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Welcome to Kevin's English Room Podcast!
So, um, today, we just finished our Nanahoso.
Yeah.
And in that episode, I talked about me blabbering.
Yeah.
Blabbering subconsciously.
Yeah.
My mind trips into what happened early on today and I start talking when I'm alone in the showers, right?
Which is really strange to me.
Exactly.
To everyone.
Exactly.
So, I thought we're going to dedicate this one episode to deep down, deepen down what's going on.
Right.
So, like, right.
And it happens.
It happens.
And like, it's, I don't know.
I don't know why this happens.
Like, I'm in the showers.
Be like, my mind is like, so something funny happened today, early on today.
Say that happens, right?
Yeah.
And I'm like, I'm washing my head.
And like, I'm like, that's crazy.
That's crazy.
I thought so.
Yeah, I thought so.
This is what I'm doing.
Literally, this is what I'm doing as I am washing my head with a shampoo.
Actually, this is the first time that I feel a little, you know, distance.
Zero, you can't resonate with me at all.
Yeah, sorry.
You can't understand a bit.
Like, maybe we can go along with you.
It's a little too strange to me.
Maybe we should go different ways now.
Yeah, I know, right?
I don't.
Yeah.
Like you told me that you sometimes forget that you are with somebody.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I do.
And you start talking.
Exactly.
Without that.
That happens.
Nobody.
Right.
That happens.
And that the other person's like, hey, well, Kevin, Kevin, what are you?
Who are you talking to?
Yeah, like you were right there.
Now just talking to somebody.
And I was like, and I come back after that person's like, Kevin, what are you doing?
I come back to the reality.
And I'm like, oh, that was embarrassing.
I was talking, right?
And like the other person's like, yeah, you were like, you were talking with somebody.
I was like, right.
Yeah, sorry about that.
Yeah, I'm sorry about that.
Yeah, crazy, right?
This is crazy.
It doesn't happen so often.
Like this, it only happens to people who I'm really, really, really close with.
Right.
So it's not going to happen to like who I met the third time or something.
It definitely not going to happen.
Like in a public space, in a train.
Not going to happen.
Right.
But still.
So it's going to be very rare for you guys to encounter that.
I don't think any of us, I don't think I'm close enough with you two for this to happen.
Right, I've never heard that you talk like really, you know, that tone.
Right, right.
Never happened.
So you probably will never see me happening.
Like your family or your girlfriend.
Right, like your family.
Yes, yes.
Yeah.
So, you know, this is weird, but it happens.
It's weird.
Do you, you don't feel anything?
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Like what do you mean?
You don't even realize when you are tripping away.
I am.
I don't even realize that maybe this is like me being in the zone.
You know, like when athletes are in the zone.
Maybe this is happening to me.
Maybe I'm very concentrated.
No, no, no, it's just different.
It's not the high place.
It's just the stupidity.
Stupidity landed on me.
I don't know.
Yeah, I don't realize.
What makes you go to that place?
What makes you?
When I'm, when I'm.
What's the trigger to you?
It's like when I'm daydreaming, maybe when I'm thinking of not daydreaming, but like when I'm thinking about something like, you know, when you're in the showers, you really don't have anything to do.
Like your hands are doing what you're doing every day.
So you don't really have to think to wash your head, right?
So I have space inside me to think about stuff.
That's when I go in to a different world.
And start remembering.
Yes, yes.
Things that happen.
Exactly, exactly.
And then I start living it.
That's that. Okay, big point. The turning point.
That's your, so you agree with me.
Between usual people and strange people.
So you agree with me that when you're in the showers, you think about stuff.
Of course.
That's what I can agree with you.
But the part where I start living it is our, our separation.
Yeah.
Like stop living it.
Yeah.
Did the comments say that some people were like "wakaru?"
Was there some of those comments?
Today's stream?
When I was talking about that, do you remember?
I don't remember, but I can say that there is no one food.
You don't know, you don't know.
You just might find it, you know, might find it surprising.
Yeah, might be.
