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Welcome to Kevin's English Room podcast!
Wow! Hello, hello, sir.
That was a more kids show-ish kind of opening.
Kids show?
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Kind of like SpongeBob's opening.
You know SpongeBob's opening?
No. What is it like?
Aye aye, Captain! Aye aye!
Ohhhhh, da da da da da da da da da da! Aye aye, Captain!
Da da da da da da da da da da! Aye aye, Captain!
You don't know?
No, I don't.
No? Okay, so you did something like that.
Yeah, you kind of like that.
Children's problem-ish.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Why am I feeling so much distance from you?
Like you're not here with me.
Like I feel like you're in a different dimension here.
You're like far away looking down at me.
No, I don't look down at you.
Okay, Kevin. Are you finished, Kevin?
Are you good then?
No, no.
You did your thing? All right.
No, I thought it was a little like Indian accent.
Okay, did you feel that Indian accent?
Yeah.
Can you repeat that again?
No?
Okay, if I can do it correctly.
Yeah.
Okay, welcome to Kevin's English Room Podcast!
I don't know if I did that.
Okay.
I think it was a different kind of...
Yeah, this time I didn't feel the Indian-ness.
Okay, we'll do a replay after that.
Yeah.
Check.
All right.
So...
All right.
I've got a...
DM.
Oh!
Through the Instagram.
Oh, okay. That's...
No twist, okay?
No twist there?
Of our official Instagram.
Okay, no twist there?
As always.
So this is from Rijom-san.
Rijom-san!
Thank you.
Thank you.
This is a question from the podcast.
Are there people you're jealous of?
What kind of people do you feel jealous of?
I'm curious, so I'd like to hear your answer.
Great question.
Thank you, Rijom-san.
Thank you, Rijom-san.
Jealous people...
Huh?
Who could it be?
Do you have anybody in your mind?
I'm trying to think of one.
Like, I...
Like, in my case, I have so many people that I...
I'm jealous of.
But it's not...
I wouldn't...
Like, whole...
You know, it's not...
Someone that...
Like, everything of that man...
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I feel jealous about.
Is it not?
Or is?
Like, I have so many people that...
That I feel jealous about.
But it's partially like...
Got it.
Like...
Like, his skill sets.
Yeah, skill set or mindset.
Or maybe shape.
Maybe.
Shape of the body?
Maybe.
Could be.
Like, I'm jealous of Usain Bolt.
Are you serious?
Yeah, I do.
Like, the shape of his body.
It's really cool.
Like, is that...
Is that shit though?
Like, I don't know if it's shit though.
Like, I feel like that's like...
Yeah, like shit though is a little...
Okay, then let's make a definition.
Okay.
What is shit though then?
That's a good...
You know, it's a...
What's the difference, right?
It's the difference between...
Like, admiring and...
Yeah, I admire Usain Bolt then.
Difference between admiration and shit though.
Yeah, yeah.
What is shit though in English?
Can you...
Oh, jealous, no?
Jealous, huh?
No.
Anxiety?
No, it's not anxiety.
I think it's a Japanese kind of perspective, don't you think?
Let's just see how Google defines shit though.
Jealousy.
Jealousy.
But jealousy would be more like...
I don't know if jealousy is exactly the same.
I mean, it feels a little bit different.
Jealousy is like, "Urayamashii."
Yeah.
Don't you think?
"Urayamashii" would be more like jealousy.
Yeah.
Like, when you say shit though...
Envy.
Envy, yeah.
Envy, I think envy is close.
Close, envious.
Jealous, envy.
Envy, right?
I think envy would...
What is envy?
Can you click that?
See how they define it?
Like, when you say shit though, it's a little different from...
Oh yeah.
"Netami urayami senbou."
Right, right, right.
Like, shit means have a little element of negativity.
Yeah.
Like, yeah.
I wonder if she doesn't have that much of a negativity in the word, right?
Right.
Right.
So, envy could be the closest we can...
Okay, okay.
I'm not too familiar with envy, the word envy, so I'm not sure if it's like exactly the same culturally.
Okay.
But for now, I'll just put it as envy.
Okay.
So, like, people like Usain Bolt, Usain Bolt, I don't know.
Usain?
Usain Bolt.
I don't know the right pronunciation in Jamaica, but...
I feel like they're too far apart for me to feel shit though, don't you think?
Right.
