00:00
Welcome to Kevin's English Room Podcast.
Hello.
Okay, so we have...
Okay, shout out on this one.
All right, on Kevin's English Room, sorry, on Amazon Music, we are doing a show called
Kevin's English Room Podcast Plus. It's a five-minute spin-off version of this show
where we answer English questions we get from our listeners.
Yeah, it's free. All you have to do is download Amazon Music and search for our show and start
enjoying it.
And we are looking for more of the questions on the Plus, right?
Yes.
So if you ask your question now, high chance Yamcha's gonna pick it, right?
Because we're getting more on the normal ones than on the Plus, right?
So it'll be great if we had more Plus questions, more English questions.
Simple ones will be appreciated.
Absolutely.
What is this word? How do you pronounce this?
Those ones.
Sure.
Right.
So...
This one?
Okay.
Okay.
Okay.
Okay.
Hmm.
アイデンティティの葛藤
I think I've talked about this before, like in the past episode,
where like I have like an identity crisis thing where like I'm not
fully Japanese, I'm not fully American.
Like, you know, I've lived half of my life there, half of my life here.
It's like, I speak both languages.
I don't speak either of the languages perfectly.
Well, you do.
Yeah.
Thank you for saying that.
But like for my end, it's like, I'm not perfect, perfect, right?
So there is that weird, you know, identity crisis there.
I wouldn't say too much of a crisis though.
It's not like my life is like, oh, like daunting or something like that.
But it's just like, oh, where do I belong?
I don't know.
Yeah.
That's an interesting question.
So yeah, I had a similar experience.
Yeah.
How do you feel right now?
Like it's been more than a while.
Yes.
Right now?
Yeah.
I feel like I don't even have to be anything.
Like really, I'm not really pressured into like belonging to anything.
Yeah.
The sense of belongingness isn't really, I'm not needing it anymore.
Okay.
Yeah.
When you were like high school or college student, maybe you felt you needed to be so?
Yeah, I guess in a way I had a sort of like a feeling where like,
hmm, I want to belong to something.
How should I present myself out there to be like, am I an American?
Am I a Japanese?
ホームの感覚
And I'm sort of like, hey, like I can do both.
So that was kind of hard.
But I don't have that anymore.
It just kind of went away.
Okay.
Yeah.
Do you have the reason, like a specific one?
I don't know.
It's just-
Never dug deep into that feeling before.
But I'm guessing it's something along the lines of like,
feeling like I want to be accepted by people,
or feeling like I want to prove myself out there,
or something like that, I'm assuming.
Yeah.
That's why you needed more-
Clarity on who I am.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
But now you don't feel it anymore.
Yeah, it just kind of like naturally kind of like faded.
Faded.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Okay, okay.
So it's been more than 10 years, right?
Yeah.
After you came to Japan.
Yeah.
So it's like, how many years?
So,
Is that how you count?
No, I'm just being silly.
Yeah.
Well, I mean, when you enter to the high school, that means you're 15, I guess?
Yeah.
So it's more than-
More than 10 to 12.
Oh, 12 years.
Okay.
That's cool.
So it's almost literally like half and half.
Sure.
I mean, I've been to other countries, right?
And then been to Japan even before that a little bit.
So I guess it's a little bit more on the Japanese side, but-
Okay.
Yeah, I guess.
Yeah, you can say.
But it is kind of like mixed up, right?
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
So we went to New York or LA together for works, right?
And every time I see you landing to the United States,
I felt like you were kind of excited to coming back to the US.
But you feel more like home in Japan or-
Oh, yeah, I definitely feel.
So I don't really have a home home.
Okay, okay.
Because our Jika moved from Japan to America and all the places.
So Jika was never a one place for me.
So I don't have a home home, I guess.
Like most people do.
So yeah, they're both kind of like at some level home, America and Japan, both.
Yeah.
It is unique.
It's very unique.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Okay, okay.
I see, I see.
Because I have like certain home-y.
Right.
So I think that how you're seeing it, it would be like different.
Yeah.
And I felt like you were kind of excited and like felt good when you're landing to the US.
Like coming back to the US kind of.
ケビンのホームの感覚
Yeah, yeah.
I mean, there's some aspect of it.
Yeah.
I guess it's not only like home feeling, but like snacks and foods and-
Yeah.
All the things included.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
That's right.
I see, I see, see.
But I'm more excited to go back to Japan.
Okay, okay.
Yeah.
Like the excitement of me going to New York versus coming back to Japan.
Okay.
Japan's so much higher.
Okay, okay.
Probably because I like Japan better, like more than America.
Yeah.
As a place to live.
So that's why, probably.
So are you going to stay in Japan?
Yeah, yeah.
Yeah.
I don't think I would go back to America.
I don't know though.
It might change.
Yeah.
I have no idea, but.
But you don't have like strong desire.
I don't have, yeah.
Currently I don't have strong desire for going anywhere.
Like Japan, I want to stay here for-
Yeah.
It's just fun going to the US and-
Yeah, sure.
Eat some-
Occasionally here and there.
Yes, that's fun.
Yeah, always fun.
Sure.
Like childhood memories.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Like especially Rome, I would love to go back to my parents' house.
That's great.
That's awesome.
Yeah.
True.
I see, I see, I see.
Yeah.
And now your dad is like planning to move to the new place, right?
Yeah, that's what he's saying.
When he's, when his kouhai is like-
Oh, he needs to-
A predecessor is like good enough to be like, oh, I got this.
And he's like, leave it to him.
He still needs some time, I guess.
But at the same time, he's like, hey, it's not my company.
So like, I don't have to really take responsibility now.
I can leave when I want to.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
So I guess he's kind of like looking at the balance, I guess, of when to leave.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Has your dad taken in?
Not yet.
Not yet?
Okay.
What is he going to do?
Does he have any plans of-
He has many things that he want to do.
Ah, that's exciting.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
He's-
A lot of things planned out.
Yeah.
Is he going to stay in Japan or-
I think so.
Is it possible he might move?
Mainly, like, yeah.
I don't know how much amount of was the joke,
but he repeatedly saying that he's going to move to the Indonesia or Thai.
アイデンティティの探求
Wow.
Yeah, like southeast, warm within island, sea countries.
But that's awesome.
He can do whatever he wants.
Yeah.
Right?
Yeah.
Like it's-
He's free to do that now, right?
Yeah.
My mom loves to do those things, you know, going to the abroad.
So maybe your parents both can go over there and just enjoy time together or-
Could be.
That's fun.
Yeah.
Right?
I'm not sure how much-
That was a joke or not.
It's a joke or not, but-
At least that's what they're saying.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Right.
Yeah.
Right.
So, yeah.
So, yeah.
What was the question?
Yeah.
The right.
So that's the thing about the identity for me.
Oh, yes, yes.
All right.
So good.
Thanks for sitting, guys.
Thank you.
Bye-bye.