Yeah.
I do understand that sometimes I remember, you know, recall what I did today and what I experienced today.
Yeah.
Like during taking bath, taking shower.
Yeah.
That's, that's can, I can understand that.
But I won't be gone in that world.
Right, right.
I don't know what kind of characteristics can be like, speculated from this.
Like, like, am I a very emotional guy?
Or like, am I a very like, what?
Am I a very like feeling-ish guy?
Like, I don't know what kind of like speculations can be made from this.
Like for me, I have experienced that I was into that world and recall the flow again.
Which means I was in that world, that different world.
But I, but I, you know, didn't say a single word.
Okay.
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Nothing.
But I was in a world.
So that's the difference between me and you.
Right, right, right.
You, you naturally talked, like physically.
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.
Physical actions come in play.
I don't know.
Hmm.
So another thing I usually, I, it's, I often smile remembering the funny things that happened.
So this happens more frequently than me talking.
It's like, actually I've seen that.
Right, you've seen it right?
Several times I've seen that.
I think I'm more open towards doing the smiling things in front of other people than the actually physically talking.
Yeah.
The talking thing, that never happened, that usually doesn't happen when I'm around people.
But the smiling thing, I think it can really happen even if I'm surrounded by people.
And you've seen it, you say.
Yes, I've seen it.
What, do you remember?
Yeah, it was kind of...
Situation?
Situation?
I've seen you smiling like a couple of times.
So it was just you talking.
And once we had a, you know, blank space.
Like conversation was end.
And nothing was there but you were smiling.
Like that was really like...
Creepy?
No, it was really charming.
So you took that as cute and charming?
Yeah, I mean, yeah.
So it didn't seem creepy?
Like, let's be transparent here.
Was that in the creepy zone?
Or was that like, oh, he looks happy zone?
I thought, oh, he looks happy.
So it wasn't that creepy one.
It wasn't creepy smile?
It wasn't.
I mean, you know, it was on the edge though.
On the verge of...
Still, it was like happy smile and it was kind of cute to me.
You know, I thought, oh, he feels that happy atmosphere.
Oh, he feels that, you know.
So if you thought that that smile was on the verge of becoming a creepy smile,
then I guess some people may take that as a creepy smile, right?
Yeah, I think so.
That's a little dangerous.
Yeah.
But I can't help it, man.
I can't help it.
I don't know why this happens.
Smiling is really...
Exactly.
Much more...
Good.
Bitter.
Right, it's good.
Than you used talking.
It's good.
But the thing is, you know how like when you have these tendencies, like kuse,
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for example, like if you are a bit poor, then you can tell that that person is a little bit like...
You can understand a little bit about his characteristics, right?
If he's poor, maybe he might be a little bit tanky.
He might get angry.
Yeah.
You see, there's characteristics related to that movement, right?
Right.
But mine is like...
Yeah.
What kind of characteristic is connected to that?
You can't really...
Yeah.
You can't get a read on that person if he does that, right?
So that's a little bit scary.
That's weird.
Maybe a psychopath, maybe, I don't know.
Maybe.
Yeah, we really want that if somebody who have the same tendency then to...
Yes.
To let us know...
I want a nakama.
Yeah.
Yeah, I do.
I do.
I'm pretty sure that there is not many...
I know, right?
...your nakama in this world.
For sure.
Yeah.
Is this a hotel?
Yeah, it is.
Oh.
You can use as an office.
Yeah.
Really?
Like telework.
Oh, right.
Lights.
No one's using hotel today, right?
In recent days.
Yeah.
All right.
Okay, so that was...
10 minutes.
No, it was 10 minutes.
Great.
Nice.
That was my mystery of...
Yeah.
...suddenly slipping away.
So guys, if you find Kevin on the street and see he was smiling...
Yeah, smiling, it could literally...
That could happen.
...maybe he was talking alone.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Please don't touch.
Just letting him go.
Just letting him go.
Okay.
All right.
Thanks for listening, guys.
Bye-bye.
Bye bye.
