのようなものです。
私は友達を持っていません。
私は家族を持っていません。
家族は望ましいものではありません。
何が問題なのか。
私は動物です。
私は誰を生きているのか分かりません。
人間は未来を生きています。