Like, you can't really imagine yourself out...
Like, it's almost impossible to be in that zone.
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Okay.
It's gone from the shit zone.
Gotcha.
More like the dream zone.
Yeah.
You know what I'm saying?
When you feel shit though to someone, like, someone must be close to you.
Right.
It's someone close to you, don't you think?
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
If you feel shit though.
Right.
Like, you don't feel shit though to, like, the boyfriend of Ishihara Satomi, right?
Like, that's not...
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Right?
Right.
A little kuyashisa, maybe, isn't it?
Maybe, like...
Like, when you feel shit though, the basement of your feeling is something that I and someone
is the same.
Got it.
Like, ability...
Like, what?
Like, the things they have is the same.
Like, we are...
We should be the same, but...
When I feel shit though, I feel like I'm better.
Right.
I'm one step forward.
Then I feel shit though, right?
Right.
I think you're really close.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I don't know if that's, like, the 100% kind of answer, but I think there could be, like,
a different answer, but, like, that's for sure.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
That's ending for sure.
Yeah.
Like, one thing that's really big in the world of shit though is, I think, romance.
Yeah.
When I was a college student...
Okay.
I think, like, sophomore, second year.
Okay.
I was dating a girl.
Okay.
And I felt the shit though.
Like, I had shit though.
You did feel?
Yes, I did.
Oh, really?
I did feel shit though when I was in the relationship.
And that was the, I think, the one and only time I felt the shit though.
Oh.
And I felt like that really killed inside me.
Wow.
And I was feeling shit though when I was dating that person.
It really, like, drained my emotions.
It really drained the...
It was really unhealthy.
Well, why did it felt that?
Because...
Like, you were dating with her.
Right.
Because I was...
I felt that because maybe because I was scared to lose her.
Ah.
That's why you feel the shit though.
Okay.
Right?
You felt shit though when she, like, was speaking to somebody?
When she's...
When you can feel that she's closer to somebody.
Like, that's when you feel the shit though.
Ah, okay.
Um...
Shit though.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Is it...
Do you feel the shit though towards the other guy?
Or do you feel shit though in yourself?
Wow.
Like, you know how... you know that situation right now, what I said?
This is a cliche situation.
That's a shit though.
It's a cliche situation.
Yes, yes, yes.
You understand, right?
This is like a...
Like a...
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Like a really kind of standard kind of...
Yeah, that's an ABC of shit though.
Right, exactly.
Are you feeling shit towards that guy?
Or me?
Or are you feeling shit towards the girlfriend?
What do you think?
Wow, I don't...
Shit though?
Shit though.
Shit though.
I feel shit towards him.
So it's the guy.
It's the guy.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah.
But, shit-bukai no wa you.
You.
Right, me.
Yeah.
So, when you say, "ore wa shit-bukai" or "kare wa shit-bukai", then he feels shit-ness.
Shit-ness, okay?
Shit-ness.
Yeah.
Inside.
Feels shitty.
Yeah.
What the fuck is shitty?
Is that...
Shit.
Yeah.
Maybe that's something, the feeling inside of your mind.
Right, right.
But, shi...
But when you say, "shitto suru", it means that you feel shit-to to that guy.
Okay.
So, okay, so that time I felt the shit-to, and it really, I felt like this was really
unhealthy.
Like, I'm not happy.
Right?
Like, I am not...
Even though you are...
I am dating her, yes.
I'm her boyfriend, I'm dating her, but like, I'm not happy.
What the fuck is this emotion, right?
And I felt like, okay, I have to change.
I feel like there's something inside me that I have to change.
My mindset, my perspective on dating, something.
But like, I felt that feeling shit-to was not healthy at all.
And I've decided to make changes that I don't want to feel shit-to.
Like, I...
So, how did I change my perception?
I started looking at the other person as like another...
Like, she has her own life.
Like, she has her merit.
Yeah.
Like, I feel like meritocracy, you know?
Meritocracy, you know?
Meritocracy.
Meritocracy.
The merit...
The art of merits.
Okay.
The meritocracy.
Like, every single human being is based on merits.
Like, they make decisions on merits.
Like, it's a merit for me to date her because it's more of a fun compared to not dating her.
It's a merit for me to buy a MacBook Pro because I feel like I can get a positive ROI against me acquiring it.
And I feel like...
I feel like...
So, if she wants to talk to another guy, if she wants to flirt with another guy, that's her own merit.
And if I don't like that, I have my choice, my meritocracy of leaving her.
Right?
And if the merit is still on me and I still want to date her, then I have to accept the fact that she wants to flirt with another guy.
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That's in her own merit.
And in my merit, I get to decide if I want to stay or leave.
So, like, that's how I changed my perspective.
And from that time on, I didn't feel any...
I broke up with her after I felt like a really strong shito and I had to leave her.
Yeah.
Kind of like, spend my time to change my mindset a little bit.
After that, I didn't feel any shito from that on.
Wow.
Right?
So, like, do I feel shito...
The last time I felt shito was like, that guy, I guess.
Yeah.
That guy that she flirted with.
And, yeah.
Wow.
So, like, outside of romance, I don't think I shito to anyone.
Yeah.
Shito, then I...
Okay.
You got something?
You know, I always forget everything.
Right. Okay.
Maybe that's the reason.
But then I think I never felt shito.
Oh, wow.
Like, maybe I forget, but...
Just maybe I forgot, but...
Oh.
Right.
Grammatically, it's...
Okay.
Maybe it's just that I've forgotten it.
Okay.
Maybe it's just that I have forgotten it.
Okay.
That's the grammatical...
Maybe I have just...
What, what is it?
Maybe it's just that I've just forgotten it.
Okay. Forgotten it.
Yeah.
Okay.
It's not forgot it.
Maybe it's just I forgot it.
Maybe it's just...
That I've forgotten it.
You just forgot it.
Maybe I just forgot it.
Forgot it.
Makes sense.
Okay. Yeah, just forgot it.
Maybe I just forgotten it.
It's a little strange for you.
Okay, I don't know.
Okay.
I'm gonna have to search that.
Okay.
But maybe it's just I have forgotten it.
Yeah.
But...
Yeah.
If you're dating somebody, and that girl, right,
is kind of flirting with another guy.
Do you know flirting?
Flirting.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Do you not feel no emotions against that?
Like...
What do you mean dating?
Like...
Okay.
If you mean like literally we are going outside
and having like lunch together,
and it was kind of like planned date.
Yeah.
And go out and maybe go somewhere, somewhere.
Then in that day, she goes to the somewhere
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and maybe talking on the phone or floating around.
Then I would feel like why she is here.
Right.
It's our time.
Yeah.
Right.
It's not something that I feel shit to that guy or whatever.
I have another suggestion.
Okay.
You're dating somebody, right?
You're in three months in.
Okay.
The hottest moment, right?
Three months in, right?
Okay.
This three months is the hottest.
That's how they say it.
Okay.
Okay.
And then you're in a circle.
Okay.
Okay.
You're in the circle and so it's not a dating time, right?
It's a circle time.
Okay.
She's really...
You overheard your girlfriend talking to another guy saying that,
"Let's go out for a drink together next time."
How about that?
How do you feel?
Oh, wow.
Let me just imagine that situation, okay?
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Okay.
I don't know actually.
Nothing.
I feel nothing.
Do you feel nothing?
Yeah.
She doesn't have to be with you, with me, first of all.
Okay.
And like as you said, we all have meritocracy, right?
Meritocracy.
Meritocracy.
Right.
Then based on that meritocracy, if she want to spend time with me,
then let's spend time.
So then she want to spend time with that guy or another girl,
then that's her life.
Right.
So I don't actually care about that.
Okay.
Maybe I feel a little envy, maybe, in that situation, in reality, maybe,
but I can't imagine that.
But I might feel like nothing special.
Nothing at all.
Okay.
That's really close to how I would feel after I got that mindset of change,
the meritocracy world.
But I feel like it's happy that someone I love is being loved from other people.
But she's still loving me, then I'm happy.
Like imagining if I like Minnie Mouse, you know the Minnie Mouse in your life?
And she's being loved from so many guys, maybe so many people, and I love her.
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And if she loves me, like I'm happy.
I don't feel nothing that so many guys are loving Minnie Mouse.
Okay.
I want to talk to you about this topic on the next episode.
I want to deepen this down a little bit because I'm kind of interested in how you feel.
It's real interesting.
It's kind of the first time that I think about it.
We're talking about this.
All right.
18 minutes.
Yeah, it was a long one.
Right.
Thanks for listening, guys.
